I feel like shit.

[Kipo]

This is probably nothing compared to what some of you guys are going through. But I can't fucking stand it anymore. I don't know what it is. But I just feel so depressed right now. I've got no money, only about .5 of weed and 4 7.5/200 pills of vicoprofen that I had to steal from my parents. I know they are gonna notice, they will also notice the wine bottle missing from 2 weeks ago. I just cant keep up this shit. Im going nowhere in my life, every waking moment I think about the next time I can get some sort of escape.

I really cant figure out where this anger/depression is coming from. But I feel like i want to fucking kill somone. I have nobody in real life that I can talk to or tell the truth to. I'm paranoid about my parents finding out about some shit that i took. I just want unlimited vic's and unlimited weed. Then I will be happy. Im going to... idk. Im gonna go do something. I feel like im in a haze but i havent taken anything. Please. I cant communicate for some reason. Please help me.

 

[Lazyscience]

hey im sorry you feel this way. why dont you get a job and get some money together? maybe that will sort things out.

 

[Kipo]

I took like 20 or 30 valerian root pills. Hopefull y it will calm me down without some making me high. I feel like ive finally gone crazy. Im fucking seeing shit right now. I want to call an ambulance.

 

[mgmt&mdma]

^^^ok im no expert on valerian but i think taking that much is TOO much. i think you need to call an ambulance if ur seeing shit bro

 

[theartofwar]

if you respond adversely to valerian root esp prominent in a large dose like that it is not uncommon to feel hyper anxious , have heart palps and have a real fuckin bad time - Kipo you need to call for an ambulance bro.

 

[mgmt&mdma]

ok i looked it up real quick and from what i read- theres only been one case of valerian overdose.

There has only been one reported overdose while using Valerian Root in 1995 and the user took over 20 times the recommended dosage and the user recovered within 24 hours.

Other potential side effects when taking Valerian in larger doses are nausea, dizziness, restlessness, blurry vision, and excitability.

so if you dont wanna call an ambulance, grab some cold water, lay down, and just take it easy.


maybe you should try seeing a therapist bro. it sounds like you need someone to talk to. TDS is a good start but seeing a professional is even better.

 

[Kipo]

^^^ok im no expert on valerian but i think taking that much is TOO much. i think you need to call an ambulance if ur seeing shit bro

You can take as many as u want, its an herbal sleep aid. The hallucinations have stopped, but im extremley paranoid. Can somone please help me out here? Ive been having these hallucinations without drugs (never done hallucinogens) and that was on a whole new level. It felt so... hazy. Like I was drunk and tripping or something. Plus with this really deep anger and confusion.

Im not gonna call an ambulance but I really think I need some help.

 

[theartofwar]

^ it is the valerian root - your symptoms are to the T the adverse reaction when someone respond bad to it.

 

[mgmt&mdma]

just take it easy and try to stay preoccupied and not think about the hallucinations.

and keep us updated on how you feel, we'll help you get through this

 

[Garden Man]

What in the fuck. Don't take Valerian in a desperate attempt to feel better. There are better ways bro. Those side effects aren't fun, trust me. Drugs are fun, but taking too much for the wrong reasons, they will bite you the fuck back. If you haven't learned so already, you will in time. Believe me, you will. Even if it is a 'herbal sleep aid'. Drugs are like girls: if you treat them nicely and with respect, and they will return you with favors you never thought possible; but if you treat em like shit, they will most certainly do the same to you. Don't take it personally, but it's all in the name of harm reduction.

If this is how you feel ALL THE TIME, and have paranoia/hallucinations, speak to your parents about getting you some professional medical help - it does sound a bit like schizophrenia or HPPD. If not, then what you need is a good laugh and a reason to get up in the morning. Go visit the forum 'the lounge' in 'community' and I can almost guarantee you a laugh!

But tell us, if not for our sake then for your own, what is it that you're going through? Why do you feel like shit? We won't judge you, no matter how crazy what you say is. We've all been through some pretty fucked up shit. You will feel better after letting your thoughts out.

Much love
GM

 

[Kipo]

I feel... confused. First of all, I want to know, WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT? Never In my life, sober or stoned, have I felt such overpowering experience. I want to write more, but I want to see what that could have possibly been.

 

[mgmt&mdma]

What in the fuck. Don't take Valerian in a desperate attempt to feel better. There are better ways bro. Those side effects aren't fun, trust me. Drugs are fun, but taking too much for the wrong reasons, they will bite you the fuck back. If you haven't learned so already, you will in time. Believe me, you will. Even if it is a 'herbal sleep aid'. Drugs are like girls: if you treat them nicely and with respect, and they will return you with favors you never thought possible; but if you treat em like shit, they will most certainly do the same to you. Don't take it personally, but it's all in the name of harm reduction.

If this is how you feel ALL THE TIME, and have paranoia/hallucinations, speak to your parents about getting you some professional medical help - it does sound a bit like schizophrenia or HPPD. If not, then what you need is a good laugh and a reason to get up in the morning. Go visit the forum 'the lounge' in 'community' and I can almost guarantee you a laugh!

But tell us, if not for our sake then for your own, what is it that you're going through? Why do you feel like shit? We won't judge you, no matter how crazy what you say is. We've all been through some pretty fucked up shit. You will feel better after letting your thoughts out.

Much love
GM

good post, and hellz yeah for Johnny Bravo!!!!

I feel... confused. First of all, I want to know, WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT? Never In my life, sober or stoned, have I felt such overpowering experience. I want to write more, but I want to see what that could have possibly been.

alright so i guess you could just try and make the best out of the hallucinating? haha

 

[Kipo]

The best I can come up with is that it was a mental breakdown with hallucinations. Im going to talk to my parents tonight about seeing a therapist. Does anyone know if it's common for them to have some sort of help as far as payment goes?

 

[mgmt&mdma]

^^ur insurance agency should cover it. (or most of it)

if youre still in highschool you can go see the school therapist for free

 

[Asclepius]

This is probably nothing compared to what some of you guys are going through. But I can't fucking stand it anymore. I don't know what it is. But I just feel so depressed right now. I've got no money, only about .5 of weed and 4 7.5/200 pills of vicoprofen that I had to steal from my parents. I know they are gonna notice, they will also notice the wine bottle missing from 2 weeks ago. I just cant keep up this shit. Im going nowhere in my life, every waking moment I think about the next time I can get some sort of escape.

Dont sell yourself short on whats goin on for you ATM. Think most people can relate to this. I know I certainly can.

I really cant figure out where this anger/depression is coming from. But I feel like i want to fucking kill somone. I have nobody in real life that I can talk to or tell the truth to. I'm paranoid about my parents finding out about some shit that i took. I just want unlimited vic's and unlimited weed. Then I will be happy. Im going to... idk. Im gonna go do something. I feel like im in a haze but i havent taken anything. Please. I cant communicate for some reason. Please help me.

The anger/depression is NORMAL! Please dont think otherwise, despite the fact it seems that your alone in this. There is absolutely nothing wrong with the way you feel man. This stuff is a bitch to deal with but nevertheless you are not alone. Stick on here, you'll see. Your communicating just fine BTW, I certainly could decipher what you wrote, don't undermine yourself, your confused and there is nothing 'strange' about that.--It makes sense.

I just want unlimited vic's and unlimited weed. Then I will be happy.

You will feel temporary relief but no more and no less my friend.
Are things buildin up too much ATM for you?

 

[Wolfmans_BrothEr]

Dude, you tear at my heart strings, but this is I don't know atleast the 5th thread you've opened in the past month about the same thing. And you get the same advice every time. You know what your supposed to do because we've told you multiple times. You cant complain you have no one to talk to when you haven't made an effort to talk to anyone.

You cant continue to keep taking all these drugs when we've told you continuously that you should stop. What else are you expecting the hand of god to come through the computer and give you the answers to life? Show some will power, lay off all the drugs, and see a therapist.

Take this with a grain of salt, I'm not trying to bash you, but you gotta get the picture

 

[Garden Man]

I read a few of your posts and I "SERIOUSLY" recommend you getting tested for schizophrenia. Do not take this lightly. Go see a psychiatrist. Not a school counselor because most of them don't give a shit. See a real psychiatrist. Don't brush it off man, just do it. It won't hurt you. It should be about 60-100 dollars for a session. If your family has insurance, then a huge portion of that cost will be reduced. See a professional.

Don't take drugs to solve your problems. They will only make them worse.

 

[n3ophy7e]

The best I can come up with is that it was a mental breakdown with hallucinations. Im going to talk to my parents tonight about seeing a therapist.

Kipo I think this is a really good idea man. It sounds like you need some help, and talking to your parents about what you're going through is a great start. They can help you find a therapist, and as mgmt&mdma said you could even talk to your school counsellor.

I've also PMd you, feel free to reply if you want to talk

Take care okay? You are going to be fine

 

[Wolfmans_BrothEr]

I read a few of your posts and I "SERIOUSLY" recommend you getting tested for schizophrenia. Do not take this lightly. Go see a psychiatrist. Not a school counselor because most of them don't give a shit. See a real psychiatrist. Don't brush it off man, just do it. It won't hurt you. It should be about 60-100 dollars for a session. If your family has insurance, then a huge portion of that cost will be reduced. See a professional.

Don't take drugs to solve your problems. They will only make them worse.

Chances are the psych will tell him he's schitzo b.c he wants his money. And if not a psych's just gonna prescribe him more drugs

 

[n3ophy7e]

Chances are the psych will tell him he's schitzo b.c he wants his money. And if not a psych's just gonna prescribe him more drugs

Man, as much as I don't like the way psychiatrists go about treating emotional disorders, the vast majority of them are NOT just out to get everyone's money. Sure, they are motivated by money to a certain extent, but no more than any other professional e.g. mechanic, lawyer etc.
Psychiatrists need to get good results with their patients otherwise the word gets around that they're not effective and they no longer get referrals from other doctors. So its in their best interests to act ethically.