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MDMA Abuse Recovery stories

^ This.

Lmao, but honestly I try not to abuse any drug. Well...except maybe weed because that IS the only thing I can do on a daily basis with no repercussions.
 
I was eating/snorting them daily for like 2 months rolled alot before that just not everyday

Made myself stop, I was just in college and bored and have always loved x despite being aware of the many other options out there

Went through 2 months of slightly lowered mood. I got through it, last month I have ketamine :) bounced back feel healthy, doing yoga running sleeping better feel the fittest ive ever been. Theres hope guise, I have just recently turned 19, am feeling the best I've ever felt.
 
MasterSplinter said:
aint no stories for success after hard abusin round here on bluelight
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How is this going to help anyone? I have read (no i will not find them for you..) threads and posts on here on how people have recovered (is that not a recovery story?) from MDMA abuse and how they made it through it (what steps they took) and how they are doing much better.
 
man i went crazy on mdma in my late teens and early 20s and my brain was so fried i though id never achieve anything. 10 years later (now) im half way through a university degree so it appears my brain is stil intact. also, i get amazing grades at uni.
 
Anyone worried about a phase of abuse, and feeling like the drug is causing issues?

Best thing is to abstain for a while (say 6 months to a year), then reduce the frequency of dosage massively.

MDMA is a relatively safe drug in moderation, but it is one of those that will kick you in the ass if you abuse it. I was doing 20 odd pills a week for a while several years back, and it was not pleasant. Fortunately I realised it was causing me issues, and dropped both the dosage and frequency of dosage significantly, and haven't really had any issues since (well apart from the first 6 months or so after cutting the dosage levels down). I now do it on occasion (max 2-3 pills a night, every couple or so weeks) and find I get close to no comedown (though is massively dependent on how stressed I feel it seems).

Time (in abstinence) is the best healer for MDMA related depression; it tends to be pretty sharp and severe when it occurs, but fairly self-limiting it seems, resolving after a few months to perhaps a year. That was certainly my experience with it anyway, though everyone is different.

To add to the point above: I wouldn't like to think of the number of doses of MDMA I have taken over my lifetime (Its something in the 4 figures I guess, not good, or recommended), but I am still performing well on technically challenging degrees and am most the way through an MSc. My memory seems to be fine, and am as academically able as I was before I took my first pill. It seems any MDMA related cognitive impairment may be transient, rather than permanent. Again though, I can only speak from my own experience here.
 
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once a month and you should be fine, whenever you realize, you'll be kind of old (30's, im 31 by the way) the rave feeling will go away, you will have too much other shit on your mind, you will start caring more about your health, and rolling every 2 months wont be soooo hard as it could be now (If someone told me that I had to roll every 2 months a couple of years ago, I would've gone, YEAH RIIIGHT!!!) Keep it safe, keep it fun. This is a wonderful drug that can be for a long time and not fuck your life up (like coke, meth or some other shit)... you abuse of it, and you wont be having a nice time (at least not on week days)...
 
im 20 and ill roll maybe once a year so it is amazing everytime
 
I went through a honeymoon phase with MDMA that lasted about 6 months of almost weekly usage. At the end of that 6 months, I had random anxiety attacks, severe mood dips, and all sorts of physical ailments.

After taking a 4 month break (which sounded like forever at the time), I was much better, and could enjoy MDMA again, but not completely. It took some careful spacing (always paying attention to the 30 day rule), but eventually my anxiety vanished, and so did all those other effects. I now enjoy MDMA as much as I did in the beginning.

I've said it multiple times in this forum, but even after experiencing the "dark side" of MDMA, I still consider it to be something that has made me a better, more loving, and more emotionally available person. I am completely happy it came into my life, and even if I were to choose to stop using it (which, right now I don't), I would always look at MDMA as something wonderful.
 
I have to find it before I can merge it.
I just don't remember what it was called.
 
I once took a lot of MDMA. I had a nasty hangover, I rested and took vitamins and fully recovered!

You were looking for ammunition for retarded theories, I'm sure one or two people would be glad to blame all their problems on MDMA.
 
I went through a phase at uni of doing it once or twice a week. It was difficult to turn it down at parties. I didn't notice too many negative effects, although I did lose a bit of weight.

I went through a phase of doing mephedrone 2 or 3 times a week and that really messed me up, heart beat all over the place.
 
I went through lots of periods of heavy use and as wrecked as you feel from it, after enough time passes you do eventually feel normal again.
 
I think you guys are lookin for my old thread, it was bumped here a few days ago so I deleted it, figured I've got enough out there eh?
Anywhom, I made significant recovery since the beginning of my symptoms, still no where near there yet. Stupid relapsed two nights ago and took 2 pills on ssris, bad roll never got shyt.

I did learn a few things during the so called "roll" it made my problem increasing clear, I'm too spaced out in analyzing my own mood and thoughts, therefore propetily neglecting much of the social cues happening around me, as well as not "exercising my mind" on anything but what I'm experiencing. Which is the actual catch 22 of this whole phenomenon, the brain rewires itself with every new activity you do or practice, and "pruns" the unused connections to make room for the over used one, so in a way it "infects" you mind, and thr longer you go thinking/analyzing the worse it gets.

Strange to relise this while I fucked up and rolled again, but maybe it'll help me? Point being, prun your negative thouht pattern concerning what youve done and give your brain "room" and effort needed to structure itself around your life and what you should accomplish, and fight off that negative circle, itll be really hard at first, but it expoentitates with time as you weaken the connections, they become harder to use therefore becoming easier to avoid. It'll be hard at first, but with time it should pay off. Basically your brain isn't "interested" in reality in a sense, only your current mind set, you wernt like that before were you? So as we know, when it comes to cognitive abilities, they only "work" on things that consume our current interest, which is nothing but how were feeling and analyzing the before compared to after, because your so "interested/desperate" to get back. When in reality this is the EXACT style of thinking that makes you worse, get my drift ?

Well anyways, that's the epiphany I reached two nights ago on my roll, strangely enough. So I hope that makes sense/helps.

My two cents, I'm gunna start practicing my gospel, peaceeeeee.

Btw at night write a detailed daily journal of your day with every detail you can remember and read out loud , this both help alot, along with intense exercise (cardio).

Hope it helps if you follow what I'm saying, saturatedlies.

Hows your recovery going man?
 
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