HighlyEnjoyed
Greenlighter
ahhhhhhhhhhh thanks villian
The reality is that you're not different from anyone else and you need to quit getting high before it kills you.27. So, lots of years ahead of me.
"Medicated" is not necessarily a bad thing to me. I think it can be a good thing... it HAS been a good thing in fact. I need to be medicated. I've suffered from OCD and severe anxiety problems for as long as I can remember. Its why I started using opiates in the first place... SSRIS/SNRIS/Tricyclics didn't help... MAOIs helped some, but really opiates were the only thing that I ever felt truly well on.
So yeah, I expect (probably a better word to use than "plan," as who really knows what will happen down the road) to be taking bupe for life. I can't foresee ever wanting to stop taking it, nor can I see any benefits of doing so. I could be wrong I guess, but that's my expectation.
My personal opinion, taking an opiate to cure an opiate addiction is retarded. Opiate withdrawl wont kill you. Sure it feels like you have a really bad flu for a week or 2, but big deal really, i went thru it and it was cake compared to the mental game which you fight forever. The sad truth is, the need goes away in a couple weeks, but the WANT stays with you forever. The easiest way to stay clean is to change your lifestyle. Start working out, watch movies instead of getting high, or hell, smoke a bit of pot to relax at night ( other than illegality, everyone knows pot is harmless). Really look forward to that wedding with the open bar next month, or the football game. Taking hard drugs to cure a hard drug addiction didn't work for me.
I agree with Kooterlover on many points. Jail worked for me (the 5th time!!!!!). Rehab didn't work, suboxone kept me a junkie, outpatient therapy didn't work, and HANGING OUT WITH THE SAME 'FRIEND' EVERY TIME I GOT OUT OF JAIL DIDN'T WORK EITHER!!!!!!! Don't fool yourself. You have to change to be able to kick the habit. If you have to use suboxone, use it for 6-8 days. Taper: 8,8,6,6,4,4,2,2(mg/day). Then stay off it. If you're anything like me, you'll get the shits and still have them a month later. That and the insomnia and generally feeling like a big part or me was missing were the reasons I relapsed. The real thing I was missing was clean time and confidence that I could live life opiate-free. I now have 9 months clean and I feel better than I ever have in my life. Even the reason I started doing drugs, the 'fact' that I felt different and isolated from the world, now seems like a big lie I told myself. When I got into drugs I was just a young kid who didn't know his place in the world. Of course there was something missing! I wasn't fully developed physically or mentally! I was so stupid! Ok, I got a little off track there...... All I was trying to say was that you don't need to be on anything to enjoy life. Just the opposite. Clean time is the great healer. That's the only thing that worked for me. And exercise. Working out will help your brain start releasing its neurotransmitters on its own. Give it time. Peace & love, good brother.
Opiate addiction is the worst I believe. I get so pissed sometimes at NA meeting hearing the crackheads and tweekers saying how hjard it is. Try some fucking Heroin asshole, than you talk to me how hard it is. I know this is very offensive, but I just had to say it.
Opiate addiction is the worst I believe. I get so pissed sometimes at NA meeting hearing the crackheads and tweekers saying how hjard it is. Try some fucking Heroin asshole, than you talk to me how hard it is. I know this is very offensive, but I just had to say it.
Sorry for going off there for a bit.
I as well am a poor candidate for raw WD due to unbearable arthritis like symptoms and severe depression/suicidal thoughts.