Well, after months of anticipation, and trying to get hold of it, I took acid for the first time yesterday.. So, to start, I'm not a heavy user of psychedelics. I'm quite a heavy user of ecstasy and weed. I've took 'trippy pills' in the past that have boggled my mind, and have had on one occasion 40 small magic mushrooms (no visuals whatsoever, but again, a total mindfuck).. So I don't know what my tolerance is like.. It might give someone an idea to how well I deal with it.
But anyway, on Friday night, i went out and took some ecstasy out at a clubnight (Only one and a half), came back to one of my friends at about 10am, at this point, not feeling the e anymore, and I'd been awake 24 hours). I have some pretty bad sleep problems, and I'm pretty used to being awake for 24 hours, after taking ecstasy or not. I was tired, but I wouldn't have been able to sleep if I'd tried, just due to how excited I'd been from the night before. I was a bit hesitant at first, because I'd read I wouldn't be able to sleep while I was on acid, but i'd done some research and read online it should last about 10 hours (something I later found out depends on a lot of factors), so I'd expected to be able to get a powernap later on in the night, when I'd planned to take some more ecstasy with some friends. So, I was pretty good mindset, I was just a bit tired, so thought why not..
T:0:00 Me and a friend had one tab of acid each.
T:0:45 the main thing I started to notice was the walls warping, and stretching... Nothing major, I was wondering whether it was just a placebo effect in my mind.
T-2:00-4:00 over about 2-4 hours I slowly came up.. I went outside briefly, and everything looked really vibrant, which was cool, but I got a bit bored, and came inside, and all the colours where pretty dull and boring, which disapointed me a bit, as I'd been expecting a much more intense trip by this point. As it got heavier into the trip, there was a couple of patterns that I kept looking at that kept changing and moving (wallpaper ect), and the ceiling if i looked at it would spin around, but untill about 4-6 hours in, I was pretty bored.. I was amused by the visuals, but I wasn't really that entertained because i was in a totally sober frame of mind, and just kind of wondering what the fuss was about.
T-6:00 At some point, probably about 6 hours in, it just started to feel like somebody had took my mind apart and put it back together wrong. I can still taste the letter 'X', when I swallow, as I'm writing this, which I have to say, is an acquired taste. I felt like electricity..I tried to call a few friends, to arange them getting a taxi down to come see us and get stoned before we took E on the night, but my words just wouldn't come out right, and i ended up totally unable to comprehend what was being said to me, or id know what i needed to say back, but not be able to word it (In the end I went and woke one of my friends who was still asleep from the night before up who was asleep in the house to arrange it for me). I also tried texting a few of my friends, who had told me to keep in touch with them, and let me know how it was because they'd been curious about it, but I couldn't read. I was trying to read, but I couldn't understand what order to read the words in, they where wobbling on the screen a bit, and I was looking allover.
T-8:00 - 10:00 It probably got to about 10 hours into the trip, and i was still going harder than ever. I was starting to panic, because I'd read that you take about 4 hours to come up, then slowly come down. So I was wondering if I'd ever actually come down.. and was worried id done permanent brain damage, but I was in a weird mindset, just just thought “well, if I have, I have, I may aswell try and enjoy it”. I was having a lot of difficulty perceiving time, and had some deep thoughts. At one point, when I went for a walk, i looked at my watch, and had a panic attack for about 5 seconds and froze still because I thought I'd accidentally stopped time, untill I realised I'd just knocked the pause button on my timer (Still something my friends are laughing at me for, rightfully so). It felt like time was jittering about. I didn't feel like time was sequential, i felt that time was already predetermined and all layed out, and we where just travelling along the line of time, but it was looping back on it’s self, and pulling in times from the past and future.. So yeah, i continued with this for god knows how long, all the time, still really tripping with my concept of time. I was seeing pretty cool visuals when i focused on things like the wallpaper was warping and flashing, and changing colour and shape, which was amusing me a lot more than earlier. I was starting to feel aware I was shakey, but I put this down to the lack of sleep and shrugged it off.
T-11:00 At about 9, about at night, some more friends arrived, and I ended up being convinced by a friend to take an E, after a long debate with myself on whether I should get a few hours sleep first so I didn't overdo my body, but yeah, one of my friends convinced me. After I'd dropped it though, I started instantly having a panic attack for half an hour, thinking I'd done something that could have been fatal. I kept it as calm as possible and just took deep breaths, as not to panic any of my friends who where enjoying themselves, but it was horrible. In the end, the e kicked in after about half an hour, and the visuals where unbearable. the walls where breathing hard in and out, patterns all around me where swirling and morphing and changing colour quickly, everything was warping fast and hard, which I found very scary. I tried to hide it, but my friends kept asking me if I was okay, and asking what was wrong, so I guess I wasn't doing a great job, but then the E hit me fully after about 5 minutes of it, and my visuals calmed suddenly.. I just rushed like normal off E... In a strange way, the E had sobered my head up, as I could actually talk, but it fucked my body up (my heart was pounding, I was shaking, I kept randomly spasming), but overall, I felt really pilled up. I got an amazing rush of love and sat and cuddled one of my friends (something we always do when we're on E), I chatted absolute bollocks with my friends for hours and had some joints all the time I was still seeing the walls breathing, patterns moving, but not as intense.. but the E seemed to be in the drivers seat, which I was very comfortable with.. I was a lot less anxious about everything, and was really enjoying myself.
T-14:00-15:00 after I was past my peak on E, I sat and got high, to try and keep myself rushing, like I usually do... and started to notice the acid again, quite rapidly but different this time.. It hit me totally different.. One thing I remember is I'd say something to someone, then it'd be erased from my memory as soon as I'd said it. I'd only know because people would reply to me, and I'd just look at them puzzled.. I thought they where messing with my head at first, but then kind of realised they weren't, because part of me was remembering saying things, just not what or who to. At this point I realised my memory was pretty much in pieces.. When I was smoking weed, all I could taste was the letter X, and I could feel it a bit too, something that I realise is totally indescribable and confusing, but I'm sure somebody else whos done LSD will understand.. I was absolutely destroyed. I was incredibly shakey (quite probably due to being awake for 48 hours easily by this point), and just didnt feel right. I thought I'd done some seriously permanent brain damage. This is when I experienced the main bit I remember about the acid; in my mind, it was my peak; I was experiencing something nearly indescribable. I sort of felt like I was electricity. I was jittery, shakey, and i started tripping hard. I find it really hard to describe the sort of thing was was happening visually. one thing I remember was that I was looking at what was infront of me, and bits of my vision started peeling away like layers, folding over, and revealing holes that had stuff in them (for example the word reality). I remember feeling absolutely certain I could understand and picture several dimensions (something I can still kind of picture), and how they kind of folded and twisted around our 3 dimensions behind the scenes of what we could see, and I was convinced that there must be some way shape or form to use it to teleport, to move to somewhere taking advantage of this other dimension without my friends seeing. I felt like I was in gods workshop, and I was seeing things behind the scenes, as they weren't meant to be seen by ordinary people. I was seeing the world in a totally different perspective. I was on another level to what I'd ever been on, I've been in some stupidly foolish states on E in the past, when I've tried to push, and this made that feel sober in comparison.
T:18:00-20:00 I continued this way for quite a while, and about 18 hours in, I realised I could probably go to sleep if I tried, so I sat and smoked weed with my friends that where still awake until eventually they'd all passed out, so I put my head down and dropped to sleep instantly, and woke up feeling fine.
I don't really know what to say about my experience. It was most certainly not what I expected LSD to feel like, or be like.. I know E pretty well, and I know what was E, and what wasn't (Or I think I do).. And I can safely say I can never look even at the words LSD in the same way again. Even reading my experience back to myself, I realise a lot of it sounds like other reports I've read.. but for some reason, it was still totally different to what I had expected. It felt like someone had rewired my brain totally, my senses where confused, and I had ups and downs.. but overall I really enjoyed it. I explored my inner self, and I realised things about the world, that I don't think are ever going to change. I think I will definitely be experimenting more with LSD in the future.
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But anyway, on Friday night, i went out and took some ecstasy out at a clubnight (Only one and a half), came back to one of my friends at about 10am, at this point, not feeling the e anymore, and I'd been awake 24 hours). I have some pretty bad sleep problems, and I'm pretty used to being awake for 24 hours, after taking ecstasy or not. I was tired, but I wouldn't have been able to sleep if I'd tried, just due to how excited I'd been from the night before. I was a bit hesitant at first, because I'd read I wouldn't be able to sleep while I was on acid, but i'd done some research and read online it should last about 10 hours (something I later found out depends on a lot of factors), so I'd expected to be able to get a powernap later on in the night, when I'd planned to take some more ecstasy with some friends. So, I was pretty good mindset, I was just a bit tired, so thought why not..
T:0:00 Me and a friend had one tab of acid each.
T:0:45 the main thing I started to notice was the walls warping, and stretching... Nothing major, I was wondering whether it was just a placebo effect in my mind.
T-2:00-4:00 over about 2-4 hours I slowly came up.. I went outside briefly, and everything looked really vibrant, which was cool, but I got a bit bored, and came inside, and all the colours where pretty dull and boring, which disapointed me a bit, as I'd been expecting a much more intense trip by this point. As it got heavier into the trip, there was a couple of patterns that I kept looking at that kept changing and moving (wallpaper ect), and the ceiling if i looked at it would spin around, but untill about 4-6 hours in, I was pretty bored.. I was amused by the visuals, but I wasn't really that entertained because i was in a totally sober frame of mind, and just kind of wondering what the fuss was about.
T-6:00 At some point, probably about 6 hours in, it just started to feel like somebody had took my mind apart and put it back together wrong. I can still taste the letter 'X', when I swallow, as I'm writing this, which I have to say, is an acquired taste. I felt like electricity..I tried to call a few friends, to arange them getting a taxi down to come see us and get stoned before we took E on the night, but my words just wouldn't come out right, and i ended up totally unable to comprehend what was being said to me, or id know what i needed to say back, but not be able to word it (In the end I went and woke one of my friends who was still asleep from the night before up who was asleep in the house to arrange it for me). I also tried texting a few of my friends, who had told me to keep in touch with them, and let me know how it was because they'd been curious about it, but I couldn't read. I was trying to read, but I couldn't understand what order to read the words in, they where wobbling on the screen a bit, and I was looking allover.
T-8:00 - 10:00 It probably got to about 10 hours into the trip, and i was still going harder than ever. I was starting to panic, because I'd read that you take about 4 hours to come up, then slowly come down. So I was wondering if I'd ever actually come down.. and was worried id done permanent brain damage, but I was in a weird mindset, just just thought “well, if I have, I have, I may aswell try and enjoy it”. I was having a lot of difficulty perceiving time, and had some deep thoughts. At one point, when I went for a walk, i looked at my watch, and had a panic attack for about 5 seconds and froze still because I thought I'd accidentally stopped time, untill I realised I'd just knocked the pause button on my timer (Still something my friends are laughing at me for, rightfully so). It felt like time was jittering about. I didn't feel like time was sequential, i felt that time was already predetermined and all layed out, and we where just travelling along the line of time, but it was looping back on it’s self, and pulling in times from the past and future.. So yeah, i continued with this for god knows how long, all the time, still really tripping with my concept of time. I was seeing pretty cool visuals when i focused on things like the wallpaper was warping and flashing, and changing colour and shape, which was amusing me a lot more than earlier. I was starting to feel aware I was shakey, but I put this down to the lack of sleep and shrugged it off.
T-11:00 At about 9, about at night, some more friends arrived, and I ended up being convinced by a friend to take an E, after a long debate with myself on whether I should get a few hours sleep first so I didn't overdo my body, but yeah, one of my friends convinced me. After I'd dropped it though, I started instantly having a panic attack for half an hour, thinking I'd done something that could have been fatal. I kept it as calm as possible and just took deep breaths, as not to panic any of my friends who where enjoying themselves, but it was horrible. In the end, the e kicked in after about half an hour, and the visuals where unbearable. the walls where breathing hard in and out, patterns all around me where swirling and morphing and changing colour quickly, everything was warping fast and hard, which I found very scary. I tried to hide it, but my friends kept asking me if I was okay, and asking what was wrong, so I guess I wasn't doing a great job, but then the E hit me fully after about 5 minutes of it, and my visuals calmed suddenly.. I just rushed like normal off E... In a strange way, the E had sobered my head up, as I could actually talk, but it fucked my body up (my heart was pounding, I was shaking, I kept randomly spasming), but overall, I felt really pilled up. I got an amazing rush of love and sat and cuddled one of my friends (something we always do when we're on E), I chatted absolute bollocks with my friends for hours and had some joints all the time I was still seeing the walls breathing, patterns moving, but not as intense.. but the E seemed to be in the drivers seat, which I was very comfortable with.. I was a lot less anxious about everything, and was really enjoying myself.
T-14:00-15:00 after I was past my peak on E, I sat and got high, to try and keep myself rushing, like I usually do... and started to notice the acid again, quite rapidly but different this time.. It hit me totally different.. One thing I remember is I'd say something to someone, then it'd be erased from my memory as soon as I'd said it. I'd only know because people would reply to me, and I'd just look at them puzzled.. I thought they where messing with my head at first, but then kind of realised they weren't, because part of me was remembering saying things, just not what or who to. At this point I realised my memory was pretty much in pieces.. When I was smoking weed, all I could taste was the letter X, and I could feel it a bit too, something that I realise is totally indescribable and confusing, but I'm sure somebody else whos done LSD will understand.. I was absolutely destroyed. I was incredibly shakey (quite probably due to being awake for 48 hours easily by this point), and just didnt feel right. I thought I'd done some seriously permanent brain damage. This is when I experienced the main bit I remember about the acid; in my mind, it was my peak; I was experiencing something nearly indescribable. I sort of felt like I was electricity. I was jittery, shakey, and i started tripping hard. I find it really hard to describe the sort of thing was was happening visually. one thing I remember was that I was looking at what was infront of me, and bits of my vision started peeling away like layers, folding over, and revealing holes that had stuff in them (for example the word reality). I remember feeling absolutely certain I could understand and picture several dimensions (something I can still kind of picture), and how they kind of folded and twisted around our 3 dimensions behind the scenes of what we could see, and I was convinced that there must be some way shape or form to use it to teleport, to move to somewhere taking advantage of this other dimension without my friends seeing. I felt like I was in gods workshop, and I was seeing things behind the scenes, as they weren't meant to be seen by ordinary people. I was seeing the world in a totally different perspective. I was on another level to what I'd ever been on, I've been in some stupidly foolish states on E in the past, when I've tried to push, and this made that feel sober in comparison.
T:18:00-20:00 I continued this way for quite a while, and about 18 hours in, I realised I could probably go to sleep if I tried, so I sat and smoked weed with my friends that where still awake until eventually they'd all passed out, so I put my head down and dropped to sleep instantly, and woke up feeling fine.
I don't really know what to say about my experience. It was most certainly not what I expected LSD to feel like, or be like.. I know E pretty well, and I know what was E, and what wasn't (Or I think I do).. And I can safely say I can never look even at the words LSD in the same way again. Even reading my experience back to myself, I realise a lot of it sounds like other reports I've read.. but for some reason, it was still totally different to what I had expected. It felt like someone had rewired my brain totally, my senses where confused, and I had ups and downs.. but overall I really enjoyed it. I explored my inner self, and I realised things about the world, that I don't think are ever going to change. I think I will definitely be experimenting more with LSD in the future.
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It definitely wasn't the smartest move I've ever made admittedly, but it's made me incredibly excited now for when I do get a chance to take acid when I'm actually fully awake.