Interesting. Unlike with alcohol, I've never had a great relationship with mj (meaning it FELT like alcohol helps with anxiety right away, unlike with mj). I've now figured out what it is that I like and don't like, and this is somewhat made worse by edibles, but the first 2-3 hours of the heart beating faster and increased anxiety (seemingly) and paranoia is bothersome and THEN I reach a "blissful" state where I am more or less in control and this can last anywhere from 5-10 hours longer. I've been using mj the last month regularly and in terms of pain, I think it has made me feel better. I'm now far from acute WD but definitely in PAWS or something.
There's something "missing" I feel and I think that has to do with my dependence on the opiates which isn't there anymore provided I have mj (your comments about "junk" is right but I fear right now that includes mj too for me---it really makes me apathetic also, or perhaps it's the opiate dysphoria that is reflected by the mj?). I'm far less functional on mj (at this point, though it is slowly getting better) than on opiates or gapabentin (though they both initially did also weren't good for my productivity, over time I got used to them and these days the opiates don't do much I feel and the gabapentin does make me happy) both of which don't really affect my memory. I love my memory and I think part of my problem with mj is the short term memory issues (though I don't seem to have a problem remembering stuff from BEFORE in my life; just experiences during). I'm writing all this in part because I got so frustrated with my predicament that I had dusted off like 10 year old (sealed) packs of Psychotria viridis (chacruna) and Syrian rue for my first, somewhat mild, DMT experience (see below).
Gabapentin works like alcohol in this sense since I get "energy" from gapabetin (it's like how I did it with alcohol, except that gapapentin is far less destructive AFAIK). This is interesting because I don't think there's a direct overlap of mechanism (but presumably some transcription factors expressed or inhibited similarly I think).
Well, the DMT experience was mild, enlightening but not conclusive. I had these leaves from the DMT and the MAOI plants and I had stayed up all night and I decided to try to make ayahuasca out of it. I took 5g of Syrian rue seeds and made a tea out of that. It didn't taste the best but I drank it all without much problems, no nausea, etc. I think steeped 20g of the chacruna and since this was my first time and I was alone, I decided to be very careful about it and took only 1/3 of the of the DMT mix and not a lot happened for about 30 minutes and then I could feel the standard psychedelic experience (mushroom/LSD style) kick in mildly. At the same time though I didn't have a feeling of being happy that normally happens with psilocybin or LSD and in fact, the DMT mix did make me throw up (but it's only after that did the psychedelic experience start). When I saw that not a lot was happening, I took the remaining bit of the DMT mix and this time the effects were more pronounced, but I never had anything other than a mild trip. I did think introspect a lot and I thought I made some uncomfortable headway, emphasis on uncomfortable, to a point where I went and had a couple of brownies where the anxiety and paranoia seemed much worse UNTIL I had gotten through rapid heartbeat stage and then I felt a blissful peace come over me (while still uncomfortable; a shower and shave helped a LOT). Since I had been up all night, I slept for 3-4 hours, and then I woke up and the mj effect slowly faded away and here I am again feeling "normal" for a while.
I think the DMT experience would've been better had I slept properly and if I had gone "all in" the first time but I wasn't sure how my body would take it. The experience seemed more intense in a way I didn't expect, kept me focussed on trying to figure out what problem I was trying to solve, overthinking, and then when I took the mj it was all like "ah, it's all good." That's the thing I like about mj, is that it makes me live in the moment which I rarely do (I focus on the future). I ordered some more of the chacruna even before I tried this so I'll probably revisit this.
Thanks for the exchange. I appreciate it.
When I say to "junk", I refer exclusively to opiates.
I use pot on a regular basis and it covers my pain & nausea-relief needs effectively enough, so that I rarely have to take my prescription anti-emetic/nausea meds or extra aspirin/tylenol. It doesn't completely relieve the pain, but manages to dull the roar to a tolerable level.
Eating medibles is better for pain relief, as it does last longer than a vaporization or smoking method of admin..... and is a lot easier on the lungs. In addition, I've noticed that eating hash/medibles reduces the level of triggering inherent in smoking bowls/joints. Eating is much less associated with partying/getting high, imho.
I'd be careful however..... as we know, pot can intensify sensation..... so if you already feel bad, it can make you feel worse. And having a clear head while in acute withdrawal helps a lot, surprisingly.