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How are you in one word v. Pedalling through the dark currents

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well to be honest with u im a little scared

theres some bad fucking weather about to hit here in AL, ever since of being in a tornado as a kid shits freaked me out.
 
happy

I saw my PO today and since I have been pissing clean and out of trouble for 6 months (as well as becoming a full time student) he is letting me report by phone rather then having to come see him every couple weeks. this makes my life a lot easier..

I can't wait till I'm off paper.. knowing I'll get sent to prison for a few years if I fuck up is good motivation to keep my nose clean though.

I worked last summer in a peach packing house (my area harvests over 20,000 tons every season) and they sent me a letter asking if I wanted to do it again this season. I'm probably going to do it.. the pay isn't good but it will definitely get me back into shape.. plus free peaches! I've also noticed my insomnia isn't near as bad after a day of physical labor.
 
Mood as of n o w: Reinforced.
Seven days of rebirth with a side order of sobriety!
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stressed

this morning i thought the old dogs and i were off to see the wizard for sure. around 6 a.m. it got pretty wild outside and i heard the train sound people hear before a tornado slams into them. the old dogs and i hid in the closet for about 30 minutes.
and my oldest dog, the special one who owns my heart, isn't doing too well. i can't even think about her not being with me.

i hate time, how fast it ticks away, how there is never enough, how relentlessly it marches on, how it takes away what we love, and how it never never heals anything no matter what people say.
-izzy
 
Wonderful. Either my SAD or bipolar (don't think either is mutually exclusive) has lifted and I feel GREAT!
 
OverDone said:
sleepless
feeling violent again. stupid shit from work is coming to a head and I gotta confront two different assholes concerning two different issues. I can't sleep because I'm so fucking infuriated and I keep playing out different scenarios in my head

Fucking ridiculous actually. Its a goddamm pizza shop. Insignificant and temporary. This fucking pride of mine is fucking stupid but I can't let this shit slide and I'm in no mood lately for bullshit
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Ick! Hate those situations...your a clever guy, use it to deal with it pet!
Assholes are best dealt with by taking the mindful upperhand. They cant touch ya.

Look after that heart of yours and dont let it blow up your peace of mind. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for. <3


zooms said:
Aye I know like. I guess I always knew I'd have to end it, but I was kidding myself. The thought of somebody else with her, touching her and loving her the way I did is harsh. This is the first time anything has truly ever broken me.

Shit happens, I guess.
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Geezus, my heart goes out to ya man...went through something; a little similar but not quite of the same vein, in recent times. Be strong for yourself, dont torture yourself with what you are not responsible for. <3<3<3

stellablue said:
Exhausted but insomnia is kicking my butt.
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Fuck:p... I hear this doll!


SideOrderOfOpiates said:
Mood as of n o w: Reinforced.
Seven days of rebirth with a side order of sobriety!
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;)<3

LEG: Family......:p:!

Ocean: Good luck with job hun!;)<3

ooh Ixchellian is back! :D

ATM:Exhausted
Laptop is back and running, thanks to the kindly antics of the sweetly grinning comp- tech, from Nigeria(who's name I cant pronounce 8)).
I missed BL. :)
Glad
 
zooms said:
Aye I know like. I guess I always knew I'd have to end it, but I was kidding myself. The thought of somebody else with her, touching her and loving her the way I did is harsh. This is the first time anything has truly ever broken me.

Shit happens, I guess.
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You can't think that way though. She's pretty much already gone, and if she meets someone else, its not going to be the person you loved that they're with. It's her shell.
 
Ugh...heartburn (if it is in the 'acidy' literal sense! ...again, ugh! Gaviscone! :)


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ha ha ya dirty, tinkerish ego booster! Shucks Galore!;):o:p:o
Thanks my pet, your too kind altogether! <3<3
(Sorry about the abundance of Colloquialism's, comes out sometimes!)

Enough about that shit...how'd work related stuff go for ya???
 
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