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How are you in one word v. Pedalling through the dark currents

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Stubborn
Everything can go to hell ATM, am making a concious decision to take some Time Out. :P
 
stagnant
time for structure in my life that leads to balance, growth and purpose
 
loved.

in the morning, my brucey boy always comes in my room and snuggles right by me on my bed. i love him so much <3 we got him at the shelter. some family had him before, but just left him at the shelter, because they either couldnt handle him or just didnt want him. i dont know how someone could do that. hes the best dog ever, so full of love and devotion.
 
lost?

I ended it with my girl due to not really being able to trust her. I am also pretty damn sure I have disorganised Schizophrenia, and my psychiatric assessment is on Friday, to give me some insight on this.
 
tentative
for awhile now i've been robotically getting through the hours, floating along aimlessly, vapid and unfocused. i don't like it.
anyway
last monday my doc called and told me my thyroid tests were off again so he changed the Rx.
yesterday and today i feel different, lighter somehow, and i am really hoping it's the thyroid med and not just unrelated w/e cuz i gotta get a fk'g grip.
-izzy
 
Burdensome, detached, foolish fucking 22 year old 'girl' who will never live up to her potential because she's a confused fucking idiot, ect. Back to the cutting board again.
 
Grateful. The last little while has weighed down on me but I'm starting to get back into the groove and feel less broken.
 
Frantic. My medicine's keeping me awake longer than it's keeping me level-minded. I just want to sleep before this gets as bad as I know it can.
 
i'm a lil nervous, along with the case of the butterflies, and well just weird feelings all over.

i go back to work today, had a good time off.

ugh i dont want to though.. but i know i have to if i want to continue buying things.
 
SideOrderOfOpiates said:
Burdensome, detached, foolish fucking 22 year old 'girl' who will never live up to her potential because she's a confused fucking idiot, ect. Back to the cutting board again.
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Sorry your feeling oppressed and confused hun. :( You're certainly not a 'fucking idiot', or any kind of idiot for that matter, I have wonderful taste when it comes to people I know here in BL! heh ;) So less of the judgement on you and your free Spirit, sweet one.<3

...And heres a little something on Potential, for healthy, Bowel movements and Giggles. ;)



ATM: Irk'd but Relieved to have gotten to the route of the problem.

Angry at an Inadequate Councelling service and told them as such(with less anger)...I can watch Dr Phil if I fucking need that level of help- go fornicate yourself with your patronising Blullshit, if the resources arent at your Disposal, just tell me, have no problem with that but quit pissing on my head and telling me its raining!
 
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strange.

With every single thing I look at in my house, my eyes widen and I am left feeling confused, inspired and depressed in each instance. It's as if I'm looking at something I've not seen before ...strange.
 
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