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What's the worst thing you've done to get drug money?

climbed in a 2 story window one night drunk and on ket to my dealers house, got into his room and took 20 valiums(out of a bag of ~400). whenever i go to that house now i look at how very sketchy what i did was, i have no idea how i didnt fall i wouldnt even risk it sober.
ket makes me do dumb shit, i still love it=D
 
sucked cock for crack. I really didn't have to, he was giving it to me anyway, but i was 17 and didn't want to sleep with the guy so thought this was a lesser evil.

also transferred money into my account from my b/f's mother's account. she had a business running in our house and the eftpos machine was there so i swiped my card and hit refund $90. i then scaled her mail for the next few months and made sure I took any bank statements. no one ever found out about that.
 
I beat up an old lady, stole her wheelchair and sold it for crack. Haha I'm only joking I've never really done anything bad to get a drug.
 
Nothing worse than most. Stealing a lot of money and pills from anyone who had either.
 
Ok here's desperation I wanted an earl refill of sonata so I bought a cheap one way ticket to boston took it in to the pharamacist so he could see clearly that I was leaving town and I was supposed to get 180 10mg but they only gave me 90 I didn't press my luck so hopefully the rest will be in thurs
 
I've stolen before for drugs, never a good feeling. During a raging cocaine WD I hatched a plot with some friends. We were gonna go snatch up a hobo, take him to an old abandoned apartment, and cut him down and sell the organs. A few things got in the way though, primarily the fact that none of us could find anyone looking to buy human organs. For the 2-3 days we were WDing though, we were absolutely serious. That was pretty scary in hindsight, how willing we all were to go through with it.
 
the time I felt worst about was during last summer when I was really into e. jacked a middle school kid for money( he gave me money, i said i'd come back with weed, never came back) and spent it on pills.
 
I stole lortabs and morphine from my soon to be ex. At first, he gave them to me, but then I just started stealing them from him. I waited until he was asleep and helped myself to them. He never said anything, as I doubt he cared. Probably hoped I'd overdose and die. But, I still feel like a total asshole about it because a lot of the times I stole the pills, he was dealing with post-op pain and needed them. I'm a selfish bitch... I can definitely admit it now!
 
stole the occasional ambien from my now ex girlfriend when she was asleep and I couldn't fall asleep. I know you can do worse things but I loved that girl more than life and I really regret it now. We used to drink a ton so my judgement was cloudy but fuck I miss her.

maybe the worst thing I did was what I didn't actually do but just thought about doing. I remember I discovered opiates shortly after my grandmother had died, I remember repeatedly thinking to myself that I should have taken some of the pills since they were everywhere when I went to visit her the last few times. It's a horrible thing to think about even though I never did it. fucking opiates!

after my aunt died my family for some reason held on to all the morphine, after a year or so my family was on vacation and I took all the morphine and traded it for adderall. I don't know which I feel worse about, stealing the morphine which they weren't using and hadn't been used, or trading perfectly good morphine for adderall! I was more into uppers at that time. I blame it on my youth.... and stupid addictive personality.
 
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Everyone is throwing themselves a fucking pity-party! What's done is done, and I've learned to accept things the way they are. I've done some not so good things, and I am sure I'll do more. I'd only regret actually harming someone, nothing much else. Maybe I don't have a conscience, but I like to think I am good, kind person at heart. A lot of people are saying they feel terrible about taking meds that weren't likely to be needed, and probably not even used at all. I just think that a lot of people ruminate way too much, and that is unfortunate for them.
 
Alex000 said:
Everyone is throwing themselves a fucking pity-party! What's done is done, and I've learned to accept things the way they are. I've done some not so good things, and I am sure I'll do more. I'd only regret actually harming someone, nothing much else. Maybe I don't have a conscience, but I like to think I am good, kind person at heart. A lot of people are saying they feel terrible about taking meds that weren't likely to be needed, and probably not even used at all. I just think that a lot of people ruminate way too much, and that is unfortunate for them.
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what a vile and complacent outlook
 
I don't think it is "vile" at all. Complacent, maybe a little. I used to worry, ruminate, feel guilty all the fucking time. And it was a bitch to deal with, I was pretty textbook OCD, but I've learned that what's done IS done, and I like who I am just the way I am, and I wouldn't be myself if what did happen didn't. I don't even think about changing the past, because it can't be changed. I feel freed now by letting my feelings of guilt or worry leave, and am glad I don't ruminate so much anymore.

I do have a kind heart, I do. I always try to do what is "right" for everyone involved, but I am self-serving, and I can't deny that. Right and wrong aren't so black and white in a lot of situations. With drugs in the mix even more so, they are muddled. But, we can't, and shouldn't throw pity-parties for ourselves, because we only beat ourselves up, and it is purposeless.

In short, I can't change the past, so I deal with the present, and try to do what is best for all in the future. I am self-serving, like I said, but everyone is to an extent, and it is my life after all, I want to enjoy it.
 
Alex000 said:
Everyone is throwing themselves a fucking pity-party! What's done is done, and I've learned to accept things the way they are. I've done some not so good things, and I am sure I'll do more. I'd only regret actually harming someone, nothing much else. Maybe I don't have a conscience, but I like to think I am good, kind person at heart. A lot of people are saying they feel terrible about taking meds that weren't likely to be needed, and probably not even used at all. I just think that a lot of people ruminate way too much, and that is unfortunate for them.
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i agree with this. the only way id regret it is if i hurt someone. if i took pills that werent being used i wouldnt regret it, but id probably feel a little bad. anyway, i too think im a good person at heart and i know id never hurt anyone to get a fix. the worst ive done was take pills from my grandmother. i monitored them though lol. i waited a week after i found them to see if any had been taken and sure enough, none were. so i pocketed around 10 or so. they were roxis if anyones wondering.
 
Warm'nFuzzy said:
i agree with this. the only way id regret it is if i hurt someone. if i took pills that werent being used i wouldnt regret it, but id probably feel a little bad. anyway, i too think im a good person at heart and i know id never hurt anyone to get a fix. the worst ive done was take pills from my grandmother. i monitored them though lol. i waited a week after i found them to see if any had been taken and sure enough, none were. so i pocketed around 10 or so. they were roxis if anyones wondering.
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If you haven't hurt anyone to get a fix then you have yet to see the worst of your addiction.

If one keeps going down the path one will inevitably cause harm to another to avoid the sickness.

I am a very caring person and even the thought of causing someone harm (physically or emotionally) makes me sick.

But in the worst of my addiction I definitely caused harm. I try not to live in regret but I can't help it sometimes. The sickness makes you do things you would never imagine yourself doing, that is no joke. You lose control of yourself.....I used to think that was just a cop out too.......I was wrong.
 
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