whoa did i OD or something?

[olab7]

ok so yesterday morning around 9 i took 120 mg of vyvanse. it was real good up until about 1230pm. i felt buzzed from it though the longest i ever have with vyvanse. this buzz lasted me all the way until like 9pm and i still felt a tiny bit until midnight. so after doing some homework i decided to try to sleep, even knowing i probably wouldnt be able to because i get mad insomnia from vyvanse. around like 2am my heart would race faster than it usually does on this stuff for like 20 seconds then stop, then start again later and did this throughout the night. i didnt think much of it but it made my stomach really hurt.

Also i had very abstarct thoughts like questioning reality and my existence, like who i really was, weird stuff like that haha. also i started to expirence eye twitching anytime i closed my eyes. id also see very starnge images of people sometimes morphing into scary looking things. this is the fourth time ive done vyvanse and the second highest dose ive done. although ive never done that much at one time i usally pepper it throughout the day. anyways ive never had these things happen to me before. also i was talking to myself out loud the whole night which i dont normally do.

so at like 4am i decided to just get on the computer and wait until it was time to get ready for school. My mind was in a strange place. i would think things like "im in a dream world" or "ive become such a druggie" and pitty myself (ha even though its just vyvanse =p) i would look in the mirror and just stare at myself and get scared of myself. i tried to make fun of myself by saying i look like a tweaker and stuff haha. so i got ready for school and felt very strange. my movments seemed as though i was high on weed and my vision seemed distored alittle. oh and i had a hard time forming sentences and just speaking in genral.

once i got to school the really bad stuff began..as i walked through the front doors kids packed the hallways as usual. this set my heart racing faster and faster for some reason and so i walked fast trying to pass people. then all the foot steps became very loud like marching soldiers and i kept looking around me and all the kids looked taller and scary and i thought they were trying to attack me or something and i felt like i was going to die. so panicking i quickly ran outside for some air and called my mom and told her what happened.
she said to just take deep breathes. so i got to my first class and my heart was pumping but i wasnt freaking out.

until my teacher called me and some other students out to the hallway to talk to us about a competition thing. just standing around the other students made me feel very panicky. i felt like i was going to pass oput so i asked if i could go to the nurse. sitting in the nurses i also kept feeling like i was going to pass out and like if i left the room id die or if i saw any other students id die. i kept trying to negate from thse thoughts and laugh them off but i couldnt keep my thoughts away from those things. i thought i was seriously going crazy and going to be like this for the rest of my life. my mom eventually got me and took me to my doctor. my doctor said all of this was due to the vyvanse mixed with the sleep deprivation. so she told me to take some benadryl to see if i can sleep and just basically try to sleep the vyvanse off the rest of today.

the benadryl didnt help at all as i tried sleeping for 4 hours taking it. called my doctor to see if i could take 10mg ambien and she said to cut it in half and take it. im about to do this and im really hoping this will work. i am feeling much better now my heart isnt beating as fast and my vision is almost normal. my thoughts arnt as weird but once in a while ill think of something scary and give me a chill in my chest. this has been one of the most scariest strangest days of my life and has me questioning abusing my vyvanse haha.

anways im wondering...what the heck happened??? i only take vyvanse once a week sometimes once every two weeks so i dont over do it. and ive done 140mg in a day before. i hear of people doing hundreds of mgs like up to 300 and be fine. i really dont know what made this time so diffrent and why its effected me so badly. i alwasy get insomnia but always feel fine the next day like i had never taken the vyvanse. anyways if you read this all thatd be awesome haha as i am very confused

 

[highhooked]

Its just anxiety

Stimulants are known for that

 

[olab7]

is this permanent? i just slept for 15 hours straight and my heart will keep beating fast at random times

 

[an rud is annamh]

Its not permanent, but questioning your stimulant use is good. But think about that later. For now, avoid drugs and have a bath or listen to a tape, distract yourself. If it keeps go back to your a doctor.

 

[highhooked]

yea this sucks man your use might have brought out an anxiety disorder

My anxiety started when i did a high dose of adderall and smoked some weed

But yea as had been said dont focus on your heart pounding hard and beating fast it will just make it worse

I know its tough but just try to act like its not even there ha good luck to you

 

[olab7]

yea this sucks man your use might have brought out an anxiety disorder

My anxiety started when i did a high dose of adderall and smoked some weed

But yea as had been said dont focus on your heart pounding hard and beating fast it will just make it worse

I know its tough but just try to act like its not even there ha good luck to you

ha ok thanks. also do you still smoke weed? jus wondering if i should give up all drugs or is smoking weed ok to keep doing.
either way i wont be doing any drugs for awhile

 

[highhooked]

yee once i had my first panic attack with the adderall weed combo i continued to get anxiety when i smoked weed so i pretty much stopped for a year

And now i all better and blaze down

 

[BrokedownPalace]

Yeah back in high school using copious amounts of cocaine definitely contributed to my anxiety disorder that I developed. Now I cannot take stimulants without some sort of benzo, or I'll have a panic attack. Opiates used to help too, but now I take methadone daily so it doesn't really help my anxiety anymore.

Ambien acts on your GABA receptors, similiar to benzos, which would be your best bet to quell your stimulant induced anxiety. Just remember you will be fine, it will go away. Personally benadryl sometimes makes my anxiety worse at times.

 

[jivepepper]

Personally benadryl sometimes makes my anxiety worse at times.

Unison gel caps have the same active ingredient as benadryl (Diphenhydramine) and are easier to carry, swallow, and seem to a have faster onset. I find a small amount seems to work better for helping with anxiety caused by stimulants. To much for me causes a jerky feeling in my arms sometimes. Of course it's not as effective as a benzo or opiate, but better than nothing.

Weed can help sometimes, but some strains can also seem to increase anxiety though. I had some sticky ichy one time that had a really heavy sedative buzz which really made a nice difference. I heard it came from a dispensary in Cali. They said it was called death star. I just know as soon as someone gives it a name it costs twice as much lol, but it was worth every penny at the time. Wish I lived in Cali. because it moderately helped with my chronic pain, anxiety, and insomnia. I got it right after quitting 3 years of daily opiate use and it was a god send along with a fast 12 day taper using bupe. I didn't want a dependency on the subs as well, so it's the reason for the fast taper.

I also had to quit a daily use of klonopin cold turkey after a 2mg a day dose for a little over a year. I had to do this to get in the only sub clinic that had an opening. I never abused the klonopin just took it as prescribed, but it was still hell. That shit will almost make you beg for an H or pain pill w/d's instead.

Sorry about the long drawn out post but I had a couple 20 addys and 1mg of xanax today lol.. I was just enjoying sharing.