nearjat
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Can't wait for friday! I've got some amazing molly to nom on while I go see Excision 
☮ Social ☮ PD Social: Loquacious Psychedelic Love Lazers
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Bomboclat
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Mmmmmmm molly.
Thanks Llama, it is what it is. Just gotta try to make the best of this crappy situation. At least now most of the bleeding has stopped and the pain is starting to subside! :D
And things seem to be turning around a bit. My 2C's should be here by the weekend, so hopefully if I can clear up my schedule i'll be able to dip into some 2C-D and 2C-C.
Mmm mm good.
I hope everyones day is going well!
Thanks Llama, it is what it is. Just gotta try to make the best of this crappy situation. At least now most of the bleeding has stopped and the pain is starting to subside! :D
And things seem to be turning around a bit. My 2C's should be here by the weekend, so hopefully if I can clear up my schedule i'll be able to dip into some 2C-D and 2C-C.
Mmm mm good.
I hope everyones day is going well!
nearjat
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TheAppleCore
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Helllllll yeah, dude. Keep it up.
LOVING House of Cheese, too!
%) Helllllll yeah, dude. Keep it up.
LOVING House of Cheese, too!
nearjat
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Bomboclat
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nearjat
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HOLY FUCKING SHIT
I really, really like that song.
I'm realizing now how poorly my posts here in the social reflect my mindset lately.
I feel empty, disillusioned, and hopeless.. I don't have faith in anything, everything is so impermanent and it doesn't bring me peace like it used to. I used to say accepting impermanence made me so peaceful but that wasn't true, I was just prescribed to a pretty decent amount of adderall and didn't really feel emotions entirely..
I don't even know what I'm trying to say... I feel broken. I want to see a therapist but don't even know for what! You can give me a million diagnoses, say PTSD or borderline bipolar, but it doesn't help shit. I'm sick of breaking everything in my life down mentally into neurological phenomenon, I want something in my life to be pure. I want something to believe in that isn't a product of drug induced mental masturbation....I'm sick of questioning. It's not fair for myself, definitely not fair for my girlfriend for me to say I love her but occasionally break down in anxiety and stop believing in love...
Why is everything either chaotic or overly-stereotyped to me? Am I just the result of an intellectually curious person facing 18 year old hormones and using drugs since age 12?
ARGH! Sorry just had to let that out...
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Ben So Furry
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Demz raggamuffin's be spreadin' deyhr negative vibes wit deyr rotten style muzik.
Spread love, spread bass, for all deh bwoyz and girlz
BOMBOCLAT, seen?
Mmmmmm piece of hash chocolate and a cup of THC tea.
A nice way to end a not so great day.
Goodnight PD!
That's a tune good sir, lighta lighta
Legerity
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^Haha, nice.
@nearjat: I don't know that much about you but from the posts I've read you seem to be very insightful and to have a good head on your shoulders. I would have thought you are older than 18 had you not mentioned your age. It's good to question things and avoid getting caught up in delusional cultural ideas that are spread around. It comes with anxiety but the payoff is worth it in my opinion. Most people don't have shit figured out and the ones who think they do are often the ones who have not even started to ask questions.
@nearjat: I don't know that much about you but from the posts I've read you seem to be very insightful and to have a good head on your shoulders. I would have thought you are older than 18 had you not mentioned your age. It's good to question things and avoid getting caught up in delusional cultural ideas that are spread around. It comes with anxiety but the payoff is worth it in my opinion. Most people don't have shit figured out and the ones who think they do are often the ones who have not even started to ask questions.
You should REALLY look into yoga and meditation
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Helllllll yeah, dude. Keep it up.
LOVING House of Cheese, too!
Thanks alot dude!
vidaloca
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^ Sounds like fun, if nothing else!
I just spent like three hours trying to solve this "Challenge Problem" in my thermodynamics text, and I finally came up with this ridiculously enormous unsolvable equation, and then I gave up.
undergrad physics shouldn't be so hard.
whats the question
MescalitoBandito
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YES! I finally got my 4-substituted tryptamines!
Now, the pressing question: 4-HO-MET or 4-AcO-DMT? I'm leaning toward MET since I haven't tried it yet, but my last experiments with 4-AcO-DMT were so much fun...what a great problem to have!
Now, the pressing question: 4-HO-MET or 4-AcO-DMT? I'm leaning toward MET since I haven't tried it yet, but my last experiments with 4-AcO-DMT were so much fun...what a great problem to have!
alantis360
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Demz raggamuffin's be spreadin' deyhr negative vibes wit deyr rotten style muzik.
Spread love, spread bass, for all deh bwoyz and girlz
BOMBOCLAT, seen?
Mmmmmm piece of hash chocolate and a cup of THC tea.
A nice way to end a not so great day.
Goodnight PD!
Great song yo, I always like the music you post. I like to listen to some reggae myself sometimes while blowin some trees.
Hey Nearjat keep your head up yo. I am dealing with a lot of the same stuff you describe. Sometimes its even hard to admit that we are struggling with these types of things. Maybe you could try and see someone to talk to like a therapist without the intention of loading up on a bunch of medications. I know thats what I am trying to do currently.
You are very smart though. Just that maybe we are just too smart for our own good sometimes. Hang in there maybe try and sit back and be grateful that you have a nice gf right now and accept that so many things in this world our out of our control and we just don't always know what the future witll bring us.
Another great song Tbird you definitely have some talent there.
:D
helium-4
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Saturday is going to be some fun. :D, I'll be drifting to k-land for at least a portion of my Saturday. Can't wait. I haven't touched a psychedelic drug in a while and after this week of tests I feel like I deserve a nice little shift of reality.
Gonna be reupping on my amps here next week and will be adding a small dose of ketamine 30 minutes before dosing the amps everyday. Seeing if that'll help keep my tolerance low and potentially cuts it back a little bit. Interesting little experiment. I was gonna do it with DXM but my stomach couldn't handle it.
Gonna be reupping on my amps here next week and will be adding a small dose of ketamine 30 minutes before dosing the amps everyday. Seeing if that'll help keep my tolerance low and potentially cuts it back a little bit. Interesting little experiment. I was gonna do it with DXM but my stomach couldn't handle it.
alantis360
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fwiw I tried to do that with my vyvanse by taking some dxm in the morning. Like 15-30 mg. Didnt really do anything and by the third morning the dxm must have been stacking and I felt like I was robotripping. ![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Oh and congrats on getting mod cloudy!!!
Oh and congrats on getting mod cloudy!!!
LSDMDMA&
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cloudy isnt DXM and amps like....bad?
Xorkoth
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Haha, I was literally JUST reading that book (UNIX in a Nutshell) to remind myself of the syntax for something for work. :D
Xorkoth
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Congrats Cloudy! I know you've applied for mod the last few times, and I'm glad we picked you this time.
I know you've applied for mod the last few times, and I'm glad we picked you this time. - Status