Venting My friend died from Fake Percs :( I am still devastated

Yunai

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Hi, I was not active for this site for a while because I completely withdrew from social media for like 2 weeks ever since I learned that my friend died on the 2nd October from Fake Percs (Fuck Fentanyl). to everyone who sent me a dm, I could just respond to your questions now so please check my responses.

It got me thinking real hard, in a way it is a deal with the devil. Our addictions are all different personal stories. For me I was super miserable for over half a decade after high school until I got into Uni and found my first and only gf, the most beautiful girl I ever met, when she left it was bad and I was dead seriously considering ending it all but then I decided to start doing opiates instead and it saved my life, I still remember the first few weeks when I did Morphine it was such an intense feeling of warmth that I literally called the drug “KayKay” cuz that was her nickname and whenever the warmth kicked in all the heartbreak, pain, suicidal thoughts disappeared and it almost was like she was with me again. 3 years later and I am substituted on Morphine and happy to be still roaming the Earth. I do believe it saved my life but I am very happy I went to the clinic and I have an infinite prescription now so I will never have to fear of getting laced product with Fentanyl in it.

My friend was also an artist and I knew him for 8 years. his music meant so much to me, he been doing opiates way longer than me and it was a very common theme he sang about in his songs which resonated so much with me, it literally devastated me so much more than I thought when I learnt of his sudden death. He was just 28 years old. Fly high and now you’ll forever be in that warmth bliss ❤️🕊️
 
im sorry....
theres not a lot to say, really. at least from where im at.
loss is not the best of life experiences yet it is a prerequisite for some unknown (as yet) reason. they say celebrate what they brought to the world or whatever but to me it makes it seem harder, idk.

wprk in prgree

not sure your age but get used to it. the older ya get the more of the opportunity to lose.

i brought something akin to this up in a recent therapy lesson and it struck me that even loss has a paradox > gain. my gain may be different from yours but i see no other way out....

we love you
thanks for sharing
<3
 
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