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Random MSN Gibberings LIV: teh polis are watching us!

Funny, the man yells at me incessantly for tab browsing. C'mon! Tab browsing FTW! I have a ton open all the time and that by the way is totally sober!
 
Oh fuck yeah, huuuge fan of the tabs. The trouble is, I end up with 12-14 open and kind of go to new addresses in some but keep a couple 'sacred' for up to a day because they're something I noticed earlier which was important. Then at the end of the night I close the tabs one by one, find these pages I preserved and wonder just what the fuck I was doing looking at them in the first place.
 
I do that too, Codders. My 'puter desktop tends to be just as messy as the actual desktop it sits upon :\

Afternoon, all :)

Felt like crap all day so far due to a combination of hangover (blimey that Bacardi crap leaves a beast behind 8o) having no codeine left and also running low on tramadol so having to taper again. I really hope me drug counsellor does manage to get my treatment transferred to a proper pain clinic cos I am bloody sick of all this up and down, boom and bust, half-arsed near uselessness of my current treatment. Docs really, really, really don't like crossing the invisible line between codeine/DHC/tramadol level painkillers and morphine/bupe type level painkillers. It's like it personally offends them or summat 8)
 
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dunno were this rightly lives, but if anyone is following the protests in the ME, here's a really good link of reports from Libya, that's really on media lockdown so relying on twitter/fb stuff for info. Useful link.
 
having a nice cold stella, chilling now from the md, really pleasent, listening to some nice chill out tunes.

shame i smoked the last weed spliff
 
Lost the wii remote trippin on 150mg bomb of the beeees =D Mate rolling around the floor laughing and green diamonds trying to eat my eyebrows......Gooood tiiiiimes!!!! <3

Feel a bit like a wood wasp lost in the jungle.......
 
Woke up feeling like shit.

Took a nap woke up So incredibly aggro it was unreal

Did the green thing and made a dinnner out of a couple of nights left overs. Still got more and more angry.

The man bought me a bottle of red and I took a blue. Those things must be strong. I'm so happy and in some sort of cotton fluffy place with plush pillows and lots of cuddles.

Eeeeee heee hee. No more angry Sadie. That took a total of 20 minutes too. What a difference a blue makes eh? Too bad I can't get them on script as I'm not one to find the enjoyment in blues either but sometimes. They make all the difference in the world when you most need them.


Oh, and I think my blood sugar was quite low as I'm chomping boiled pear drops like they're going out of style. I don't usually take a notion for those either.


Hello EADD. I've missed you guys. Hope all is well.


PLUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
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I don't often take a blue so I've got a few to hand. My anxiety is so through the roof. I've been teary all day. Not cool for me.

But you know where to find me should you find yourself in desperation.

Lets face it. My own good doc only scribes them when I get really upset ( the once so far ) but they offer nothing in the way of helping people with anxiety except CBT. The waiting list is so damn long and lets face it. Some blows come harder than others and no amount of CBT is gonna help that.


A once in a blue moon night of me having a blue. It's really helped.


Well kinda until you realise someone takes it upon themselves to make fun of the situation. I'm gonna shake it off and go grab some cuddles from the man and a duvet to cosy us up. Could use a really nice cuddle just now.
 
Think you may have misinterpreted a certain post from a certain person but really couldn't say so will leave it at that...

Sadly I "donated" my diaz script to someone else this month and my temazi script has been cut by 25% so ran out ages ago. Ah well. Script day this week. Woot!

Enjoy cuddles, m'dear <3
 
Oh dear Sadie, glad you're feeling a bit more "comforted" <3

Long as you don't turn into Spade Mrk2! 8o...and start making travel arrangements to discover Milngavie ;)

Evening EADD.

Had a decent day myself on my own - long walk on a wind swept beach (pure dead chanking but stunning), tidied my garden up filled up the brown bin with leaves and drafted up a plan for my garden this year.

All very good, contemplative n' mindful stuff :D

ps: CBT is worth persevering with when you can get it, it's made a massive difference to me and halted those damn downward spirals!
 
Unfortunately, CBT is only of any use if the person you see is any good at it, I suspect. Have seen a number of people for CBT treatment and found it useless and strongly suspect that was probably down to the fact that most CPNs and the like are either totally snowed-under with excessive workloads and are just going through the motions or don't believe a word they say themselves cos they're shit at the job. Shame cos I hear so many good things about it :\

But definitely worth persevering cos it really does seem to work wonders for many under the right circumstances :)
 
Yeah Kate, I'm still on the list. Seems I'm always the donkey carrying the burden. ( Dude, how cliche does that sound?)

I'm usually a pretty sound rock and help others through some pretty bad times but I guess we can't all be superman to everyone.


I'm being forcefed a bit of green. Then off to bed for me. I think Sleep cures a lot of ills and usually makes the next day so much more clear. A bit easier to deal with.


So many people have their problems. They range from their dad drinking their last beer out of a kitchen that doesnt belong to them nor was the beer bought for them. To those who have bills, Looking after loved ones, Taking care of daily life worrying about one day to the next.

Sure it's not the end of the world but hopefully, thanks to some really nice support on here, I'll have a good rest, wake up with a cuppa and see the day as a new day. Ready to take on the bad things that befall us all and protect the rest.

I'm not usually this weak minded. I guess somethings have a way of getting on top momentarily.

Thanks again Kate and Shammy. You don't know how much I needed that. Virtual cuddles suck compared to real life but they mean the world when their given.
 
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