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^Indeed. I admit that I've got things in order but I also recognize that the opportunities I've had and taken advantage of are by no means available to everyone, and it is an occasional source of consternation in my life and why I try and approach my dealings with all other people in an understanding and patient manner. Furthermore when it comes to addiction I am just lucky that it really hasn't ever hit me. Maybe it's because I try and appreciate bad feelings as part of the human experience and when I feel really upset I embrace the feeling and analyze it as opposed to attempt to escape it? Who the hell really knows though haha. Maybe I'm just a psychopath who happens to be able to feel just the good emotions ;)

I find addiction such an interesting subject as it is such illogical behaviour. Not that humans are inherently logical beings of course, but you think they would be able to break the viscous circle if they just managed to look at it from an objective point of view. Yet clearly it's not that easy, and I try and understand why and know that it has to do with reward systems in the brain and such but having not experienced it I can't comprehend it which makes it so fascinating. I mean people get just as addicted to eating too much food as powerful drugs. Even fucking children who should be as happy as clams for gods sake.

I'm reminded of a show I saw on TV a few years ago of a guy who weighed 500 lbs, worked hard for 2 years and got down to his goal weight of 200, celebrated that night by having a cheeseburger, and a year later weighed 600lbs. I honestly don't understand :S

Anyways it seems to me gavtron@oz, that you have a pretty good understanding of where you are in life, where you want to be, and what it will take to get there. That's a lot more than most people can say and that's a good thing :). The Dark Side is a great place for support on dealing with monkeys and HL is always nice if you want to talk about the joys of eating Bananas.

Haha see you round!
 
I'm from near that Bunbury part of WA. Used to always get teased by my NSW mates that we were all country bogans who knew everyone else in the state, which I guess is half true.

My choice of poison? Well opiates are my poison, but I don't know how much 'choice' I have in that regard. Most of the time I'm ok with that, trying really hard to cut down on my use now before I start doing irreversible damage to my life. Dabbled for awhile in stimulants, not a big fan, learning about their neuro-damaging properties may have had something to do with that; I'm interested in psychedelics but I haven't had much experience in that area.

Oh amapola I have to say I really admire your reasons to join and help out on bluelight.
 
hello again. Good to hear back from u both.keep posting cos its helping me alot in tryig to go straite edge,or at least take control of things.how old uu fellas and what u work as( amapola and oxycondone) ? I never thought there would b a big market in bunbury in opiates? Then again w all the mining dollars getting around the supply follows the money..u mea prescription opiates or hammer.???your doing well mate to keep that in moderation..
 
Well if it's helping you stay straight...

I have a bachelors in chemical engineering (environmental stream). I'd love to do some real design but currently work out of field as "a scientist guy" in the green department of big business. It's all about making the public and the governments happy about how sustainable a project is and I get to help convince them haha. I just turned 25 and probably should be in a 3rd world country setting up irrigation systems in fields or working for Green Peace trying to save the world but the pay just wasn't good enough ;)

Keep up the good work mate! Posting on Bluelight is a great distraction and helping others in the same position of you is a great way of indirecting addressing your own issues. There's nothing like talking to and striving to be like people who have gotten through addiction as well as helping those who are worse off and feeling lucky you haven't slipped that far yet and building your resolve not to. Stay strong!
 
ive just come home from first session of drug counselling.not sure if i can completely kick it,but just need bit of a hand to get out of this ruff im in.see what the crazy canadian fiance says?? Hopefully we can come to a compromise...shes fed up with my hooligan ays.i can think of alot of other fields u could utilise your cheical engineering expertees..i guess you know all to well what goes into backyard stimulants hence the opiate appetite..cheers mate.u seem to be a genuine person.keep at it.u get into the weed over there? When i went to toronto i hooked up some organic indoor..the source could see thati was somewhat disappointed by its apearance and asked what i get back home? So i told him of the hectic crio vac sealed bricks we get from south oz that looks like it comes from a lab not a grow room.he giggled and said try this.3 -4 hits later i almost had a panic attack.u cannuks grow some fine cheeba
 
Yeah I'm not the biggest fan but if friends want to smoke up then I'm down. We've got a Federal election coming up in May though and if the conservatives win a majority say goodbye to any chance of a turn around in the MJ laws for at least a decade or so. I mean they've been stuck down by the courts as unconstitutional already and medical marijuana has a 6 moth backlog or something to get your license at the moment. Still we can always drown our sorrows in criminalized marijuana haha.
 
i thought personal amount posession is often over seen by our friends in blue in canadia( id better clear up that i know its canada,its just another aussie thing we say to take the piss-just incase u think im a half wit) ill have to put up a translation guide for the slang we use...
 
I just assume all Aussies can't spell because they can't speak ;)

The cops are pretty lenient yeah and I've had dealings with them before where they've been more then friendly. Still it's not like they are kind to a rule and if you ever catch one on a bad day they can still cause a lot of shit for you. The Harper government has been talking about raising minimum sentences for drug laws as well.

What's the weed situation down under?
 
the laws vary state to state.south oz u can have 3 or 5 plants up to 3 feet outdoors,same as the australian capital territory i think ( dont quote me on these) and the rest of us just get punished.thats why alot good smoke comes from south oz.even small indoor ops get a slap on the wrist and all grow equipment confiscated. How can u have the ontario seed bank on lakeshore blvd and shops like that if still not decriminalised??
 
WA it's 2 plants and small amounts of possession are decriminalised, still get a $200 fine or so like public urinating or street drinking but no criminal record.

We were playing 'i have never ever' (a drinking truth game) the topic of illegal drugs came up the other day and a straight edge female friend asked if the marijuana was illegal. That's how casual it has become around here.

And yeh you're totally on the ball gravatron with the opiate market, most of my mates and dealers I know don't even know what any opiate besides heroin is. I go through he legal route to get them. Oh btw I forgot Ketamine is pretty big over here, I have heard that's not that common in most places.

I miss chilling on weed, but once you touch oxy/morph/fent/H ect I find I can't even feel anything from weed anymore. It's a damn shame. 1 thing I've always wanted to do is good MDMA but that seems to be really hard to get around here anymore (most of the time it's just meth).


Edit - I posted a bit more about me and what I do but then realised it makes me a bit to identifiable to anyone so inclined, and I can't afford that in my position. I will be able to PM soon (3 posts to go) so I'll let you know then if you're interested.
 
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gavatron@oz said:
yep that sounds like surfers paradise..would spend 4-5nights there a week when i could back up big night after big night.getting old now,takes 3 days to come good.guess the quality of pills has changed alot.bumbury ay? Reminds me oe a rodney rude stand up comedy joke.pending how old u are whether u know that one.cheers for the welcome mate
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Yeh mate i fucking love rodney!!! my old man cooked him dinner (hes a chef) n had a good yarn with him lol n my mates dad went to school with him :D yup shame about the pills but yer the will pick back up one just hope its not when im like 80 n too fucked up to handle MDMA.....im 19 in october btw :D..........if ya have any problems or wanna know anything please feel more than free to PM me
 
Yay I'm now a bluelighter and can PM :)

Wow and gavatron to think you joined just the other day and you're already over half way! BTW is your username reference to the ride they have at shows? That was one of my favourites when I was younger and used to go, running around upside down and shit.
 
Re: MJ in Ontario.

They can sell marijuana seeds, although technically illegal, without interference as well as offer services such as "Compassion Centers" because the Ontario Provincial Courts have stuck down federal marijuana laws as unconstitutionally due to lack of an exemption for Medical Uses. There is a federal program but it's a difference between law vs policy and availability vs supply or something I don't know the details.
 
yeah oxycodone k is hard to find,but god bless friendly vets.lol.fuck amapolan ur a knowledgeable lad,im gonna do some reading and find out some questions that'll get u thinking,u make me feel like ive waisted my adolescence on benders and coming down.feel free to pm me anyone,i just gotta get my numbers up to msg back.if a bluelighter from the goldy's out there called xtc post on here mate.keen to get to know u.
 
to oxy

to oxycondone... Think that rides the vomitron,where it spins hell fast and u can get upside down cos u vacuumed to wall.gavatron is a nickname i got when in my hay day.its half my name and half that of the ride.cos i spin real fast and get loose,ha ha.whats going on in ur travels today,
 
I'm at a cross roads. I want to get off daily oxy to lower tolerance so I can have fun with it again and not rely on it. However I can never find a good time to do it. I start going into withdrawals the I realise I am running an event and having people relying on me or am taking photos for a client or meeting with kevin rudd (that is literally the stuff I have done this week mon-now), so there is never time to go through withdraws so I keep using! It's friken annoying.
 
ah oxycondone it sounds to me like ur still a well to do member of society,a functioning opiate dependant,quite often for me and my dependancy its more so the negativity and stigma that surrounds my addiction that bring me down and makes me want to quit,not the fact that its affecting my daily life...on the other hand people are starting to notice changes in my attitude ( and appearance )and also my day to day behaviour. But the fact that im still functioning through life makes me justify what i am doing to myself.moderations hard once u loose the ability to deal w the problems that day to day life throws at u.my minds natural reward system is rarely satisfied with the joys that life has to offer! That'll b the hardest to get back.my situation differs from yours im sure.it just feels good to vent and perhaps someone(maybe not u ) can relate or learn from this.or even better give advice or input of there owm story/struggles. Im rambling on burning the midnight oil again. Tel k rudd he looks like a south park character.take care,and post back.chin up,ur not a bad person.why dont u try a holiday from work.ease the tension and pressure.enjoy mate
 
But the fact that im still functioning through life makes me justify what i am doing to myself.moderations hard once u loose the ability to deal w the problems that day to day life throws at u.my minds natural reward system is rarely satisfied with the joys that life has to offer! That'll b the hardest to get back.my situation differs from yours im sure.it just feels good to vent and perhaps someone(maybe not u ) can relate or learn from this.or even better give advice or input of there owm story/struggles.
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Regarding this type of material The Dark Side is an excellent place to post in. So long as you leave out the drug talk that could be damaging to other member's own recovery it's all about sharing stories of struggles with addiction and supporting one another through whatever stage of recovery, or lack there of, they happen to be going through.

You are correct that it's hard to justify quitting when you are still getting along okay, but the only alternatives I see are waiting until everything blows up in your face or continue using indefinitely. Both options which you don't seem happy with. The negative stigma is indeed an unfortunate aspect but I think every user knows deep inside whether their habit is actually a personal problem that needs to be dealt with or just looked down upon by society. Even though alcohol is fully tolerated by society some people can use it in a recreational and healthy manner and some can't.

Anyways even though you are still a Greenlighter you are able to PM me as I'm a moderator over in Other Drugs.

See you round.
 
junkie skumbag said:
Yeh mate i fucking love rodney!!! my old man cooked him dinner (hes a chef) n had a good yarn with him lol n my mates dad went to school with him :D yup shame about the pills but yer the will pick back up one just hope its not when im like 80 n too fucked up to handle MDMA.....im 19 in october btw :D..........if ya have any problems or wanna know anything please feel more than free to PM me
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faaark u youngs blokes make me feel like a dinosaur..im 28! I saw rodney live a few years back,my mate was blind and yelling shit out and rodney tore him apart.told my mate he looked familiar and he think he might of fuck his mum in the 80's.needless to say my mate settled right down.cant pm yet but getting there.
 
Yeh moderation is the key. I think now that you have noticed your appearance and attitudes changing gavatron you should make a big effort to moderate your intake, which is always easier said than done.

As my tolerance to opiates has grown I have noticed things in life which used to produce an endorphin rush and make me happy no longer really do (exercising, my girlfriend, other friends, going to the beach, ect). I have become apathetic and I hate it. When I started doing opiates the only negative side effects I read about was constipation (which I don't get) and addiction (which I though was just the cravings), I had no idea it would build a tolerance within to natural fun and happiness. Anyway today I start cutting down. Off morphine and oxy and onto codeine, then I'll get off that as well.

I'm excited for the future. Thanks for the push gavatron, I've been meaning to do this for awhile.
 
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