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I'd get a shower and a few cups of tea in you as soon as you can. I always find that as the day goes on my mouth injuries from stims tends to lessen in pain, you'll feel a whole lot better tomorrow, if possible a short sleep during the day might help. Sounds like you had a messy weekend! After your shower hopefully you'll be in better form to eat. I ended up watching Come Dine With Me on Sunday morning after a few pills and I ended up having to turn it off by the time they served the meals as it was just too much to watch when the last thing on your mind is food, so I know the feeling.

Wireless Festival this Saturday, flying over to London, then have Sunday to explore the place a wee bit - although I've been before. Looking forward to seeing Chemical Brothers/The Streets/Aphex Twin.
 
Afternoony peeps <3

It's far too warm for my liking :| So I'm sprawled out on my bed, shirtless (like the shexy fuck I am) watching tennis (like the sad fuck I am) %)

Ooh - Got my album tracklist sorted out :) Just need to master a few of the tracks, sort out a "back cover" for the list to go on from my mate and then set a release date! ^_^
Can't wait to get this fucker out of the way! Then I need to find a new lable as Methodology runner Forensics is putting it down for a bit, along with his electronic production and focus on songwriting.
Got a couple in mind that would have me though :)
Ramble ramble ramble have a nice day peeps ramble ramble ♥♥♥
 
TheSpade said:
Bored out my fucking mind all day. No one wants to go out and play this weekend, everyones skint, not allowed to go out because of being married / having kids, or got other plans (weddings etc).
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How old are your mates?? You're younger than me, aye? And cunts cannae go out because they are married, have kids or are going to weddings? Fuck that. Anyone my age that is married, is getting married or has kids (other than one or two who have had the accidental "I'm a fucking dafty & didn't put a johnny on it" wean) wouldn't want to be friends with me & I most likely wouldn't want to be friends with them.



Mugz - I have done the exact same thing with work. Gonna get in to heavy shit the mora. Especially as the past couple of weeks I've been late in on the Monday & clearly still suffering the effects of the weekend & the other week I had to fake illness & boost up the road after a couple of hours because I just couldn't face it (again, on a Monday). Few weeks before that I was off Monday & Tuesday, late on Wednesday. I think the pattern will have been well & truly spotted by now.

I cannae afford to fuck this job up but it's like there's something in the back of my head that half wants to (probably down to the fact I fucking hate it, but I'd likely hate working somewhere else more & get paid less). Hence the cane fuck out of it at the weekend, every weekend & fuck the consequences on Monday morning attitude that I get every Friday, then regret every Monday. I think a break from MD is needed, been hammering it (to be fair, in reasonably moderate doses most of the time) practically every weekend this year.
 
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feeling rough as fuck still, effie pm me when inbox empty,
wanna go home, think in half hour ima say fuck it n return home, get stoned n go sleep
 
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my comedown has been erased by the o-desmethyltramadol thankfully.

Sorry you still feel terrible BCF :( if you go home I would suggest having a little nap

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Mugz - I have done the exact same thing with work. Gonna get in to heavy shit the mora. Especially as the past couple of weeks I've been late in on the Monday & clearly still suffering the effects of the weekend & the other week I had to fake illness & boost up the road after a couple of hours because I just couldn't face it (again, on a Monday). Few weeks before that I was off Monday & Tuesday, late on Wednesday. I think the pattern will have been well & truly spotted by now.

I cannae afford to fuck this job up but it's like there's something in the back of my head that half wants to (probably down to the fact I fucking hate it, but I'd likely hate working somewhere else more & get paid less). Hence the cane fuck out of it at the weekend, every weekend & fuck the consequences on Monday morning attitude that I get every Friday, then regret every Monday. I think a break from MD is needed, been hammering it (to be fair, in reasonably moderate doses most of the time) practically every weekend this year.
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Feels shit doesn't it, I think the worst part about it for me is not so much the trouble that I get in but losing the respect of my colleagues and being seen as the unreliable one.

A break from stims at the weekend might be a good idea for both of us.
 
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Feels shit doesn't it, I think the worst part about it for me is not so much the trouble that I get in but losing the respect of my colleagues and being seen as the unreliable one.

A break from stims at the weekend might be a good idea for both of us.
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I couldn't care about the respect of my colleagues, I have no respect for most of them anyway & I work in a call centre so me not being there doesn't impact on their work at all, it's not like I'm letting anyone down. I do care about getting the sack though, even though I behave as if I don't. If I got sacked now I'd be fucked.

I actually fucking hate this shit. The main reason I go to work is so I can enjoy myself at the weekend. the more I hate my work during the week, the more fucked up I feel I need to get at the weekend which then leads to either not going to work or going & feeling like shite, therefore making that week even worse & the desire to get fucking wasted the next weekend even stronger.

If work wasn't so shite then I wouldn't get so fucked up that I can't make it out of bed on a Monday lol.

I've also somehow managed to completely cunt my saving up plan by being too generous, giving shit away for free when I shouldn't, letting people off completely or not chasing them up for debts when I shouldn't & spending far too much money on shite when I shouldn't. For example, could have got a bus when I was going out on Saturday for free, I was in no rush to get where I was going & it wouldn't have taken much longer but instead I dropped £15 on a taxi, £3 of which was a tip which was completely unnecessary. I had someone give me part of some cash that they've owed me for a while & saying "I'll square you up with the rest next week", I told them it was cool, don't bother. WHY? I've now got a ton in my savings account & about £200 in my normal account (well, £200 left on my overdraft). I should have had at least a grand in that savings account by now.
 
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parttime crackhead said:
I've also somehow managed to completely cunt my saving up plan by being too generous, giving shit away for free when I shouldn't, letting people off completely or not chasing them up for debts when I shouldn't & spending far too much money on shite when I shouldn't. For example, could have got a bus when I was going out on Saturday for free, I was in no rush to get where I was going & it wouldn't have taken much longer but instead I dropped £15 on a taxi, £3 of which was a tip which was completely unnecessary. I had someone give me part of some cash that they've owed me for a while & saying "I'll square you up with the rest next week", I told them it was cool, don't bother. WHY? I've now got a ton in my savings account & about £200 in my normal account (well, £200 left on my overdraft). I should have had at least a grand in that savings account by now.
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I've not really been true to my saving plan either, have wasted quite a lot of my money on beer and cider, was also way too generous with the drink buying when I went out with workmates, I also spent far too much on poker (which is why I am glad I have banned myself from depositing for 3 months) Also just been spending too much money on food instead of cooking for myself. I'm determined to get the savings thing back on course though. Is annoying that I haven't saved as much as I want though.




A friend from work just phoned me and I didn't answer as I didn't recognise the number but he lelft a voicemail asking if I was going to be playing in the 5-a-side game tonight. I don't think it is a good idea seeing as I have been off sick today, but the reasons I gave for being off sick were insomnia over the weekend causing me to only get about 3 hours sleep in total over saturday and sunday night and anxiety and panic attack, both of which wouldn't be out of the question for me to be feeling fine now.

Not sure if I should go or not. Have a couple of hours to decide.
 
parttime crackhead said:
How old are your mates?? You're younger than me, aye? And cunts cannae go out because they are married, have kids or are going to weddings? Fuck that. Anyone my age that is married, is getting married or has kids (other than one or two who have had the accidental "I'm a fucking dafty & didn't put a johnny on it" wean) wouldn't want to be friends with me & I most likely wouldn't want to be friends with them.
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I think I'm older than you, coming up for 27. Aye I've got mates you only ever hear from when their missus is out of town or got plans otherwise you never see them, got mates who have got kids to birds they don't speak to who get the kids every few weekends so can't come out on those weekends, some with kids who they live with full time so they're never out, others with birds who don't let them out or who only do stuff with their birds. One mate seems to be constantly going to weddings every other weekend or doing mundane shit like going to his missus' parents house for tea or out drinking with his / her parents. It's dull as fuck round here like. Usually end up out for a few drinks with work folk on a Friday, but even that's wearing thin now, there's only about 3 of them I can be bothered talking. Find it crap living here, even if folk were free we'd only go to the same old boozers we went to years ago and you wouldn't catch me dead in any of the clubs round here, bar one which none of my mates would go to.

parttimecrackhead said:
Mugz - I have done the exact same thing with work. Gonna get in to heavy shit the mora. Especially as the past couple of weeks I've been late in on the Monday & clearly still suffering the effects of the weekend & the other week I had to fake illness & boost up the road after a couple of hours because I just couldn't face it (again, on a Monday). Few weeks before that I was off Monday & Tuesday, late on Wednesday. I think the pattern will have been well & truly spotted by now.

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You sound down in the dumps mate, I think you need a change of jobs like or to do something completely different than work / get mashed at the weekend.

I canna be far off feeling exactly like you are right now either. My job is pretty much the same as yours except I get angry as fuck customers going mental at me most of the day. It's dull but it's been OK so far because it's fairly new, still a bit of banter & laughs with folk, it isn't overly busy or stressful (we can read books whilst working because there's plenty of free time and I've been learning Thai) but it's definitely going to get to the stage of being mind numbingly boring and driving me fucking crazy. We get put into new teams soon which will surely be crap because I look round in everyone in the building and they all look depressed as fuck, completely soul destroyed as if the life has been sucked right out of them and none of them seem to even bother to talk to each other.

I'm pissed off that due to the bank demanding my overdraft back I need to give them all the money I saved so far (and then some) which means I'm gonna be at my job a few more months than anticipated and I already set my date for leaving back a couple months. Nightmare like. I was hoping not to be there after Xmas but looks like I probably will, soul destroying. :|

I've not really been true to my saving plan either, have wasted quite a lot of my money on beer and cider
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My savings been going OK, bank have fucked that up though. Hard when your working hard and just saving and cant spend money but well worth it when you get away. Stick at it!
 
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TheSpade said:
My savings been going OK, bank have fucked that up though. Hard when your working hard and just saving and cant spend money but well worth it when you get away. Stick at it!
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IS that the overdraft thing or something else. As I phoned my bank saturday night as my card was being declined online for no reason and they said it was something to do with the terminals. It is being declined online everywhere. Will have to try a cash machine later, hopefully it will work there.
 
Aye it's fucking pish working in call centres init, it really is soul destroying. I get angry folk constantly as well, plus it takes 10 to 20 minutes to get through most of the day, so there's no time between calls & folk have already been holding for fucking ages before they even speak to you.

I don't really have the option of a change of jobs. The only other job I'd easily get would be another call centre, which could quite possibly be worse & almost definitely lower paid so there's no point in that. I just need to try & keep doing it for the moment without losing the plot, it's not too bad because I only work 4 days a week so get a bit more time away from work than most (technically I don't, but I don't do anything during the week anyway so working later doesn't matter).
 
Overdraft aye Mugz. Also I appear to be getting bumped from one of my online ventures too, that's 2 cheques gone AWOL now, worth about £100 in total. :|

I have to be in 5 days a week and it's random shift patterns, can be in any time from 8am and finish at 6pm. Every day is completely different but somehow I seem to end up on till 6pm every night, 3 weeks out the last 4 that's been the case. Fucking random my arse. I want 4pm finishes.
 
good luck DS. its horrible. thats all i know about looking for jobs unfortunately as i've just conned people into paying me to continue being a student. anyway i get the impression you had a fairly skilled one before. make sure you're really selling yourself on CV and don't let it get you down.
 
Remember to use buzz words on your CV too, it might sound stupid but they do actually work.

Also if you don't have much experience then you can lie on the CV if you have a friend or family member that has a business and say you worked for them and did something impressive that is related to the job you are applying for.
 
ate 3.5mg xanax over the course of a film (HR:Quite a high dose with little tolerance), now feel nice and chilled, maybe ill even sleep tonight for once, shame the effects only last about 3-4 hours.
 
Evening all <3

Being comfortably numb is so much better than being purely numb.. Empty and numb..
That was sucky :|

But now I'm the former so yay :)

Hope everyone's alright enough tonight <3~:)~<3 I know shit's rough for a lot of people right now, but it also sounds like it's looking up a tad for some. So I'm dead glad about that ♥
 
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