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ever blown a good opportunity with a nice girl/guy through too much drugs/alcohol??

Thats great to hear Jay.Letting go of the past can provide great relief and it sounds like your moving on mate.Try not to be too hard on yourself.It took me years to realise that was keeping me stuck in fear.It sounds like your ex is rooting for you and I bet others are too.It gets better...not perfect but better anyway :-)
 
I was with he nicest girl I've ever met, funny, intelligent and gorgeous, dark hair tanned skin and greeny blue eye's right stunner she was! I loved her so much, we spent all our time together, we'd go to work in the day and just looking forward to seeing her face when got home would get me through the day. I didn't want to see or talk to anyone but this girl, I'd been with her for four years and we shared everything, I could tell her my deepest darkest secrets, and believe me I have a few of those! Anyway all was going well we were both doing well in our chosen professions and we were living together, I just loved seeing her face last thing at night and first thing in the morning! Enter heroin, wasn't too bad at first, we were both smoking holding down our jobs and getting along just fine, but then the addiction took over, we couldn't earn enough to support our habits as well as eat and live ect, I ended up quitting work and taking on another "job".

Again all was good for a while I had enough money coming in to keep her in work and stop us both from being sick, carried on like this for quite a while but eventually things started catching up with me as they do and I thought "I need to get out of this game" so I went to get scripted and managed to reduce my usage, she however still in work could not get to the clinic as well as go to work so I carried on until they let me take my script away with me and split it with her, it was not enough to hold us both! At this point I felt failed by the health care trust, all I wanted was for both of us to be scripted and get clean, but she wouldn't be able to keep her job, so I just kept "working" and paying for her gear! Didn't know what to do!

Anyway to cut a boring long story short, my "work" was catching up with me and I didn't know what to do, we moved in wih my mum who knew we were using but would still take us in, I could not get the healthcare professionals to take us seriously, she needed a script so she could continue to work! My money was running out, I started injecting and keeping it from my girlfriends because I didn't want her to use neeedles! Money was running out, that's why I started shooting, "work" was closing in on me! One day we were at her parents arguing, they came in to see what all the fuss was about and that was it, I just let it out, told them we were using and that we were both heroin addicts, it did not go down well! And that was that I was thrown out off the house with a clip round the ear and I've never seen her since that day, we've spoke and most importantly she's clean, but I think I would have married her and spent the rest of my life with her had it not been for heroin! GOD I'M FUCKED
 
jimboid1 said:
Ok so I've just had my heart completely broken by this girl. For months I was led on, and I mean months. I finally pulled her up about it and it got nasty. Now I am at a point where I don't know how I'm gonna get over this tbh. Never in my life have I been teased to this extent and it feels awful. She knows about the drug use, the hard drug use, but whether or not that had any bearing on the relationship I have no idea. I just don't get how some people can take you up the garden path to such an extreme extent, leading you on with cryptic messages by text. Essentially I told her to fuck off. Now though I'm going to miss her which is insane, but for some reason this girl really got to me. Ahh I hate things atm.
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So your heartbroken because you got rid of a cock tease bitch that was just stringing you along? Sounds like a blessing mate.
 
Wow! This thred has become so much more than I had expected some funny srories and some sad. Maybe some people can learn from others mistakes here....? And if all else fails, lose a leg, befriend a parrot and hit the mother fucking rum!!! Arrrgggghhhhhhhh!!!
 
I think its on topic relevant....Maybe its time to face the music..it might not be as bad as you think you wont feel any worse just different...good luck to you jim there is no time like the present
 
Lol doesnt look like we can stay friends from what i can remember of last night she was crying & told me to fuck off nd stormed off after talking for a bit. We were too close. Aint gonna work Fuck it cant afford rum right now, opiate time and i know its a fucking dumb idea but insomnias been killing me recently and i need some fucking work tomorrow lol, thats how im rationalizing it even though i know its bs.
 
jimboid1 said:
Ok so I failed completely. I'm back under the spell for now. Fuck knows why I do this to myself. :/
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Happens to the best of us. Wish it didn't.

I tried lifting weights and listening to Henry Rollins to 'toughen up' and I still cracked and ended up in a 'relationship' that fucks with my head to this day even though we're still close friends.

I don't know what to say, except keep on making sure this doesn't me your own use spiral out of control.

Good luck to you. I don't know why heroin is illegal and yet all this crazy voodoo love shit is perfectly within the law. I know which one I've see do the most harm, and let's just it doesn't come in tenner bags.

Keep on.
 
I was wondering whether anyone would end up going there. ;)

Well on balance (and leaving aside any concern about the ethical minefield of the sex trade), I'd say that providing you take the requisite precautions then a wretched half-hour with dockside whore is still less of a soulfucking proposition than allowing yourself to develop intense and irrational attachments towards people who will inevitably betray your trust one day.

That's the worst one - trust. Once you've given in to that then the grisly end may not be anywhere near in sight yet, but like the backroom frolicking in repeats of 'Allo, 'Allo you just know it's on the way.
 
BecomingJulie said:
Yes.

Back when I was at uni and still trying to be mostly male, I managed to score several tabs of LSD. So one night I was in the student bar, tripping as you do, and for some reason thought it would be a good idea to tell this girl that I fancied that I'd taken a couple of tabs of acid.

"Have you started having hallucinations yet?" she inquired, apparently genuinely interested.

Now, what I wanted to say was: "I'm not exactly seeing things that aren't there, that's not really how it works. I am seeing things that are there, just a bit differently. Everything looks a little bit more beautiful than usual tonight ..... including you".

Now, that probably wouldn't actually have been a bad line. Certainly not the usual mais en sauce de fromage as they say in Paris. Only that wasn't how it came out.

What I actually said was: "Yes, I've hallucinated that you're pretty!"
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Hahahahaha!! =D
 
Originally Posted by jimboid1
Ok so I've just had my heart completely broken by this girl. For months I was led on, and I mean months. I finally pulled her up about it and it got nasty. Now I am at a point where I don't know how I'm gonna get over this tbh. Never in my life have I been teased to this extent and it feels awful. She knows about the drug use, the hard drug use, but whether or not that had any bearing on the relationship I have no idea. I just don't get how some people can take you up the garden path to such an extreme extent, leading you on with cryptic messages by text. Essentially I told her to fuck off. Now though I'm going to miss her which is insane, but for some reason this girl really got to me. Ahh I hate things atm.
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I can totally relate to this situation mate. I get what your saying about it being an addiction aswell. I was in a relationship with a girl like this a year and a half ago. She was just inherently bad really. Sure she could be nice when it was just me and her, but she was constantly flipping out (ADHD), shagging my mates, messing with my head.. I don't even know why but I kept going back like an utter fool. There was just something completely wild about her that I liked. I would try and make excuses to myself for the things she did so I could forgive them, even put trust in her when I knew I shouldn't trust her.

All came to a head one night when she flipped out at her mate in a dodgy part of town at 6am after a heavy sesh. Her mate was clearly in bits so I went after her to make sure she was alright, ha finally sorted her and got back to the bitches house to find her with the other lad that had been at the dodgy flat party. Fuck that, I was actually in bits when I walked out of hers, she even shouted after me but never came running. She text me after saying sorry it was me she wanted she was just fucked yada yada yada, it was a major ball breaker at the time but I'm well shot of that now.

If you can't trust someone there's not much point convincing yourself. For some reason I've always been good at picking the headcases though, I like them a bit wild and a bit of a chase to be honest, but that's a different thing from a complete and utter headfuck.

You might be sad now but you will look back on it sooner or later and realise you did the right thing.
 
rockstar 69 said:
even put trust in him when I knew I shouldn't trust him.
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This is getting old. Please keep your negativity and hostility to PMs, however justified you believe your behaviour to be.

I considered reporting this post but decided against it as in the context of recent 'incidents' it would appear to be a continuation of some personal hostility between you and I, SHM. The grudge is yours to bear if you wish; I prefer to travel light.

Seriously, give it a rest.
 
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StoneHappyMonday said:
The grudge is yours to bear if you wish; I prefer to travel light.
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