I am so hurt and angry writing this but I just found out the day after my birthday that my boyfriend cheated on me with 3 different girls. I am very upset and confused....i don't know what to do. I broke up with him yesterday but I want to take him back soooo bad. This pain is overwhelming. We have been dating for only 3 months but I've been hanging out with him almost everyday for the past 6 months so we became good close friends before we started a relationship. I just turned 20 a few days ago and my now ex-boyfriend is 19.
So to make this long story short, he confessed to me over the phone crying that he cheated on me with a really unattractive woman while he was drunk. I am told by many people that I am really pretty girl so it made me wonder why he did this with not just one but 3 very ugly disgusting girls. He told me that he was really drunk and that they went to the girl's car and she gave him a blowjob. I was torn and full of anger so I broke up with him. He has been crying for the past few days, saying that he can't eat or sleep because he knew I was going to break up with him and that he feels guilty because he was losing the best girlfriend he's ever had and that he cares about me a lot. So a few hours later I'm with my boyfriend's best friend who also my best friend and he tells me that he also cheated on me with a 15 year old probably over 200 lbs chubby girl. He had sex with her while he was drunk. So I came over my ex-bfs and confronted him, he was sitting on a chair outside his porch with a hoodie over his head crying. I kept asking him and crying "why?????" and he said i don't know, i really fucked up, i regret it so much. He said he feels like shit, and he's embarrassed because now he's known as a cheater and he cheated on me with very unattractive girls. I knew about the chubby girl but I never doubted his word when people told me that he had sex with her. He denied it and said he would never be able to have sex with her drunk or not, it's just too disgusting...he couldn't live with himself.
Well now that the truth is out, I told him to tell me everything...to stop keeping secrets. He told me that one night he slept over his friend's sarah's house with his best friend because they live about an hour away from their home. I was fully aware that he was over there and sleeping over and because he's known sarah for over 2 years and he dated her best friend for a year and I know sarah. I thought it was okay and I was away from home at the time for about 4 days. He told me that he was on her bed with her and she gave him a handjob when they were all under the influence of ecstasy. He told me he never kissed her or anything, it was strictly her hand on his penis.
I was shocked by everything I found out about him. He treated me like a princess while we were dating and I never ever questioned his infidelity. He told me that i'm the first girlfriend he's ever cheated on and that he regrets it and the he doesn't expect me to forgive him because he knows how bad he's hurt me. He kept apologizing but he told me that he's not asking for forgiveness because he knows he deserves it and that I deserve the best. That he stills cares about me and likes me a lot but he feels guilty for putting me through this. I would have never EVER thought he was cheating on me, my friends loved him as my boyfriend. He told me that he's the best girlfriend he's ever had and I'm angry because he just threw this all away. He told me that he would never cheat on me again and that he's learned his lesson.
The thing is I want him back really bad and I know things will never be the same and I will always have trust issues with him but I will work past that as long as I get to be with him. I'm crazy about him and he was such a great boyfriend to me, we never got into arguments and always had fun and appreciated each other while we were together. Some of his friends called him "whipped" and told me that he seemed like he would do anything for me. He doesn't seem like the cheating type at all, he's not even all that attractive but I can't help feeling destroyed because of this. I had many chances to cheat on my boyfriend but never did, a lot of guys find me really attractive but i don't really care that much about looks anymore. I thought we had the perfect relationship. I don't know if I should take him back or not, I need help. Please help me
So to make this long story short, he confessed to me over the phone crying that he cheated on me with a really unattractive woman while he was drunk. I am told by many people that I am really pretty girl so it made me wonder why he did this with not just one but 3 very ugly disgusting girls. He told me that he was really drunk and that they went to the girl's car and she gave him a blowjob. I was torn and full of anger so I broke up with him. He has been crying for the past few days, saying that he can't eat or sleep because he knew I was going to break up with him and that he feels guilty because he was losing the best girlfriend he's ever had and that he cares about me a lot. So a few hours later I'm with my boyfriend's best friend who also my best friend and he tells me that he also cheated on me with a 15 year old probably over 200 lbs chubby girl. He had sex with her while he was drunk. So I came over my ex-bfs and confronted him, he was sitting on a chair outside his porch with a hoodie over his head crying. I kept asking him and crying "why?????" and he said i don't know, i really fucked up, i regret it so much. He said he feels like shit, and he's embarrassed because now he's known as a cheater and he cheated on me with very unattractive girls. I knew about the chubby girl but I never doubted his word when people told me that he had sex with her. He denied it and said he would never be able to have sex with her drunk or not, it's just too disgusting...he couldn't live with himself.
Well now that the truth is out, I told him to tell me everything...to stop keeping secrets. He told me that one night he slept over his friend's sarah's house with his best friend because they live about an hour away from their home. I was fully aware that he was over there and sleeping over and because he's known sarah for over 2 years and he dated her best friend for a year and I know sarah. I thought it was okay and I was away from home at the time for about 4 days. He told me that he was on her bed with her and she gave him a handjob when they were all under the influence of ecstasy. He told me he never kissed her or anything, it was strictly her hand on his penis.
I was shocked by everything I found out about him. He treated me like a princess while we were dating and I never ever questioned his infidelity. He told me that i'm the first girlfriend he's ever cheated on and that he regrets it and the he doesn't expect me to forgive him because he knows how bad he's hurt me. He kept apologizing but he told me that he's not asking for forgiveness because he knows he deserves it and that I deserve the best. That he stills cares about me and likes me a lot but he feels guilty for putting me through this. I would have never EVER thought he was cheating on me, my friends loved him as my boyfriend. He told me that he's the best girlfriend he's ever had and I'm angry because he just threw this all away. He told me that he would never cheat on me again and that he's learned his lesson.
The thing is I want him back really bad and I know things will never be the same and I will always have trust issues with him but I will work past that as long as I get to be with him. I'm crazy about him and he was such a great boyfriend to me, we never got into arguments and always had fun and appreciated each other while we were together. Some of his friends called him "whipped" and told me that he seemed like he would do anything for me. He doesn't seem like the cheating type at all, he's not even all that attractive but I can't help feeling destroyed because of this. I had many chances to cheat on my boyfriend but never did, a lot of guys find me really attractive but i don't really care that much about looks anymore. I thought we had the perfect relationship. I don't know if I should take him back or not, I need help. Please help me
