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thizzin' since 98

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So, its been 3 1/2 months since eating a bad pill. (Blue Rolex - Contents unknown)

Since then, I have been completely sober, waiting and praying for my brain to just recover, and that I find my old self again. So far, no luck.

I'm asking you guys, with all my heart, to please investigate my symptoms and help me in any way possible.

Ever since that blue rolex, which I rolled for 18 hours off, nothing has been the same.

I wake up in the morning, and still have that 'light' day after rolling feeling, I feel out of touch, like the way I process, my perspective has changed. I fucking hate this feeling. It eats me alive. It's ruined my life 150%. I can still function, I am still witty, I just cant shake this weird weird feeling, and I can't put my finger on it.

I'm currently taking 20mg's of Celexa for depression, I am prescribed Xanax for anxiety which has gotten much better over the past 3 months, and I was just recently prescribed Risperidole, and i'm not sure why.

My physc and therapist just dont cut it. I just need to get rid of this light, out of it feeling. And its not side effect from any of the medication, i've had this same feeling, which is hard to describe since the morning after that pill.

Does anyone know what might have been in it? I took it back in January.

I'm so desperate for help. I constantly break down, because I know i've destroyed my brain, and I don't feel like i'll ever have my old self back. I feel like I will be constantly plagued with this light, burnt out, not in touch with reality feeling.

I need a brain operation ): Someone please please lend me a hand. I can't take this any longer.
 
If it was me i wouldnt take any pills(not even from doctors), and stay completely sober. But thats just me and I dont trust em docs. Hopefull youll get better!
 
It seems the OP has learnt his lesson about taking pills without testing them and no mate, there is no way anyone here can tell you exactly what was in that Blue Rolex.

Next time, test first.

OP, Get on some vitamins, maybe even some 5-HTP and if your not already, start doing some daily exercise and eating healthy can also be beneficial for your recovery.

You say you were off chops for 18 hours after taking that Rolex? Sounds nasty man. Anyway I'm sure you will pull through :)
 
It's a much more serious problem, something was triggered.

I loaded up on vitamins and 5-htp for a few weeks after the incident. Nothing changed.

Which is why I'm on antidepressants and anti psychotics and anti anxiety meds now. Emotionally im doing better. but I cant get rid of this out of touch, 'light' feeling.
 
Those were straight pipes my friends had some of those. I would just get sober and stay sober for a while. Either that or your just dwelling on the after effects and it has now gone to your head. I can't really see how they could effect you like that unless you took like 7 lol.
 
All i can say on the matter is stay away from blue E's

Any time me and my mates have ever had blue E's we always had bad reactions to them physically and mentally

First time i had a blue E was in 2000 and was an E called No.1's and it happened then... i again had a blue E 2 years ago which was blue smurfs and again i had the same bad reactions as any others that ive had inbetween 2000 and 2 years ago so nothing has changed

I wont touch one again

However i have never or never seen anyone have bad reactions to the blue speckled varieties of E's
 
Dude. why are you so absolutely positive it has nothing to do with the medication your on. Celexa and xanax both change your bodies chemistry quite a bit. Taking ecstasy does as well, the combo could be whats caused and is causing this odd feeling.
Maybe its a kind-of placebo effect you are so paranoid and constantly thinking about it won't go away naturally because every day your over doing it.

I remember getting bad acid one time, and tripped for over 20 hours. It took a few weeks till I lost the (HORRIBLE WEIRD NEXT-DAY) Out-of-it Feeling. But finally I recovered. That was 2 years ago. I wasn't on any medications though.
Good luck.<3
 
RegisteredStoneeer said:
Dude. why are you so absolutely positive it has nothing to do with the medication your on. Celexa and xanax both change your bodies chemistry quite a bit. Taking ecstasy does as well, the combo could be whats caused and is causing this odd feeling.
Maybe its a kind-of placebo effect you are so paranoid and constantly thinking about it won't go away naturally because every day your over doing it.

I remember getting bad acid one time, and tripped for over 20 hours. It took a few weeks till I lost the (HORRIBLE WEIRD NEXT-DAY) Out-of-it Feeling. But finally I recovered. That was 2 years ago. I wasn't on any medications though.
Good luck.<3
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The reason I say i'm pretty positive is because this is the same way I felt while I was on the drug, the day after, and for the next 3 weeks before I started on any medication what so ever.

Do you think I should talk to my pshyc about maybe stopping all medication for a few weeks and see if anything changes?
 
Piracetam! :) Not only does piracetam help with every day cognitive function and mood, but it enhances the MDMA experience and helps eliminate the unwanted after effects.

5-htp prior to MDMA use can diminish the effects, so I'd advise saving it for after.

You can view the wikipedia page on it for more info: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Piracetam

As you'll see from that page, it's been proven to reverse aging (in mice), prevent stroke, seizures, brain trauma and even schizophrenia in humans. Many of us find it very useful as a pre-roll supplement and one to get you back on track.
 
thizzin' since 98 said:
So, its been 3 1/2 months since eating a bad pill. (Blue Rolex - Contents unknown)

Since then, I have been completely sober, waiting and praying for my brain to just recover, and that I find my old self again. So far, no luck.

I'm asking you guys, with all my heart, to please investigate my symptoms and help me in any way possible.

Ever since that blue rolex, which I rolled for 18 hours off, nothing has been the same.

I wake up in the morning, and still have that 'light' day after rolling feeling, I feel out of touch, like the way I process, my perspective has changed. I fucking hate this feeling. It eats me alive. It's ruined my life 150%. I can still function, I am still witty, I just cant shake this weird weird feeling, and I can't put my finger on it.

I'm currently taking 20mg's of Celexa for depression, I am prescribed Xanax for anxiety which has gotten much better over the past 3 months, and I was just recently prescribed Risperidole, and i'm not sure why.

My physc and therapist just dont cut it. I just need to get rid of this light, out of it feeling. And its not side effect from any of the medication, i've had this same feeling, which is hard to describe since the morning after that pill.

Does anyone know what might have been in it? I took it back in January.

I'm so desperate for help. I constantly break down, because I know i've destroyed my brain, and I don't feel like i'll ever have my old self back. I feel like I will be constantly plagued with this light, burnt out, not in touch with reality feeling.

I need a brain operation ): Someone please please lend me a hand. I can't take this any longer.
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that sounds like a benzo haze. I have an Rx to lorazepam and ever since ive been on it daily it kinda feels like that, not really burnt out but not really 100% caring about what goes on. It only lasts for a few moments and then i get back into whatever it is im doing. It reminds me of being ADD

But then again, im not quite sure because ive always kinda been that way, but i just feel its more pronounced.

its kinda like a light haze. hard to describe, sounds similar to what you're going through. makes me want to stop taking them but its kinda hard when theres 90 of them sitting right next to me.

benzos are very addicting. i plan on weening off of them. i dont like relying on medication
 
Sounds like an issue unrelated to piperazine consumption.
Im no doctor but i do notice most times if its a post about feeling wierd a long time after rolling the person is taking anti-depressants etc. Some food for thought.
Try stop taking your anti-depressants & xanax to see how you feel? If you can handle i would want you to end up in a bad spot.
 
I dont it will be the xanax causing problems tbh

any time i have used a benzo before taking a regular non colored E all it has done is made the experience more trippy and relaxed than anything

but hey i guess its still worth trying not taking them
 
all I can say, theres nothing better than doing exercises... running it makes you feel awesome, try that, do not stay home doing sht, go out and enjoy life...(kind of easy to say when im not in going through what you are, I know) seriusly man, running will make you fell 100x better...
 
I've been through a similar situation as yours due to my e pill abuse. So far im 6 months sober and i feel smarter than before and appreciate my life a lot more and see it for what it really is. Every day i see my improvements. I had dp and dr wasd depressed for about two months after i rolled and had trouble finding words to express myself and i still sometimes do but thats also getting better. I dont how much damage you did but for me it was rolling once a month for 5 months. taking an average of 3 pills each time. and i felt back to normal in about 5 months of NOT ROLLING. I also took supplements, no antidepressants, and worked out.
 
thizzin' if you search the site, you will find many stories similar to yours over the years.

Our brains were not built to handle the punch of some of these bathtub meds, and as a result, dissociation from the experience can manifest. Think of soldiers who have gone through a big explosion or a horrible battle. Getting a 'pipe bomb' and going through the experience you did is the mental equivalent. It's like PTSD without any external stimuli.

It will get better with time, but your brain has to remap those neural pathways, and you need to relearn how to live life again before the grays will turn to color, and the world will snap back into focus.

I know it might sound like bullshit, but this has happened to thousands of people for various reasons. Most are like you and took a bad pill or two, others have had it happen after waking up from anaesthesia, or after a traumatic incident in their lives.

Hang in there. It does get better. You need to fake it until it does. The pills I took were called Yellow CKs, and I won't lie, it took a long time before things got back to normal.
 
I dropped a blue rolex too at a rave a couple months back. i found it on pillreports and on ecstacydatabase. its a methbomb. i pretty much got the same experience as you but i was fine after a couple days. just try not to think about it too much and focus on the good things in life. and try not to rely on those meds too much.

smackcraft said:
All i can say on the matter is stay away from blue E's

Any time me and my mates have ever had blue E's we always had bad reactions to them physically and mentally

First time i had a blue E was in 2000 and was an E called No.1's and it happened then... i again had a blue E 2 years ago which was blue smurfs and again i had the same bad reactions as any others that ive had inbetween 2000 and 2 years ago so nothing has changed

I wont touch one again

However i have never or never seen anyone have bad reactions to the blue speckled varieties of E's
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the color of the pill is just to make it easier for people to ID the pill. it doesnt mean shit about the contents of the pill.
 
blue pills and blue speckled pills are pretty much the same! i really dont know much to say about this post...the blue rolexs were straight piperazines. nothing else. give it another week or 2 OP and you should start feeling back to normal
 
thank you guys so so much for the support and information.

can someone explain what exactly makes up a Pipe? contents? I heard it plastic chemicals or something like that? Am I wrong?

and you guys genuinely think I should stop all prescribed drugs? I mean, they have improved my mood, before the meds I was sick to my stomach with hopelessness and my anxiety almost took me to the hospital a few times, but that is much more under control now :) I just cant shake this weird 'light' feeling. sometimes its as if im behind glass, not all the way there, but im not zoned out, and still coherent.
 
PotLuck said:
I dropped a blue rolex too at a rave a couple months back. i found it on pillreports and on ecstacydatabase. its a methbomb. i pretty much got the same experience as you but i was fine after a couple days. just try not to think about it too much and focus on the good things in life. and try not to rely on those meds too much.

the color of the pill is just to make it easier for people to ID the pill. it doesnt mean shit about the contents of the pill.
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Dont talk so much shit

just the fact its another colour means they added something to make it blue ffs ..

even if it was something as simple as a colouring additive which alot of people do react to especially the colour blue
 
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