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Festival coming up, bought tickets, unsure whether to go?

suessmayr

suessmayr

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I used to be thoroughly addicted to the clubbing and festival scenes. Initially I would just get shitfaced but by the end I was using alot of ecstasy and less often speed. This went on for maybe a year or two. It was in the wake of all this that I discovered opiates and benzos and that's where my troubles began. I'm 50 days clean of opiates today.

I feel like my life has no meaning anymore. I don't enjoy anything or enjoy speaking to people. I'm just trying to get through the end of my degree. I'm on avanza and lexapro, and a beta-blocker for anxiety.

Parklife if coming up over here and some people talked me into buying a ticket. I haven't been out - to a club or festival or even a party - in like 3 years. I've never been able to forget how much fun I had at these festivals and I thought it could be fun to do something like that again, not because I want to take drugs but because I feel like I need to connect with someone/do something - do anything that could be in the slightest enjoyable.

That said, it's almost a certainty that I would go large at this thing. I would either not go, or go and get munted. Probably I wouldn't take anything other than ecstasy. I have some benzos and codeine and bupe to help with comedowns but I'm concerned that it's not a good idea, given that I'm on 2 anti-depressants and a beta-blocker. I recall the aftermath of one festival - at the time I was on Zoloft - and I was hysterically suicidal and fucked in the comedown. But I have heard that Zoloft is particularly bad to mix with ecstasy.
 
Sounds like you already answered your question. If you go you are going to get wrecked and throw off what balance you have right now. If you have been on 3 different type of meds for a while now, I dont think it would be a good idea either to start taking other substances that will probibly conflict with what you are already taking. You have to ask yourself if the after effects will be worth it since you acknowledge you cant just go to the fest without getting shit faced.
 
It's good you're honest with yourself that you'll likely get high if you go. Given that you're on two anti-depressants and plan on taking benzos/opiates to comedown, which have both been problematic for you, it does not sound like doing MDMA would turn out very well. I don't know what the effects would be of using MDMA with two medications that play around with serotonin, but I wouldn't want to to find out for myself. Plus if you know you have bad comedowns, you can determine if thats worth going through right now.

Good luck whatever you decide <3
 
Yeah thanks guys. I've felt really uncomfortable with the decision to buy tickets recently.

It is likely that by the time of the festival I would no longer be on lexapro, and that I would just be on avanza. Apparently certain AD's can actually mitigate the severity of the comedown - fluoxetine in particular. They do this whilst also reducing the intensity of the ecstasy high. This was certainly my experience in the past.

I don't think there's any chance that I would get back into opiates/benzos. I've gone 50 days without them and would probably just take some to level out afterwards. I think I'll just hold onto my ticket for now and sell it at the time if I feel I shouldn't go.
 
I'll be blunt. Don't go.

Your very close to finishing your degree, and shitty Parklife is not worth it. I went last year and was like, err I wasted my money on this shiet? And yeah, broke my head for a weekend a put uni behind for a week.

Put what REALLY matters first. Not because people talked you into going. Thats not having a friends' good intentions at heart anyway imo.
 
<snip> Just don't go overboard to the point where you need to take anything on the comedown. If you're likely going to suffer bad anxiety after drugs, then it's going to defeat the purpose of you going out - to feel better.

<snip>
 
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Yeah I'm not sure to be honest. Although someone I know apparently has caps.

I find it hard to drink. I think that probably alot of people who have done drugs can never really enjoy alcohol again. It just seems like - 'what the fuck is this shit? It's just making me tired, sick and dopey...some pills would be nice...'.

I honestly don't know what I'll do. I'm not particularly wedded to the idea of going. I'll have to see what my assessment schedule is like, because if I went I'd probably be out of action for about 7 days.
 
Why do you even have to get fucked up?

Its a festival, have fun. No one is holding a gun to your head.
 
Don't go near the caps floating around - they're *NOT* MDMA. Test your stuff!

I had the same problem with drinking, and as you said, it's not uncommon. Get drunk quick was the solution that worked for me...

All the best with whatever you choose to do, but you can have fun reasonably responsibly and without being out of action for seven days!
 
in my mind, taking the anti-depressants and beta-blockers actually messes with the MDMA - in that it keeps you from getting high. so you take more and just end up feeling crap. take mushrooms in your case. I dont know if that's a possiblity in Sydney?

i totally know where you're coming from when it comes to certain chemical dependency taking the fun out of clubbing and festivals. I used to live for that stuff and now It's really not been much fun for the past five years (with my amphetamine addiction, and all) -- hence, I rarely go out or to a fest.

Honestlty , if you go...dont pill up. <snip>
 
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You still have time to go to festivals and other party's , but since your coming off one anti-depressant by the time you get there . I say you should not ruin the progress . It's not recommended to take extasy/speed, etc on any anti-depressant, in fact it's not allowed. I say you should wait a bit longer .
Studies show it takes 1 week for the dopamine in the brain to fully recover after 1 night of ex.
<snip>. But I hope you won't since you made it very far and the I bet all the sacrifices will be soon felt.
 
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Alright guys I've cut out three comments suggesting a drug as the answer. Please do not do this. It is true...weed, alcohol, and psychedelics are in fact actual drugs. And people can have a terrible reaction to either one of them.
 
Haha, ah thanks guys. But weed makes me intensely fearful and for that reason I'd never dream of messing with psychedelics. The whole reason I got into downers was because they slow my absurdly nervous mind down - I think psychedelics would probably kill me!

The guy I spoke to said he'd tried the caps several times and that they were bomb. So tbh I don't really give a shit what's in them.

I think anti-depressants (that are not MAOI's) both reduce the intensity of the MDMA high and shorten the duration of the MDMA comedown. At least, this was my experience with Prozac in the past.
 
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