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How are you, in 1 word? v. 2011.2

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Currently feeling: languid. Between the PAWS and the PTSD, I feel as though I cannot articulate my thoughts properly. Also, anhedonia is making me feel as though smiling is a painstaking task for both myself and whoever is witnessing my attempts.
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lonely..

maybe there are those of us destined to be alone? every person has their purpose ones told so then I'm the lonely guy. playing guitar in my room hearing all these happy people outside sucks
 
PTSD - all the good thngs that come with it :( . I had to take way more meds then I wanted too but it'd been a couple days w no sleep. It certainly is Refreshing to have even gotten 5 hours!

New job starts tom - hopeflully two nights of sleep in a row !!!
 
Peculiar.
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There are multiple reasons as to why I should be happy right now, and yet it simply is not happening. My breast augmentation consultation went fantastic, my mum took me to a lovely dinner to celebrate something that was already a fucking 'celebration' in itself, I came home to a check, and old friends finally see enough of a 'change' in me to speak to me again. All of these thing have transpired and yet there is no amount of Xanax I can take that will make me feel even halfway decent.
 
^^ I hope you're feeling more relaxed soon hun <3

relieved
Had an extremely stressful afternoon at work but just spoke to my super-cool boss and she alleviated all of my stress and concerns and basically told me to go home early.
I love having an awesome boss :)
 
SideOrderOfOpiates said:
Peculiar.
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There are multiple reasons as to why I should be happy right now, and yet it simply is not happening. My breast augmentation consultation went fantastic, my mum took me to a lovely dinner to celebrate something that was already a fucking 'celebration' in itself, I came home to a check, and old friends finally see enough of a 'change' in me to speak to me again. All of these thing have transpired and yet there is no amount of Xanax I can take that will make me feel even halfway decent.
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Sounds pretty overwhelming.
But once all these surprises set in n become normal you should be feeling just right about things.
I still wish you the best tho :)
 
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