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... boredom.

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panic in paradise

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do you become bored?

if so, is there any particular time of the day you do?
do you begin to feel a sense of boredom rising, and are you able to detour it?
how if so?
does it remind you of anything?

what does boredom mean to you, how has it e(A)ffected you?

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has it done anything good for your life?
if so what?




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It happens most nights. My schedule has shifted to being up all night until 5-6AM. Usually by 3AM I have not much else to occupy my mind with so I will watch online episodes, listen to podcasts, read, etc. But I'm just passing time waiting to be able to sleep.

I feel that this boredom comes from a lack of presence. When my mind is still I am able to sink into relaxation and fully immerse myself in whatever I am doing or listening to. Otherwise I am tense and stuck in my mind and unable to concentrate on anything long enough to stay engaged.

I envy those who lay still and are asleep within minutes. I approach the bed with a certain amount of anxiety, unsure if I will drift off or be stuck with with a rush of thoughts/worries.

I suppose it is a valuable lesson, in that I am forced each day to put some effort in learning how to appreciate the calmness of inaction. I am much more comfortable feeling wired and engaged in something rather than relaxed. I don't really know how to relax. Didn't teach that in school..
 
^nice...
no, well, they try to teach you how to be relaxed following thee and stay in line, how to Behive mostly.
anywaaays

i like to try and have maybe 3 or 5 steps through out the day, or perhaps a review of my efforts and standings, gives me a sense of acceleration as long as.
;-)


... seemed worth sharing to couple your comments.
 
In the morning/afternoon my mind is never bored...always coffee and go go go. Fast forward to the nights and then boredom hits HARD. I have a long term g/f, great family, a few friends and a few good hobbies but none of them seem to stop the boredom late night. It effects my life because boredom leads to more drug use which leads me further from my "home". Some days are better than others but weekend boredom can turn into a disaster!
 
Boredom to me means too much time on my hands to think and usually it means depression and everything that goes with that. There are few things worse then not being able to sleep and being in a pit of despair with nothing to do and staring at the walls all night chain smoking.
 
paranoid android said:
There are few things worse then not being able to sleep and being in a pit of despair with nothing to do and staring at the walls all night chain smoking.
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Unfortunately, i know this too well.

It was even worse when i was out of work for a couple of months, i would often go back to sleep just to pass the time, my boredom spiraled into depression and often boarded on psychosis.. it was a very dark period in my life, that im not sure has passed on completely yet. How i deal with it these days is i often try create a set of goals as a 'backdrop', so if i find myself in a situation where im bored i'll refer to that backdrop.

This is also one of the reasons why i travel alot too and have been drawn to a sort of nomadic lifestyle.. because it keeps everything in constant motion and usually doesn't allow for much time to 'sit-around'. Last weekend after moving back in with my folks temporarily, i threw out everything i owned except for some clothes, my computer, a few backpacks and a travel case.

Comfort - This has to be the scariest word in the dictionary for me, i am terrified of been comfortable.. because it leads me down a dark depressing path clouded in illusion, not only this but it's so easy to fall into and before you realize it your neck-high in quicksand.. unable to move or go anywhere in life.

The way i approach boredom, after been pushed to my emotional and psychological limits is; Just do Something! Anything! even if your unsure, fuck it.. if there's one thing i've learnt through my experiences, is if you allow yourself time to think about doing something from a comfortable perspective, you will convince yourself that you don't need to change anything... and the vicious cycle repeats itself.
 
" if there's one thing i've learnt through my experiences, is if you allow yourself time to think about doing something from a comfortable perspective, you will convince yourself that you don't need to do anything... and the vicious cycle repeats itself. "
- Malakaix

i likey this.


... presents a not so usual mental image.
 
Boredom means mind racing, depression, followed by getting drunk or high.

Hell, I even get bored standing at my press at work. I've always been like that. If something no longer mentally stimulates me or something, or is old and dull, I get bored, followed by a mind fuck of racing thoughts.
 
I'm bored right now. Only because I am lying in bed and everyone else is asleep when I'm wide awake. Hmmm but I usually become bored a lot if I'm not doing something that interests me. I usually end up zoning out and thinking of something that intrigues me....even if it means staring at a wall for ten minutes forgetting what I was about to do..
 
malakaix said:
Unfortunately, i know this too well.

It was even worse when i was out of work for a couple of months, i would often go back to sleep just to pass the time, my boredom spiraled into depression and often boarded on psychosis.. it was a very dark period in my life, that im not sure has passed on completely yet. How i deal with it these days is i often try create a set of goals as a 'backdrop', so if i find myself in a situation where im bored i'll refer to that backdrop.

This is also one of the reasons why i travel alot too and have been drawn to a sort of nomadic lifestyle.. because it keeps everything in constant motion and usually doesn't allow for much time to 'sit-around'. Last weekend after moving back in with my folks temporarily, i threw out everything i owned except for some clothes, my computer, a few backpacks and a travel case.

Comfort - This has to be the scariest word in the dictionary for me, i am terrified of been comfortable.. because it leads me down a dark depressing path clouded in illusion, not only this but it's so easy to fall into and before you realize it your neck-high in quicksand.. unable to move or go anywhere in life.

The way i approach boredom, after been pushed to my emotional and psychological limits is; Just do Something! Anything! even if your unsure, fuck it.. if there's one thing i've learnt through my experiences, is if you allow yourself time to think about doing something from a comfortable perspective, you will convince yourself that you don't need to change anything... and the vicious cycle repeats itself.
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Sounds alot like me. I swear i never feel more at home or happier when I'm getting off a plane in a city where i hardly know anyone. I can fit all my belongings in a big hockey bag so it's no trouble for me to travel light. Granted the hockey bag might be almost 90 LBS but whatever. Basically all i carry with me is clothes, a walkman or whatever (ya i don't own a mp3 player yet 8o ), Cd's, my meds and a few other things. I used to love it when i could just fuck off to wherever if things where not good but unfortunately now with the chronic pain and bipolar disorder i can't do that anymore because i have to worry about getting my meds and stuff. Fuck being chained down depresses me more then having the illness itself :p
 
i try not to, if i sit there. gives me time to think.. like get all up in my head, and its not a good place to be atm.
i try to keep myself entertained with bluelight (like go into forums i don't go into that often), video games (counterstrike, team fortress 1, anything on my PC.), check out some funny videos, facebook.
 
Boredom for me seems to be the portal to all things bad...It seems to be the primary feeling i have leading up to any type of bad behavior, or it morphs into sadness, anger, frustration..it always starts with boredom. I am one of those people who needs to be busy all the time or i just get into trouble
 
Boredom? what's that?

I just know it as waiting.... and I got really fuckin' used to waiting.

sit with my back to the room in the corner all night.
 
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I feel bored most of the time. In fact I would say that 90% of my waking hours, I'm either bored or anxious.
 
^This. Alot of the attempts to distract fom boredom are filled with obsessive/comulsive behaviour. Difficult to not run from one extreme to another. :/ Hate boredom with a passion.:!
 
keeping my hands, feet, or eyes busy helps fight boredom a lot.

hence the fiddling with objects, walking everywhere, and reading epic amounts of random wikipedia.
 
when I used to do a lot of drugs, I would get bored more often than usual. only taking drugs would gets rid of this boredom.

boredom made me very social, it made me find a lot of friends, including a gf.

but ever since I've been put on sub, I am no longer bored, so going out no longer interest me anymore, and I'm not so social anymore
 
^^hehe opiates eliminated boredom to me as well..i mean, as soon as i found opiates i seemed like i found the cure to boredom...as long as the supply is there..

my biggest problem is boredom and i can bored cutting brick, painting walls, mowing the yard, anything...i call patches of 'life boredom'....others call it anhedonia and ill be honest i dont know what to do to get rid of it..obviously drugs help and exercise does as well but you cant do that at work or in front of other people so.
 
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