ziggo
Bluelighter
I was addicted to H for almost a year went to rehab and relapsed once but I want to stay clean from it now. At rehab (85% of people there were there for meth use/ most IV) they always said at parties people would do a shot in the bathroom or whatever and as they walked out would just rip all their clothes off and get naked and start having sex or being sexual in some way. So to say I was a little tempted to see what it was like would be quite the understatement as I have never been very sexual my whole life. I smoked meth a few times with a new great friend from rehab and then tried shooting it about a week later when my friend said he got some great quality shit. He has been doing it for about 2 years and always doses .25gram and all his gay friends do the same. Apparently .25grams even in low quality gear is a bit much for most first timers. But I felt in the moment that I am in the best physical/mental health of my life and in no way would this drug worry me.
Smoking it was kinda intense but holy shit to me meth iv has a rush that is insanely more intense and whack over H; it is more intense then language but I will try my best. I shot a friend and then myself, firstly I saw him go red in the face when I shot him up but I couldn't imagine the feeling. It's like I pushed my plunger slowly(40cc liquid) and it was hard to push it in fast probably from the 31g tiny needle but anyways when it was like half way in I started feeling I suppose chilly fire that started from near my heart and just engulfed my body in waves of euphoria and instead of numbness like H it's ultra sensitivity with your tactical sensations! I just felt like I had so much energy it was like there was thousands of myselfs sitting in the same spot just constantly shaking and twitching every fiber of my body but I was also perfectly calm and wasn't actually moving at all. Then I was forced to cough and felt like I let go of some medical air that had to be released cause the pressure and heat was so intense. I couldn't bear to keep my clothes on; if I did I might die! So as soon as I took the needle out it was off and then every breath I took after for the next like 5mins felt like I was inhaling pure gas pleasure that would stimulate and tease all the nerves in my body and then exhaling was like a small sexual climax.
Mentally it made me feel many times smarter and quicker on thoughts and abstract ideas then amphetamine gave me the first time and this lasted many hours, I had gotten many new ideas on the universe and everything and now believe in a lot of them so strongly it will and has changed my life perception on things. The body buzz was pretty strong for a good 3 hours and it just felt like some of my best orgasms I've experienced from living or dreaming right in the beginning. The H rush never was or has been similar to any of my orgasms so I guess I never found that much desire in it, but I know I don't want any connects to this shit and this friend won't sell me more shit if I want, because I do want to stay sober. Even though meth gives so much power and confidence at first I'm sure I'd end up in a multiple timed worse experience then when I was on adderall for 1 1/2 yrs 5days a week. The side effects just got stronger and more irritating the more I used and the euphoria slowly died I'm sure meth is the same after hearing many long time users stories. This is what I always envisioned the perfect high to be, this is unnerving how I could see my life flash before my eyes and my death from this and the needle if I ever wished to take this evil road any deeper.
What made me do it? repressed sexuality I suppose and how everyone at rehab said once they did it the meth took over and all the sexual things they did were so open and free. I didn't resort to any sex with my company although it was open, no I felt if I did I could have had a heart attack near the peak so talking was all the orgasm I needed during that first hour. Be warned of the power this holds and the lives it destroys are I fear far greater then any other drug yet known. Evil temps me and evil likes me yet I know its falsehood and resort to the good that is in all and will forever lead me to life.
Love & Peace
Smoking it was kinda intense but holy shit to me meth iv has a rush that is insanely more intense and whack over H; it is more intense then language but I will try my best. I shot a friend and then myself, firstly I saw him go red in the face when I shot him up but I couldn't imagine the feeling. It's like I pushed my plunger slowly(40cc liquid) and it was hard to push it in fast probably from the 31g tiny needle but anyways when it was like half way in I started feeling I suppose chilly fire that started from near my heart and just engulfed my body in waves of euphoria and instead of numbness like H it's ultra sensitivity with your tactical sensations! I just felt like I had so much energy it was like there was thousands of myselfs sitting in the same spot just constantly shaking and twitching every fiber of my body but I was also perfectly calm and wasn't actually moving at all. Then I was forced to cough and felt like I let go of some medical air that had to be released cause the pressure and heat was so intense. I couldn't bear to keep my clothes on; if I did I might die! So as soon as I took the needle out it was off and then every breath I took after for the next like 5mins felt like I was inhaling pure gas pleasure that would stimulate and tease all the nerves in my body and then exhaling was like a small sexual climax.
Mentally it made me feel many times smarter and quicker on thoughts and abstract ideas then amphetamine gave me the first time and this lasted many hours, I had gotten many new ideas on the universe and everything and now believe in a lot of them so strongly it will and has changed my life perception on things. The body buzz was pretty strong for a good 3 hours and it just felt like some of my best orgasms I've experienced from living or dreaming right in the beginning. The H rush never was or has been similar to any of my orgasms so I guess I never found that much desire in it, but I know I don't want any connects to this shit and this friend won't sell me more shit if I want, because I do want to stay sober. Even though meth gives so much power and confidence at first I'm sure I'd end up in a multiple timed worse experience then when I was on adderall for 1 1/2 yrs 5days a week. The side effects just got stronger and more irritating the more I used and the euphoria slowly died I'm sure meth is the same after hearing many long time users stories. This is what I always envisioned the perfect high to be, this is unnerving how I could see my life flash before my eyes and my death from this and the needle if I ever wished to take this evil road any deeper.
What made me do it? repressed sexuality I suppose and how everyone at rehab said once they did it the meth took over and all the sexual things they did were so open and free. I didn't resort to any sex with my company although it was open, no I felt if I did I could have had a heart attack near the peak so talking was all the orgasm I needed during that first hour. Be warned of the power this holds and the lives it destroys are I fear far greater then any other drug yet known. Evil temps me and evil likes me yet I know its falsehood and resort to the good that is in all and will forever lead me to life.
Love & Peace
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The euphoria is great but the duration is long and the addiction potential is scary.
