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kitschstitch

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hello you,
i’ve been on opiates for several years now, but it never really affected my life, that is until I started doing h… i’m not myself anymore and half of me wants to quit, well more than half, but i can never ‘find the right time’…
i’m sure there are other people who have gone through this- any advice? anyone in my area going through something similar?

i’d appreciate any replies or messages… thanks y’all.
 
Hey kitschstitch,

There are a lot of people going through the same thing as you and even more who have gone through it before and came out the other side. TDS (The Dark Side) is probably the best forum for you to check out as it deals with the emotional and psychological aspects of addiction, but if you have any questions about physical symptoms of dependence and withdrawal or the mechanism behind addiction then OD (Other Drugs) is a great resource as well.

Hope you find what you are looking for and if you have any general site questions feel free to post in here or PM me or any other mod.

Welcome to Bluelight!

p.s. Don't expect many in depth addiction stories or much advice in NMI (New Member Introductions) as the people who hang out here are more of a lighthearted welcoming committee. :)
 
Welcome to bl! If you are finding it hard to go it alone inpatient rehab and opioid maintenance programs are your best bet. Think it through and go for it when you feel prepared. All the best
 
Hey I am just down the road in Houston struggling with opiates. This is a great website to share your problems with and get good solid advice. I'm sure you and I will have plenty of stories to share.

Welcome to Bluelight!! :)
 
Hello, I'm also new here. I'm sorry to see that you're struggling with Opiates but from what I've seen Bluelight is a welcoming, compassionate, and informative community so I hope you'll be able to find the help and guidance you need here!
 
thanks so much for all the replies, i really appreciate all the support and suggestions...

i guess the most difficult thing is that i feel like there are two parts of myself- the one that loves everything about h- the rituals, lifestyle, etc. and then there is the old me, the person i used to be who is struggling to get out. i want my true self to win, obviously, but most days both sides are equally as strong...

i am trying to figure out how to get my real self to grow stronger so that maybe i could rise above the smoldering wreckage of what my life has become... there has to be a way to help myself win, right?

in the mean time i am still trying to keep my physical self in decent shape, or at the very least keep it feeling decent... ugh. i hope i don't seem like too much of a downer or sound too melodramatic...

thanks again to everyone, it was nice to virtually meet you all! have wonderful days!
 
This is a late response, but I'm with TOS! You don't sound dramatic at all - I constantly have two sides of my consciousness warring with themselves, so I can relate, and it makes perfect sense. Hopefully with more help and support from those here at Bluelight, especially those who have experiences with the type of thing you're going through now, you'll have the strength you need to help yourself win this!! It definitely sounds like you -are- making effort, and that you -do- want help, which is the first step to anything. I definitely believe in your ability to beat this~ :)
 

If youre really serious about this then get some subutex (bupenorphine) its not a substitute like methadone its a blocker which means while it stops u from feeling like ur rattling doing heroin has no effect on u
it saved my ass and i dont think it would have been half as easy on meth

if u fail dont give up on giving up..just remember that we learn from our mistakes and the lessons hardest learned are the ones learnt best..its all about remembering that u want 2live cos being opiate dependent is as bad as being dead already
 
nope must be just you....only one that feels that way.....ok kidding aside...no i feel it and so does my fam/friends...they want the old dan the man back....but i cant find him...too hard to see w/blurry eyes and a eye for dope and only dope i wear blinders.....mebbe i take em off and see ok then....like the blind carpenter who picked up a hammer and saw....winkwink..what forest?trees in my way blocking it...too far gone? to be cont.
 
kitschstitch said:
hello you,
i’ve been on opiates for several years now, but it never really affected my life, that is until I started doing h… i’m not myself anymore and half of me wants to quit, well more than half, but i can never ‘find the right time’…
i’m sure there are other people who have gone through this- any advice? anyone in my area going through something similar.

Well old post but I know feeling. I am CP and liked the pills more and more. Now a huge tolerance and I wanna stop but seems like never the right time or add excuse here( ....)
I wanna be me again and hope. He is still there without the all k4 and OP. but one day at a time.
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