Ive struggled all my life with this,
Firstly with strong LSD and cannabis together, that propelled me into another dimension for 8 hours, which would of been wonderful if not for the very painful heart beating out of my chest.
another with datura and for 3 days, and another with dxm and cannabis but ended with xanax.
Each time i go there, into this world, it is terrifying, but a little easier each time. but i continue to go there, trying to find out what it is thats so scary yet so enticing. each time i cant see how i can see life in the same way again. the trips are so profound.
it became an obcession when pure dxm powder was easily availiable to all about 7 years ago, and i tripped daily between one and 2 grams a day, with lecithin to keep the brain going, for about 18 months. i know because i have 5 empty 100gram bottles and 4 50's left over.
it all ended about 6 months ago when i was tripping one night watching tv and said to myself, this isnt right. the damage isnt worth it just to see some patterns in my head if i squint hard enough. let alone the anxiety and seemingly i developed a fear of death, and the afterlife and Hell, as this had been where most of my trips had been taking me when they went wrong. (im a regular churchgoer, just a regular christian)
to me, tripping that hard gives me a taste of that theres more to this life than meets the eye. that there must be parallel universes and afterlifes, and angels and demons. it may all be bullshit in my head but seeing it for real makes its that much easier to believe in.
does anyone else get me here? if you do PM me. thats all,
fluxy
Firstly with strong LSD and cannabis together, that propelled me into another dimension for 8 hours, which would of been wonderful if not for the very painful heart beating out of my chest.
another with datura and for 3 days, and another with dxm and cannabis but ended with xanax.
Each time i go there, into this world, it is terrifying, but a little easier each time. but i continue to go there, trying to find out what it is thats so scary yet so enticing. each time i cant see how i can see life in the same way again. the trips are so profound.
it became an obcession when pure dxm powder was easily availiable to all about 7 years ago, and i tripped daily between one and 2 grams a day, with lecithin to keep the brain going, for about 18 months. i know because i have 5 empty 100gram bottles and 4 50's left over.
it all ended about 6 months ago when i was tripping one night watching tv and said to myself, this isnt right. the damage isnt worth it just to see some patterns in my head if i squint hard enough. let alone the anxiety and seemingly i developed a fear of death, and the afterlife and Hell, as this had been where most of my trips had been taking me when they went wrong. (im a regular churchgoer, just a regular christian)
to me, tripping that hard gives me a taste of that theres more to this life than meets the eye. that there must be parallel universes and afterlifes, and angels and demons. it may all be bullshit in my head but seeing it for real makes its that much easier to believe in.
does anyone else get me here? if you do PM me. thats all,
fluxy

