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(LSD)The Night That Changed My Life - Reflections On LSD

ricardo08

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I found this *excellent* report over at the Shroomery.

I wasn't sure if this had been posted here before, I did a search and found nothing. I'm sure many of you have read this before but I thought it would be worth posting it here and sharing with those who haven't.

I'm posting the link after the first part, as it's an extremely long report.


Enjoy!

(Credit to "Help On The Way" for the report)


Hey guys...i havent posted on this site in a long time...and i dont quite remember this forum..so im not sure how many people will see this in here but i want to post it anyway

i know the trip report is very long, but i had a lot to say about that night and only one chance to say it all

Sorry in advance for whatever grammar/spelling mistakes...my major was not even close to english

btw...for those who have read my other trip reports, this is not the same Adam in whose basement who i had my high dose mush trip...strange coincidence though

I appreciate all feedback from those who make it through





The Night of a Thousand Years

Let me take you on a journey





Part 1: Silver Crystal Sugar Cubes


This is not the first time that I have tried to write a trip report about the night that changed my life. Over the last 6 years, I have probably tried at least ten times, maybe even more. But with each attempt, I would find myself feeling completely frustrated. I had too much to say about LSD, with an inadequate vocabulary to express myself.

Why was this attempt finally successful? My first attempts to write a trip report were very soon after the trip actually occurred. But it quickly became apparent that the mystical night was still too overwhelming and scrambled in my mind. I decided that I needed more time to let the experience sink in, so I stopped trying to write the trip report for a while. As months drifted by I found that I was still unable to write. At the time I couldn’t understand why, although now it is quite clear. When the hits of acid wore off that early October morning, my personal trip was actually just beginning. I have spent years since reflecting on myself and processing the many different insights acquired that night. Now, as I write this, years later, enough time has passed for me to have integrated and internalized a lot of the lessons.

There is also another important reason why I am now finally able to write this trip report. It has been years since my last taste of acid. As any tripper will tell you, an LSD experience is truly indescribable. And so as the time has gone by, a lot of the unspeakable aspects of that night have faded from my mind. The incomplete memory which still remains in my head is one that can finally be converted into words. Therefore, although this trip report is a very incomplete description of what actually happened to me that night, it is as complete as my mind and vocabulary will ever allow it to be.


My journey began late one Saturday afternoon at the end of October. The four of us were talking in my friend Adam’s living room when the Silver Crystal Sugar Cubes arrived. Adam, Kevin, Mike and I gathered around the foyer when a girl entered Adam’s house with her friends. She brought with her a handful of the sugar cubes; each one was wrapped up in shiny silver aluminum foil. I was excited because this was to be my first real trip. I had been curious about acid for a while, and although I had one very weak experience before, this would be my real first journey on any psychedelic.

“I just took this acid last night,” The girl said to Adam as she handed him the shiny cubes.

Adam’s eyes lit up with excitement. “How are they?” He asked her eagerly.

Now, over six years later, I can no longer picture this girl’s face. I no longer know what color her hair was, or what she was wearing. But I will never forget her reaction to Adam’s question.

The girl smiled and looked up into the air, gazing at a place far away. There was a strange sparkle in her as she stared out into distant worlds that I could not yet see. She seemed to be radiating a strange energy as she vibrated on a different frequency than us.
“They are the best I’ve ever had.” She answered.


Adam smiled and then the girl was gone. A moment later, Adam, Kevin, and I were upstairs in Adam’s bedroom, huddled around his glowing blacklight. Adam took one of the sugar cubes, carefully peeling away the shiny silver foil, and then held the white block of sugar under the black light. Almost 85% of the white cube was glowing, and it appeared that a drop of acid had been placed on almost every side. He then examined another cube under the light.

"Look at how much acid they put on these things!” Adam exclaimed excitedly as he grinned at Kevin and me. “These are going to be strong!” I was still new to LSD, so this all meant nothing to me. At the time, I thought Adam was just exaggerating. I didn’t believe that each cube more than one hit, nor did I think this acid would be very intense.

I was in for a surprise.



We were standing in the hallway, next to a mirror which was hanging on the wall. Adam and I were now each holding an unwrapped sugar cube. Kevin was holding one also, but he was looking considerably more hesitant than us. This would be his first acid trip as well.

Adam and I counted off, “one…two……….three…” and moments later magical cubes of sugar were dissolving on our tongues. I stood there nervous and excited, holding the acid in my mouth. It was time for my first acid trip! I knew that there was no turning back now, but nothing in this world could have prepared me for the life changing experience that I had just signed myself up for.

Kevin still hadn’t eaten his acid yet. “Maybe I’ll just lick a side!” he said to us. After a minute or two of reassurance, Kevin finally decided to eat his acid too.

And then it was done. Millions of unseen molecules of LSD rushed to all of our brains. Although nothing had happened yet, my life was forever changed.


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*Divine Moments of Truth*


"Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns - it calls me on and on across the universe" ~ John Lennon

"Once in a while you get shown the light in the strangest of places if you look at it right" ~The Grateful Dead

"Religionists, with their guaranteed eventual paradise, of which they know nothing, taking it all on 'faith,' can't be expected to understand or sympathize with those with a yen to storm the Gate of Heaven and see for themselves what all the praying's about!" ~Robert Hunter


Link to the rest of the report.
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I hope you don't mind that I added the first part of your report here. I haven't had a chance to read it all, but I really like what I've read so far and recommend everyone read it. Thanks for posting!
 
This is the best trip report that I have ever read. Very good read.
 
Reading this just blew me away. I could relate to so much of it, not having done acid in almost 10 years myself. I've just been re-introduced to it by a friend of mine, and I've been considering doing it again.

It's been so long since I've tripped. I now remember why. Thank you for that read. I think I'm ready to try it again now. I know the perfect place and time, too. I think my own trip report may be in the works!

Thanks again!
 
as much as acid has taught me and opened the fucking horrid "mind doors" as they're called [lol], i feel it is partly to blame for unraveling , exponentially intensifying mental problems such as anxiety and social phobia which I have developed since my first trip [which was practically a textbook case bad acid trip --if i wasnt so tough, i would have crumbled entirely. the human mind can handle a lot. more than the body it seems! kind of at odds with our image of "physical" being the all-powerful denominator dominator domino dumbo
 
i probably have just failed to "accept" the lessons of acid and am now stuck between two worlds, the wormhole mind and the "open door" mind :p
 
as much as acid has taught me and opened the fucking horrid "mind doors" as they're called [lol], i feel it is partly to blame for unraveling , exponentially intensifying mental problems such as anxiety and social phobia which I have developed since my first trip [which was practically a textbook case bad acid trip --if i wasnt so tough, i would have crumbled entirely. the human mind can handle a lot. more than the body it seems! kind of at odds with our image of "physical" being the all-powerful denominator dominator domino dumbo

I suffer from slight anxiety and social phobia as well. I never thought that it may have been LSD that brought it on. I've always been shy but thinking about it, I've become a lot more anxious about it since I began using LSD in the last few years

I hope it's not the acid though, I love it too much! ><
 
I suffer from slight anxiety and social phobia as well. I never thought that it may have been LSD that brought it on. I've always been shy but thinking about it, I've become a lot more anxious about it since I began using LSD in the last few years

I hope it's not the acid though, I love it too much! ><

We are born with only two fears - loud noises and falling.

All other phobias and anxieties are a result of the experiences we go through in life. Therefore, I would guess that acid doesn't make you more anxious, your just more aware.

If your up to mentally, maybe take a few tabs of acid alone and just really THINK about what causes your phobias and anxieties. Deep down there's a reason why your shy and acid should bring that out.

The dude in the trip report, all of the anger came out of him and it was terrifying, but at the same time he faced it and was able to permanently remove most of it.

<3
 
We are born with only two fears - loud noises and falling.

All other phobias and anxieties are a result of the experiences we go through in life. Therefore, I would guess that acid doesn't make you more anxious, your just more aware.

If your up to mentally, maybe take a few tabs of acid alone and just really THINK about what causes your phobias and anxieties. Deep down there's a reason why your shy and acid should bring that out.

The dude in the trip report, all of the anger came out of him and it was terrifying, but at the same time he faced it and was able to permanently remove most of it.

<3

Yeah you're probably right. I've thought about trying to 'self-medicate' with LSD, but always thought it was probably a stupid idea. I'll look into it a bit more and see. Thanks for the reply :)
 
LSD is only truly [long-term] useful as a psychotherapeutic tool when used in a clinical setting- 1960s Leary style. when used haphazard, it increases dependence on material things like video games, pot, heroin, sex, alcohol, whatever, because it makes you feel deeply unsettled once you come glued back to "consensus" reality and discover how fucked the world is. i have no regrets but acid is directly correlated with anxiety and social phobia. most people with extended drug experience seem to agree.

the reason is because, simply, most drugs put you on a different wavelength than the average person. and for your life and future, that is not a good feeling for most.
 
Shameless bump.

Everyone should read this. Yes it's long but it's worth it.
 
This is exactly the type of report I've been trying to find about LSD. It was just so beautiful and reminds me of the second time I took two tabs of acid. I completely understand some of the things he was saying about how he was in such confusion and then suddenly burst into this unrecognizable creature he later became. Its almost as if the light of the universe comes shining down on you through all the darkness and unveils everything and nothing at the same time.

LSD is such a wonderful substance and I hope to one day get to where he was at. I got there but to an extent. My tabs were not nearly as strong as what he had, but enough to understand the depths and beauty of what life has to offer and more.

Fuck...I need to find some LSD now after reading this!
=D
 
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