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[LSDMDMA&AMP]

Derpity derp derp derp derp
Socksybwoy, i dont wanna live in the middle of nowhere
cities are where the rave scenes are at

 

[PepperSocks]

.. and the middle of nowhere is where peace and freedom is at.. and food, gotta have food, and wood, gotta have wood.

I'm flippin wasted tonight, finishing a bottle of tequila, escaping my anxiety and troubles in the bottom of a bottle.

sigh, too many city folk never spend enough time in nature. I feel there's something missing in the average person's life these days. Where's Roger to back me up?

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Psox (I always think peppermint rather than the pepper you are referring to based on your recounting of your name-origin), I feel today's society leaves a lot missing in people's lives. And especially mine. I'd like to live in an urban area with nice nature close at hand. Actually, I'd just like to live.

In other news: puréed ginger makes a decent sandwich condiment. I got a decent night's sleep. Gettin' ready to start meth-fest for the evening. I'm being sure to eat plenty of fruit and vitamins.

i too have a preference for 073 out of all the synthetic canabinoids ive tried. but thats not saying much, as im not that big of a weed fan in the first place. i dont have anything against it itself, but i dont like how i get when im on it. also had a rough time on it once, had a bit too much at a party where noone else was on it, so me being couch locked for 2 hours seemed weird to most... man i was so hungry, but i just couldnt move anything and the table 1m away from me seemed too damn far away. not that i wouldve known what to do once there.

Ha, yeah it can do that to ya, have you mixed it with any psychs or dissociatives? At that level dosage you were on, plus a good sized dose of 2c-e, was one of the most euphoric and synaesthetic combos I've yet experienced.

 

[PepperSocks]

Actually, I'd just like to live.

To be honest I think when one is in harmony with nature; harvesting food and fuel from it, and generally seeing, hearing, smelling it, etc. that is when one feels most alive. When you're so connected with the forces and materials that sustain you, you feel a sort of comfort, one of true life, that you are living and surviving by your own hand. Nothing quite like being hungry while gutting a fish; the fish you're cutting through is still uncooked, raw, but something primal in you knows it's edible food, which makes your stomach growl all the harder. Also when you get a fish in the boat or see a deer go down from your shot there's a definite sense of you just did something truly productive.

One thing I have found the countryside to lack; modern educational stimulation and.... women I connect with. A young woman with a good head on her shoulders is hard to find unless you go to university in a city.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

To be honest I think when one is in harmony with nature; harvesting food and fuel from it, and generally seeing, hearing, smelling it, etc. that is when one feels most alive. When you're so connected with the forces and materials that sustain you, you feel a sort of comfort, one of true life, that you are living and surviving by your own hand.

Sounds like you're living in accordance to the Tao. Teach me your ways!

 

[Roger&Me]

.. and the middle of nowhere is where peace and freedom is at.. and food, gotta have food, and wood, gotta have wood.

I'm flippin wasted tonight, finishing a bottle of tequila, escaping my anxiety and troubles in the bottom of a bottle.

sigh, too many city folk never spend enough time in nature. I feel there's something missing in the average person's life these days. Where's Roger to back me up?

I be lurkin' about, p-sox mah man :D

I took some amps wayy too late in the day today, I'm probably gunna be up for a loooooong time. I intended to do schoolwork but instead I ended up lurking forums and wacking off for a few hours straight. Good times, good times.

Trying to get out in nature more, myself -- I need to see the stars, its pretty depressing being separated from the cosmos by a barrier of light-pollution all the time. I just scored a baller telescope at an estate sale the other day, though, so now I have some incentive to get out into the country on the weekends. Its a ~$6,000 Bausch & Lomb and I managed to get it for well under 1/10th that price, pretty epic bargain. Hopefully I can eat some acid and stare at the stars all night one of these coming weekends.

 

[PepperSocks]

haha, Not hard really. Leave the city more often, live with the hope of someday retiring on a cheap piece of property in the middle of nowhere.

Find friends with similar interests (or go on your own if none are available; you might meet people while you're out there), get a fishing pole, bait and go fishing.

To be honest I have a hard time relating; I grew up in the country and it's all I've ever known. I've gone to school in a small city and lived there for a short time but my upbringing was pure country. I don't know what it feels like to have grown up in the city. I was helping my dad bring in the winter's wood when I was 5 years old.

To me living "in accordance to the Tao" as you put it is just me living normally; and to do otherwise is harder than just bumming around the old farm "chopping wood and carrying water".

 

[PepperSocks]

Roger, my man! :D Missed you bro. Congrats on the telescope bargain. i could not believe the stars where I go camping, much brighter than where my home is (20 miles or so each way between 2 towns), where I go camping is much further from towns and my lord, I've never seen them pop like that before. My eyes and mind were lit to the cosmos

I took some amps today myself, packing and all. Booze for now though, leaving tomorrow.

I have the same problem with amps; I find I take them with the intention of helping me work, but instead they distract me with the aphrodisiac effects and I waste the whole day jerking off, getting absolutely nothing school related accomplished. Talk about a catch-22; amps are bad for studying IME

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Sounds like a good a plan as any, but alas, when you have no money, you can't afford to get out of the city (or suburban sprawl, in my case). Oh well, just gonna continue following the path of least resistance straight off a waterfall as things stand, I think I've been desperately clinging to a rock to not do so these past couple of years.

Anyhow, meth fueled pleasant evening walk is a go, catch you guys a bit later in the evening~

 

[Roger&Me]

Haha, looks like we've all been hittin' the amps today. :D

Have fun with the booze, p-sox -- drink one for me. :D I haven't had any booze in like a month or so, and I really miss it. For the time being though I can't really tolerate GABA drugs because they bring back the benzo withdrawal (even though I quit benzos like a year ago). I'm pretty much free from symptoms now though, as long as I abstain from alcohol; I think when christmas rolls around I'll be good to start drinking again occasionally.

All I really miss is good beer, I can't wait to be able to drink a Sierra Nevada or a Magic Hat and just enjoy it, without having to deal with muscle tremors and fasciculations from my GABAergic neurons being depolarized like some mofos.

You know you're from the suburbs when driving 4 cities over to pick up $10 worth of drugs sounds totally reasonable. And takes a half hour.

Haha, this perfectly describes my high school years. Cruising through suburbia at night in a cloud of weed smoke with the sound system cranked up still sounds like heaven to me.

 

[PepperSocks]

I can't wait to be able to drink a Sierra Nevada or a Magic Hat and just enjoy it

Ditto, but not because I can't drink but because I'm on the north side of this line where American craft brews don't cross. There's one thing I miss about the states; strong IPA's. We just don't have them here, macro lagers to boot but no hopped out IPA's. I'm going to have to get one of you guys to ship me up a sixer of Torpedo. Never thought of sending beer via black market type methods eh? :D

To be honest I'm going to have to get off the dope train myself with school and all. I've sort of picked up a regular benzo/opie/stim habit and I have to cut it back. My doses are still low but it's semi-regular and I'm starting to get worried about toxicity. When someone uses stimulants it feels as if you're smarter but I find in the back of my head I'm aware of a numbness; as if it's a short term cognitive surplus in trade for a longer term deficit. That's how my awareness perceives it anyways. I'd like to cut down on all drugs and build some studious discipline. Stimulants don't lead to academic success; they lead to euphoria, then to anxiety, which leads to benzo/opie use, and in the end it all leads to is cognitive numbness all the while you think you're getting smarter. Every ass-hole egotist, stupid coke-head/stim-lover I've met thought they were super smart, all the while they're just fried.

Tricksy little hobbitses; O balance; where art thou?

I still like getting high.

 

[Roger&Me]

Never thought of sending beer via black market type methods eh? :D

 

[yucatanboy2]

Pepper, yeah downers/opiates aren't that helpful at school, or very acceptable. Most students I knew in college smoked weed and drank a lot and that was about it. Some uppers, but only really used by those with ADHD to study (the cokeheads I met all dropped out or got clean, lol). Psychedelics are fairly common at uni as people are into experimenting (my first experience with RCs was in college back in 2003 with 5MeoDipt). Focus on your work and getting a good degree and network for the next step afterwards. Enjoy yourself, but use partying as a reward when you get your homework and studying done, don't put it off.

Advice from someone who partied their ass off in college yet also worked really really really hard and succeeded (graduated with a good GPA and honors in my major and in a second area too).

 

[PepperSocks]

LOL'ed hard!

I'll get you Beer Barron.

No you won't.

Yes, I will.

No.

:D I think I'll watch that episode :D

 

[PepperSocks]

Pepper, yeah downers/opiates aren't that helpful at school, or very acceptable. Most students I knew in college smoked weed and drank a lot and that was about it. Some uppers, but only really used by those with ADHD to study (the cokeheads I met all dropped out or got clean, lol). Psychedelics are fairly common at uni as people are into experimenting (my first experience with RCs was in college back in 2003 with 5MeoDipt). Focus on your work and getting a good degree and network for the next step afterwards. Enjoy yourself, but use partying as a reward when you get your homework and studying done, don't put it off.

Advice from someone who partied their ass off in college yet also worked really really really hard and succeeded (graduated with a good GPA and honors in my major and in a second area too).

I probably overplayed my drug "problem"; it's more like a conundrum. I am smart, and when I view failure as not being an option, I do what has to be done. I'm sure I'll do fine. I've just been out of the school grind for a couple years so I'm nervous about diving into full time studies. BUT; you could view it as rational nervousness; if someone was all cavalier about it, not thinking it was going to be lot of work; they;d be in for a surprise and more likely to fail.

One thing that's going to be different this time is that most of my classmates are going to be about 5 years younger than me. I've already gone down the rabbit hole of psychedelic experimentation, professional work, true heartbreak, etc. I'm hoping there's not too much of a psychological gulf between me and my classmates.

School work is going to be top priority. I think that's the best way of looking at it. All the more subtle, social things fall into place automatically.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Haha, this perfectly describes my high school years. Cruising through suburbia at night in a cloud of weed smoke with the sound system cranked up still sounds like heaven to me.

Yes, you know what I'm talking about. 'cept I'm not in HS of course, and it was meth rather than weed. I might smoke more weed if I had decent stoner friends, but alas.

So anyway, it seems one day wasn't enough for my neurotransmitters to recharge to decent euphoric capacity (naturally this only meant I decided to SMOKE MOAR). I'm definitely taking tomorrow off. Maybe Monday too if I get a few bucks to throw on booze. Though I wonder if there wasn't something more to it. I'm thinking the serotogenic activity of the DXM yesterday seriously potentiated that of the meth, and that lead to some very nice euphoria and music appreciation. Of course taking an NMDA antagonist will lower tolerance and increase effects of amps normally...maybe this is just a reeeeally good potentiator for this drug. I will test this next opportunity I get.


As for studying, I never used anything stronger than caffeine. I've been known to use amps to facilitate manual labor on occasion though.

 

[psood0nym]

^Using DXM with meth is flirting with serotonin syndrome and perhaps hyperthermia, or both, FYI (I know people drop the term a lot, but I'm pretty sure this combo is a genuine threat). It's a lot like taking it with MDMA, which has caused serotonin syndrome and deaths in the past when combined with DXM. It most definitely did potentiate the serotonin effects of the meth as it's a powerful serotonin reuptake inhibitor. Having a dissociative tolerance probably didn't help prevent issues, but having extremely depleted serotonin might have. I'm sure it depends a lot on the dose of each, too. According to a study I've seen after a single dose of MDMA serotonin takes around two months to rebound to normal levels, and it's probably similar with meth.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Helpful! Thank you. I probably don't have a month or two to wait, because y'all know my situation. So things will take place on a smaller timescale. I realize I'll have to be very careful with the dosages. Also, my serotonin shouldn't have been depleted, I hadn't taken anything serotogenic lately until last night.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

Never we gotta hang out
crusin through suburbia with meth smoke comin out the windows............

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Well I wasn't smoking WHILE I was driving. Cops don't take kindly to that kinda thing ya'know.