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Does the depression/ anxiety ever leave?

I guess what gets me down the most is not knowing what the point is. Why we stuggle to pay the rent, fix the car ect... and all we get in return is a moment of pure happiness every now and again and eventually we die and everything we have struggled for is gone. Why not quite the struggle now? We are pressured so succeed, be successful, have a nice home, a nice car, a family... what the fuck for?
 
know that your not alone

there is a lot of us out there

feel us with you

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How I deal with it ?

It used to be much worse...

I would curl up in a ball... lay on the floor...

Now, I have finished a college degree, and am attending university

I know myself better... know what I want to do
know what i'm good at

you know..
more often then not, if I had the choice of being here or not

I would rather not be here

sad thing huh ?

but there is love out there.. hard to believe for people who went through traumas/was abused/went through bad relationships

honestly

this place is maddening

with responsibilities (chains)

people are not conscious of others

putting energy into this fucked place, I dunno.. what's the use right ?

that's why I do stuff that help people (work, volunteering)
meaningful stuff.. being useful...

I dunno... but these days I have gained more energy, to reach my dreams

stay strong, be patient, and let yourself cry

the world isnt always a nice place to be in, but it is always a beautiful place

to me it's a battle sometimes

I am dealing with a very dark perception of the world

I feel it's my battle, it's like I make it hard on myself, for one because I know I can take it
but I think a part of me deep down likes it

I don't think it's all about having fun

there is glory for those that are willing to walk through the fires of hell
 
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tommy34 said:
I guess what gets me down the most is not knowing what the point is. Why we stuggle to pay the rent, fix the car ect... and all we get in return is a moment of pure happiness every now and again and eventually we die and everything we have struggled for is gone. Why not quite the struggle now? We are pressured so succeed, be successful, have a nice home, a nice car, a family... what the fuck for?
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I always ask myself this question "what for?" and it seems like there may not be an obvious answer. It may be that analyzing rather than experiencing our lives is what causes the most pain. I wish I knew because I hate when I cannot understand something intellectually. But some things are as they are and won't change whether we know why they are like that or not.

That's how I feel now anyways. The last week in particular I've been trying to figure out everything about my life and it has been more stressful than anything. So I'm trying to slow down and just be more accepting of the way things are right now. If I focus on doing just what needs to be done at that moment rather than trying to examine my life as a whole, the anxiety is reduced.

Asclepius said:
^ I believe they are responsible for alot of the worlds Evil's TBH! ;)
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anterrabae said:
My god, if I ever saw a baby head in the sun...
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I have always suspected that Tinkie Winkie was directly responsible for my anxiety, substance use, relationship difficulties, and migraines.
 
Does the depression/ anxiety ever leave?
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It can if you want it to, takes courage and action and faith though. Waiting for something to get better - it never does.

There is always light at the end of the tunnel, you gotta put the effort in to get there though.

:)
 
After a point there may not be a way back but I don't think you are near that yet. Life is sometimes shit even in 'normal' mode but I think that just creates contrast. You can't really have good without bad, this is a problem modern abolitionists often run into when theorizing about the 'perfect' future drug. You just can't have permanent bliss.

I can relate to how you feel about people. I struggled in a similar way for a long time and recently I have completely cut myself off from any unnecessary human contact, which I do not recommend unless there's absolutely no other way. Perhaps you should try hanging with people that have more similar interests? They are rare, but there are a few people in who's company I can be free. They don't really understand what the fuck I am talking about (gibberish) most of the time but they listen and it helps. Well, they did. Now it's monologues all over the internet.

From your introspection I would assume you are a smart person and that doesn't always come without problems. It's possible that the more you learn and build the big picture of the world surrounding you, the more disillusioned you will become as you begin to connect dots all over the place and see underlying mechanisms where you least want to. Sadly it can affect your perception of other people as well. It can bring you down but all it really needs IMO is putting things in context. Your own mindset determines to a large degree how much things bother you, like when it feels you aren't going anywhere in life. If you don't feel like you are achieving when you should, it doesn't hurt to step back and think if you are doing what you want to be doing. At 21 it can feel like you need to get somewhere in a hurry but try to put your wellbeing before that and you'll enjoy the journey (and results) more.

Wish I had a useful solution but this 2c will have to do. Enjoy the lovely summer =)
 
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