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That's how mine felt too. Got reminded of a bunch of necessary stuff.
Man oh man am I sick of where I'm living.
 
has anything happened w/ you recently that might have got your brain on the death train? anyone die-have you suffered a trauma? what is it that is leading your mind to this place? i know in my mid 20s i felt like i had a quarter life crisis. is this just the natural ebb and flow of your thoughts? you think about it alot? got any art that you have done while you are thinking about death?
 
theotherside said:
How was everyone's monday? doom and gloom with a hint of sunshine is how mine went!
Good to see you skillz!
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dude-i so missed you guys. but i'm finally done w/ the medicaid bullshit and my disability depends on the medicaid. but my case worker said that it was pretty much a sure thing. i can unburden my parents financially,see the Dr.s i have needed to see over the past 3 years. losing your career is hard...especially bc your body just cldn't do the work anymore bc of my injuries...it also means you lose insurance and benefits-all of a sudden your stuck w/ a horrible,yet legit,opiate addiction and no way to see your Dr. to get a RX then you go back to copin and gettin it anyway you can...... but i have paid my way-i made a lot of money in my 20s-too much money-what's on paper is ridiculous alone not counting gratuities that were declared as a percentages,not as a whole.and i have worked physical jobs since 16. so i hope i get it bc i need to get my life together i need a plan and dedication to it bc this isn't working out for me...living in my childhood bedroom next to my parents has well surpassed my limit. i gotta get my own place bc they are driving me Lizzy fucking Borden. lol shwew-it has been a rough month or so. I'm so glad this is almost over.
sorry i kinda took the mood down.
well let's just lift it up.
i am finally able to smoke weed,having been abstinent from it(mostly)over the past month in case i ran into a drug test. so i am flying high. right now.

how bout you guys??? i know you guys got it in you....how is everybody else feeling??? any stoners out there who have baked their brains(and lungs) like i have tonight?

what's up w/ the doom and gloom on your end,brah?
 
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Trinitee said:
If you're talking about reality then I feel ya sister. ;)
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Essentially my sister, essentially..


skillz~4~thrillz said:
has anything happened w/ you recently that might have got your brain on the death train? anyone die-have you suffered a trauma? what is it that is leading your mind to this place? i know in my mid 20s i felt like i had a quarter life crisis. is this just the natural ebb and flow of your thoughts? you think about it alot? got any art that you have done while you are thinking about death?
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Well yeah, it's the birthday of someone who died around this time last year also. 2 weeks after their birthday.
It's funny cause a lot of our more memorable conversations were talking about whacked out shit, and ultimately "death." So I've thought about it loads before a year ago. A big part of why I took psychedelics was to help me see a little glimpse of the unknown. Something more than just THIS. Though since this death I've basically stopped tripping.
It's definitely part of the normal ebb and flow, but I'd say a more particularly strong eddy.
And part of it could probably, maybe, perhaps even be my quarter life crisis that you talk of. It's hard to say. Everything has always been in a constant state of change throughout my life and my though train.

I generally am positive and am in pursuit to stay that way. But I feel like the people I know and associate with aren't good people and I have to get away from them and the situations they put themselves in and from time to time drag me into.
It's a buzzkill.
That mixed with memories as of late just makes me feel.. meh
 
Oh the only thing bringing me doom and gloom is that monday feel....sometimes I'm off on tuesdays but not this week. If I could cut out work and still have money to do what I wanted to do all would be great.
 
Laika said:
That's how mine felt too. Got reminded of a bunch of necessary stuff.
Man oh man am I sick of where I'm living.
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Short of an untimely exit and hoping you were referring to your spatio-temporal coordinates instead; you oughta try living in the south--I hear Seattle, frisco and Boston are really cool cities to enjoy when you're young--High cost of living in each(more perks of where I live:))

And with regards to thinking about death and such, you're not alone. Many men, philosophers, have spent the better part of their years ruminating on such things as the nature of death and the split of body and soul during the collapse of the physical body. Who actually knows? There is merit to the thoughts though.

I really had a huge curiosity in the subject after blasting off on some plastic tasting DMT (.14mg I believe on top of pristine ganja). Just the notion that DMT is released in one's dying moments and the time dilation one experiences enduring the conscious effects of DMT. I've heard the brain survives for like 15 seconds or something after the body is physically dead. One could experience an eternal afterlife in that state....

But read Dr. Strassman's book DMT: The Spirit Molecule for a good idea of the nature of DMT.
 
Yeah I've read that book. Unfortunately his research isn't based upon any sort of real actual fact.
 
Laika said:
Essentially my sister, essentially..




Well yeah, it's the birthday of someone who died around this time last year also. 2 weeks after their birthday.
It's funny cause a lot of our more memorable conversations were talking about whacked out shit, and ultimately "death." So I've thought about it loads before a year ago. A big part of why I took psychedelics was to help me see a little glimpse of the unknown. Something more than just THIS. Though since this death I've basically stopped tripping.
It's definitely part of the normal ebb and flow, but I'd say a more particularly strong eddy.
And part of it could probably, maybe, perhaps even be my quarter life crisis that you talk of. It's hard to say. Everything has always been in a constant state of change throughout my life and my though train.

I generally am positive and am in pursuit to stay that way. But I feel like the people I know and associate with aren't good people and I have to get away from them and the situations they put themselves in and from time to time drag me into.
It's a buzzkill.
That mixed with memories as of late just makes me feel.. meh
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sorry about the anniversary of a death coming up. i'd say that is definitely like the moon pulling at the tide,ya know. its good that you embrace them-your thoughts and feelings. and we all knowhow awesome you are. if i were you i would explore these thoughts and feelings through your art-or through your words. you are so talented. maybe you should"take this to the canvas",so to speak.
 
Wow, I literally had cake coming out of my ass today! Cake from Parents, Cake from mates, Cupcakes from work..All chocolate too :D

Now to rewind and drink some nice cold JD's :D

How is everyone else?
 
Laika said:
Ah I forgot to mention and address that part of your post. I actually did do some drawings for the occasion so to say.
http://th03.deviantart.net/fs71/PRE/i/2010/271/a/6/wb2_by_drawtheworldaway-d2zo6ys.jpg
http://th06.deviantart.net/fs70/PRE/i/2010/271/e/8/wb1_by_drawtheworldaway-d2zo6wp.jpg

Black and whites of course.
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wow...they are really amazing. i can feel your experience juxtaposed to your curiosity and desire for resolve.
i want to share some art with you. i have to photograph/scan it so it will take me a day or two. but i want to show you some pieces that i did while in the"pondering life and death and meaning of it all. it is similar to your style but at the same time it is the exact opposite.
 
Ohh I'm really intrigued :) I can't wait to see it.
Thanks for chatting it up and helping me express tonight. But I've gotta go to bed now.
Goodnight everyone
 
JoshE said:
Wow, I literally had cake coming out of my ass today! Cake from Parents, Cake from mates, Cupcakes from work..All chocolate too :D

Now to rewind and drink some nice cold JD's :D

How is everyone else?
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happy birthday,man....i LOLd about the anus cake crisis you had-believe it or not i so know that feeling...lol.
is it a mile stone birthday? you know-18,21,25,30,35,40?

i have my 35 coming up on 9/11....i can't wait-i love getting older-gracefully,of course.

hope your day keeps on treating you right!!!

much peace and love.........................skillz=D
 
theotherside said:
Hey Josh...I take it you are already finished with Tuesday then?
Also......................
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Thanks bro! =D

Yep Tuesday is done and dusted. Hows your night going?
 
theotherside said:
Night Laika :) Have a good tuesday when you get up!
Skillz have you met trinitee yet? Met meaning talked with :) One of many new faces to the site...which is why i love it here!
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not yet....i see we have some kickin' new socialites. i am so glad to be feeling better and back online. our fucking DSL went out like 3 days in a row and the modem is in my parents room so i just sit here and stew bc all i need to do is walk in for 30 secs and reset it and i can't. grrrrrrrr.

i got 2 new PS3 games....both my 1st FPS games.i happened to have copied the walkthroughs to both to a notepad before i lost the connection,so i spent 3 days w/ my leg up just blasting enemies away. i LOVE video games-still have my original Atari-1982.

anyone else a gamer????
 
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