Regional Heroin Availability: v8

[zaramorf]

I got to the point where I had enough what's the point of spending money on something that doesn't do anything just wish it hadn't taken me so long to realise that could have saved myself a few grand when the drought first hit nearly 2 months ago!!! can anyone believe it has gone on this long, anyways now I just stick to my jungle juice and weed and I gotta say it's been a lot easier than I thought it would but I also think that's down to the fact that I accepted the situation and decided nows the time to make a change and get clean it's just no fun anymore and I gotta say this drought was a wake up call I think to most of us and quite frankly it's put me off wanting to do it again plus my girlfriend has been great (she doesn't use) and shown me what kinda of life I can have without gear for instance going out more, having more money, treating myself to takeaway (and her), making more time for my mates as well, improvements at work and best of all I'm getting my new guitar next week (lost my last one to cash converters a couple of months ago gutted) it's costing me £511 which I'd never be able to afford on the gear and I've promised myself no relapsing after I get it because the last thing I want is my new guitar ending up in sodding cash converters for fuck all money and losing it cause I was a day late getting it back wankers! So my two cents for anyone that cares nows the best time to get clean use this to your advantage to either cut down or quit and this is coming from someone that a month ago had no real intention of quitting was smoking 4-5 .2 bags a day and letting the drug control me I kept lying to myself over and over that I had to have it or I'd have serious panic attacks, I've actually just walked out of work before cause I'd worked myself into such a state I just had to go score or I felt like I was gonna come out of my skin, wasn't sleeping or eating properly at all was barely holding it together but since I've stopped using I feel like a massive weight has been lifted I'm sleeping properly now cause I'm no longer stressing, I'm eating again and just starting to put my life back together and I'm only half way there cause I still gotta come off the juice which ain't gonna be easy as I think I'm on too higher dose was 50ml for bout 5 weeks or so and has been reduced to 45ml last week gonna see my worker 2moro and talk about reducing it further. Well the main point of this long ass post is to hopefully show at least 1 other person that it is do-able and so much good is to be gained from stopping using if nothing else it will give you a better quality of life so good luck to anyone that is trying to kick and my heart goes out to anyone that is still unable to score or is still being sold shite it's a bitch out there right now and you just gotta ask yourself is it really worth it anymore? Anyways later on people I hope everyone finds what they are looking for in the end.

What a great read: you've done well mate, sound like you have your head screwed on, so glad to hear something like this, as it gives me some encouragement to know that it probably wont be as bad as i think it will, so thank you for that, but with me tbh i know if good comes back, it'l be so hard to stay off it, and if the next crop gets blighted and the top boys still dance on it, then im done with it,
Also think that the big boys/idiots who sell the bad bash & know it should be sent to Iran and be stoned, or put them up against the wall so us addicts can shoot them, one by one..

 

[zaramorf]

im right sick of this drought. Nightmare, Nothing but bash here in glasgow,sometimes its not even heroin at all, tastes of paracetamol. And when you look in your tooter its not even oil in it its like some kind of powdery residue

Thing is, Scotland would probably have a little floating round if it wasn't for that massive 2 million haul/drug bust that was in Scotland last month, a real bummer, as ive always heard that Scotland had always been flooded with good food, hope you get something decent soon chaps

 

[basketcase]

@gottabuzz, it's so good to hear someone else feels just the way i do, you're right, it's no fun anymore, and is it really worth it. no not in my case either.

this drought is the kick up the arse that i needed to come off and stay off. i just think 'that's it, i've had enough', enough of wasting money on crappy bash, wasting time, waste of life really

another good thing about this drought it's brought us all together, and great to have support from so many ppl on here, glad i found this forum that i didn't even know existed until the drought struck!

 

[monstanoodle]

what a great post!
you need to just taper that methadone really slowly
you've already made the hard change-the lifestyle change-broken those scoring/using habits,and have witnessed/realised the benefits
I'll bet your Mrs is chuffed
also,unlike many of us,you haven't switched to drink/benzos/weed-kudos to you
your methadone(which is actually a pretty low dose),is a medication-not a drug
you are no longer a substance abuser
congrats!

Gottabuzz - It really was a fantastic post mate I'm also really glad and proud of you for having such an outlook. I did have that when the drought had been goin on for a month but, as soon as my guy got some good stuff in (and it is really lush, pre-drought quality) I've ended up buying a few bags
Silly of me but I doubt it will last too long, so there's still a chance that I'll come away or atleast keep this level of use (which is so much lower than it was pre-drought) and maybe even cut down less.

I do have the fortunate position of being given Codeine & Diazepam but, as of today, I've started my tapering of Diazepam (from 10mg 2x daily to 5mg 3x daily). Though since having some nice gear again I've only had 10mg today... It's a bloody double-edged sword
Gunna give it my all though!

What a great read: you've done well mate, sound like you have your head screwed on, so glad to hear something like this, as it gives me some encouragement to know that it probably wont be as bad as i think it will, so thank you for that, but with me tbh i know if good comes back, it'l be so hard to stay off it, and if the next crop gets blighted and the top boys still dance on it, then im done with it,
Also think that the big boys/idiots who sell the bad bash & know it should be sent to Iran and be stoned, or put them up against the wall so us addicts can shoot them, one by one..

It's great to know that it's inspired you Zara and settled your anxieties about the whole process too
I do hope you can get clean but how could I ever blame you for not doing if some good gear comes into the picture as it has with me?
But the most important thing is, as you said, you've got those thoughts in your mind that it's going to be smoother than your addicted brain is making you believe - That's a big step in itself as kkattastic pointed out

Thing is, Scotland would probably have a little floating round if it wasn't for that massive 2 million haul/drug bust that was in Scotland last month, a real bummer, as ive always heard that Scotland had always been flooded with good food, hope you get something decent soon chaps

Oh shit yea, I forgot about that bust But yes, Scotland, having such an abundance of coast, should get some good stuff through soon enough

 

[monstanoodle]

another good thing about this drought it's brought us all together, and great to have support from so many ppl on here, glad i found this forum that i didn't even know existed until the drought struck!

That's a really good point Basket
There was practically NO talk of Heroin on here before the drought and there wasn't a thread where people could share their troubles.
It is really great to know that there are people out there in the same boat that are really lovely people at that too!
Strength in numbers innit? I don't think any of us would have gotten through this without this level of support ~~

 

[Gottabuzz]

Sweet as people I just wanted to give an honest account of what I've been through and that's only in the last 6 weeks but what a difference it has made but ive been on the gear for nearly 9 years with an 18 month period clean in between which was about 3-4 years ago now I just turned 27 last week time passes so quickly on this shit it's unreal but I was so happy during that clean period it's just my support system fell apart I was back by myself struggling and needed an escape so I relapsed after 18 months clean so stupid but they say "it's easy getting off it the hard part is staying off it" which is so true cause there will be days when u crave even after 20 years of being clean my uncle said that to me and he is 20 years clean and still craves every now and again but this time I've got so much more to gain where as before I had everything to lose if I didn't get clean plus it gets so differcult trying to live that double life for so long espicially for so one like me that works full time in a very upmarket part of Chelsea in London can't let myself slip for a minute and I'm telling you some of the lies I've had to tell work in order to keep my job fuck me I'm a better bloody actor than Brad Pitt I should win a goddamn Oscar for some of my performances lol and this is not to say I'm proud of them cause I'm not I'm probably going to hell for some of the shit that's come out my mouth but don't worry cause I'll probably be seeing most of you guys down there with me (joke !) but basically you know within yourself when enough is enough and you and only you can decide when it's time to stop cause no one can make that decision for you as we all know that doesn't work and sometimes you need to have something worth fighting for to motivate you but more importantly you have to want to do it for yourself otherwise your only lying to yourself and not really dealing with the problem so your more likely to relapse or swap your addiction for another.

 

[thattoh]

best of all I'm getting my new guitar next week (lost my last one to cash converters a couple of months ago gutted) it's costing me £511 which I'd never be able to afford on the gear and I've promised myself no relapsing after I get it because the last thing I want is my new guitar ending up in sodding cash converters for fuck all money and losing it cause I was a day late getting it back wankers!

Know exactly what you mean, i lost a set of line 6 pedals (pod x3 live). I only put them in for £40 and was 2 days late. the lying twats said they were sold, but i know the bloke behind the counter got them.
Any hows, congrats on jibbing the gear, and good luck to ya. A lot of people have been forced to do the same.

 

[littlemidge]

Not trying to piss anyone off but Dublin is on FIRE tonight !!!!!!! I'm goofing my gouch off Ps big shout out to my soul brother Somniforum, you are a diamond safe geezer I know your looking on mate it's not the same without you
Billborrows & Yhafftlaff big shout out to you guys from Somni ! He says you can have an irish coffee over here anytime & he'll put a spring in your step anytime ! Just to let some of you know you can catch Somni on the junky underground, he's not going to let a little thing like a ban stop him from "chatting" to his mates

 

[billburrows]

what a great post!
you need to just taper that methadone really slowly
you've already made the hard change-the lifestyle change-broken those scoring/using habits,and have witnessed/realised the benefits
I'll bet your Mrs is chuffed
also,unlike many of us,you haven't switched to drink/benzos/weed-kudos to you
your methadone(which is actually a pretty low dose),is a medication-not a drug
you are no longer a substance abuser
congrats!

Yeah, good luck to all you guys & gals who are thinking of getting clean.

A good trick is to get a little diary and write down every day what you've had. Even if you have a bit of a relapse keep writing it in there and when you start reducing again after a couple of weeks you'll see the trend going down again. It took me months, probably over a year but I got right down to 1/2ml of meth a day (I kid you not folks, use a syringe to measure it). I took my last 1/2 ml on Friday morning, got 2 bags that night, did one and the other the next day on the way to Scotland for 2 weeks where I knew nobody to score off. I just used weekends for a year and a half after that. And no PAWS 'cos no acute withdrawal - I didn't feel a thing.

It can be done!

 

[littlemidge]

I got to the point where I had enough what's the point of spending money on something that doesn't do anything just wish it hadn't taken me so long to realise that could have saved myself a few grand when the drought first hit nearly 2 months ago!!! can anyone believe it has gone on this long, anyways now I just stick to my jungle juice and weed and I gotta say it's been a lot easier than I thought it would but I also think that's down to the fact that I accepted the situation and decided nows the time to make a change and get clean it's just no fun anymore and I gotta say this drought was a wake up call I think to most of us and quite frankly it's put me off wanting to do it again plus my girlfriend has been great (she doesn't use) and shown me what kinda of life I can have without gear for instance going out more, having more money, treating myself to takeaway (and her), making more time for my mates as well, improvements at work and best of all I'm getting my new guitar next week (lost my last one to cash converters a couple of months ago gutted) it's costing me £511 which I'd never be able to afford on the gear and I've promised myself no relapsing after I get it because the last thing I want is my new guitar ending up in sodding cash converters for fuck all money and losing it cause I was a day late getting it back wankers! So my two cents for anyone that cares nows the best time to get clean use this to your advantage to either cut down or quit and this is coming from someone that a month ago had no real intention of quitting was smoking 4-5 .2 bags a day and letting the drug control me I kept lying to myself over and over that I had to have it or I'd have serious panic attacks, I've actually just walked out of work before cause I'd worked myself into such a state I just had to go score or I felt like I was gonna come out of my skin, wasn't sleeping or eating properly at all was barely holding it together but since I've stopped using I feel like a massive weight has been lifted I'm sleeping properly now cause I'm no longer stressing, I'm eating again and just starting to put my life back together and I'm only half way there cause I still gotta come off the juice which ain't gonna be easy as I think I'm on too higher dose was 50ml for bout 5 weeks or so and has been reduced to 45ml last week gonna see my worker 2moro and talk about reducing it further. Well the main point of this long ass post is to hopefully show at least 1 other person that it is do-able and so much good is to be gained from stopping using if nothing else it will give you a better quality of life so good luck to anyone that is trying to kick and my heart goes out to anyone that is still unable to score or is still being sold shite it's a bitch out there right now and you just gotta ask yourself is it really worth it anymore? Anyways later on people I hope everyone finds what they are looking for in the end.

Well Gottabuzz thats are very heartening post. I'm very happy that your out look on life has changed. You really have turned that corner fair play to you mate. Long may it last :D

 

[basketcase]

Yeah, good luck to all you guys & gals who are thinking of getting clean.

A good trick is to get a little diary and write down every day what you've had. Even if you have a bit of a relapse keep writing it in there and when you start reducing again after a couple of weeks you'll see the trend going down again. It took me months, probably over a year but I got right down to 1/2ml of meth a day (I kid you not folks, use a syringe to measure it). I took my last 1/2 ml on Friday morning, got 2 bags that night, did one and the other the next day on the way to Scotland for 2 weeks where I knew nobody to score off. I just used weekends for a year and a half after that. And no PAWS 'cos no acute withdrawal - I didn't feel a thing.

It can be done!

that's great to know bill, you got down to 1/2 ml of meth!? wow, didn't know you could get down so low, i could do with knowing more about cutting down off meth, other ppl stories on it etc, as i've done DIY gear rattles before that never really got me anywhere (prolly stayed off about a week or 2 at most), but never a meth rattle, so don't really know what to expect (stepping into unknown territory like), at least i know what to expect off gear rattles, worried as lot ppl say that meth is worse to come off.

i've already started jotting a few bits down in me main diary, but think i'll keep a separate one, where i've got more space to write.

my plan is to cut down meth as much as i can, (am on 25ml atm) and go on the subutex in summer, so i'll prolly be coming on here quite a lot in the summer as i think i'll need the support :D

 

[BigNasty]

Not trying to piss anyone off but Dublin is on FIRE tonight !!!!!!! I'm goofing my gouch off Ps big shout out to my soul brother Somniforum, you are a diamond safe geezer I know your looking on mate it's not the same without you
Billborrows & Yhafftlaff big shout out to you guys from Somni ! He says you can have an irish coffee over here anytime & he'll put a spring in your step anytime ! Just to let some of you know you can catch Somni on the junky underground, he's not going to let a little thing like a ban stop him from "chatting" to his mates

Great news for you littlemidge !

Hope this spreads to all you other BlueLighters from Across the Water !

 

[littlemidge]

Great news for you littlemidge !

Hope this spreads to all you other BlueLighters from Across the Water !

Cheers BigNasty, i hope this is a permanent thing !

 

[irishdubliner]

i hear dun laghaoire is on fire at the mo dont know if that is true! In city center in dublin still loads of shit bash around.... not worth a try to score there and stay away from there because i guaranteed u u gonna be ripped off. anyway i phoned me 7 dealers today and they have..... NOTHING good stuff so fuck all that im gonna wait till summer cos of the harvest season i know it seem a long time but its best not to think about h all the time so im gonna do something busy keep me mind off this bleeding drought. hope u all are getting ok bro and god bless ya and stay safe

 

[BigNasty]

Tonight scored a teenth and a half of 6/10. Could be better but Going down nice with a few vallies and a few spliffs. I hope the fire gear reaches all of you Irish heads soon, you've been waiting too long some of ye.

 

[YhaffTlaff]

490 a week is that a habit for weight or are you buying 50 bags a week i can spend 300 a week and it is a waste of cash but i enjoy smoking good gear and i dont want to be the richest man in the cemetry. gone are the days when 160 quid 1/4 oz would suffice most the week and be nodding every night after work

All`s well here in Smoggyland (if y`re alright!) Ton a teenth, which is 20 bar over normal pd. I`ve had a henry since weekend, slaughtered yesterday as kids were with my older son, Just the taste is sublime... I think the wheels r turning again & soon everyone will be square

 

[bigmissy]

6/7 out of 10 near bournemouth £20 .3

 

[BigNasty]

6/7 out of 10 near bournemouth £20 .3

Alright Bigmissy, I'm Bignasty !

Funnily enough I'm near Bournemouth too ! I scored in Ringwoood this evening, and I'd give it a 6/10! Prices are slightly different though !

I've heard that theres some really strong "Old School" gear in Bournemouth at the monent for £15 "a bag". Bags are said to be very random sizes ? Am gonna treat myself and get hold of some anyway. I trust the recommendation.

The situation is very dire in my home town (I travel to score my tackle). It would be interesting to know if you're getting 6/7 out of 10 here. That would be BIG news Missy !

%)

 

[pinkpapaver]

well im getting normal in brum and have been since new year. wtf is going on?

 

[louie the 16th]

All`s well here in Smoggyland (if y`re alright!) Ton a teenth, which is 20 bar over normal pd. I`ve had a henry since weekend, slaughtered yesterday as kids were with my older son, Just the taste is sublime... I think the wheels r turning again & soon everyone will be square

How-do YhaffTlaff , the wheels are def turning ere in the W.mids. Been getting bits of good gear for a while now mate but tonight an old contact came on with even better IMO. I've been meaning to speak to you for a while now son, only i've spent some very happy times up yr way. Used to stay with some real good lads in Redcarr early to mid 90's one of them had a small clothes shop called psyce or ? name Steve, the other one was in a band tyrell corperation Joe i think his name was ! my memory lets me down as those days were a blur.... All the best Shi....