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How High Are You? V. Higher than Rapunzel

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I've noticed you've been getting pretty heavy with the PV bro. I think you should give it a rest for a little bit. Especially after what happened to you the last time. I say this cause I care <3
 
VERY relaxed and pain free as my monthly RX was picked up this week

~~ 80mg Oxycodone x 3 per day
~~ 30mg Oxy IR per day
~~ 1mg Clonaz per day

Everyday is a good day now that I have gotten rid of my user friends who used to borrow and then not return stuff and imagine me at these levels going DRY 5-7 days EARLY??
 
Swerlz said:
I've noticed you've been getting pretty heavy with the PV bro. I think you should give it a rest for a little bit. Especially after what happened to you the last time. I say this cause I care <3
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Are you talking to Tryptamine*Dreamer or me?
 
K?

Wow, you are in a league all your own Mr. Bond. Well done. Well done indeed.

Last time I saw such care to detail was a hash dealr with a duffel bag full of keys.

Nothing short of clinical. And classy. ... ahh. the good ol daze.


ektamine said:
At this very moment? Not very...

Give me a second... =D=D

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meh, that kit case doesn't look practical to carry around. for storing drugs yeah but not carrying sharps. get a decent medical bag with a decent spoon where everything is contained. i suppose if you were an alcoholic junky the shot glass would come in hand.
 
Swerlz said:
I've noticed you've been getting pretty heavy with the PV bro. I think you should give it a rest for a little bit. Especially after what happened to you the last time. I say this cause I care <3
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You are of course right. I already snorted some and set aside enough for maybe 3 smoked hits. I should have probably put the part that I was going to smoke back in the safe, lock it up, and then given the key to someone else to hide it from me, but I gave the key to someone already so I can't put it up.



Last time I smoked MDPV I did fine, but the time before that I had a panic attack that lasted maybe 2-3 hours and my blood pressure went up be 20-25/10-15 points and heart rate up from the 80s to 120 something. MDPV usually does not increase my blood pressure or heart rate much, but it did once before. I was having an even worse panic attack then, which lasted probably over 6 hours. My blood pressure and heart rate always go up when I have a panic attack even in the absence of drugs. I remember one time it went up to like 185/105, pulse in the 120s during a severe panic attack. Vomiting raises it significantly higher than that.

I kind of felt that I needed to snort some pretty quickly because I took my dose of hydrocodone and benzos without thinking about what happened last time I took a similar dose. With 112.5mg hydrocodone and 10mg lorazepam, I blacked out and walked around and said stupid shit that I have no memory of, then spent most of the high asleep. I took 97.5mg hydrocodone, 5mg lorazepam, and 2.5mg alprazolam. That's close to the amount that made me black out and do/say things that I have no memory of at all. I don't want that to happen again. From experience, I can also say that opiates+MDPV is very pleasant.

I'll try to have the willpower to keep myself from using any MDPV for at least several weeks. I'll also limit my hydrocodone use to the 10-37.5mg range and only use it for headaches that do not respond to OTC meds, and migraines which are bad headaches that make me nauseated, sometimes causing vomiting, and often make it difficult or impossible to walk( from a combo of extreme sensitivity to light, sound, and movement, as well as dizziness. They also cause visual symptoms, especially before and early in the migraine.

I'll also try to limit my benzo use to unrelenting anxiety or when it feels like a severe panic attack is coming. Max dose would be 3mg of lorazepam or 2mg alprazolam.

I don't need to be abusing the hell out of drugs after going from an extreme state of depression which from what I've read seems like it was a mix of agitated depression(a type of mixed state) and psychotic depression, which included delusions that I was going blind, that my brain was damaged and deteriorating, that it was my fault that my mom has cancer, and that I was unworthy of being alive. I tried suicide, real deep cuts where blood samples are usually obtained. It did not bleed a lot. I saw another significant vein and cut it deep but little bleeding. I thought these would bleed out much faster than a slashed wrist as the veins I used were larger. The width could have been increased but it looked like it plenty deep to have severed those long veins which are clearly

A previous episode of psychotic depression included a belief I was going blind, I was mentally retarded and teachers, parents, and others were giving praise for my performance, which I just knew was a see though attempt to make me feel better . I started feeling like I was being watched. Before long, I knew people were saying mean things about me behind my back. My level of anger and self destructive activities increased, though nobody new about my self-destructive behaviors as I kept it secret(burning on clothing covered body parts and ingesting various insecticides and other toxins. Before long I felt at times that my ceiling fan had been implanted with video cameras, as well as the bathroom shower. Sometimes I interpreted sounds in the wall as coming from machines that were trying to interfere with brainwave activity. Eventually, I took close looks inside the fan to search for cameras and microphones, found none, then checked the shower and found none there either. I often thought others knew what I was thinking and could read thoughts from my mind. I most of the time felt that the strange thoughts were caused by psychotic depression and most of the time I felt that much of what I had experienced was caused by psychotic depression.There were still times when I was feeling that my thinking was cleared. The worst parts where when I felt that co-workers, boss, and family members especially were spying, reading my mind and sometimes putting things into my mind. It did not help that most of my co-workers made fun of me because of how I talked, my obesity, the large amount of body hair, the music I liked, the clothes I wore. There was a significantly mentally retarded man who worked there and started trying to get me to talk about him right to his face. I would not do it, so they started making fun of me and treating me similar to the intellectually challenged guy, who was a nice person who did not deserve that bullshit.After that, they started calling me a retard and a crazy psycho which lowered my self esteem even more. That guy later asked what he could do to stop online games from lagging and freezing up. I suggested a cable modem which is much faster than dial up and he said I should get electro shock therapy. He and others kept calling me a psycho.

I have tried suicide 3 times, each time during psychotic depression and Christmas EVE in what seemed a state of agitated depression( a type of Mixed State with psychotic features.

I guess I should go easy on the drugs since my recent diagnosis of Bipolar II disorder, so hopefully I won't go back to a majorly depressed episode or a full blown mania.


The drugs are beginning to take an effect, should be in Heaven in less than an hour.

I'll update when I feel I have peaked.
 
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leftwing said:
meh, that kit case doesn't look practical to carry around. for storing drugs yeah but not carrying sharps. get a decent medical bag with a decent spoon where everything is contained. i suppose if you were an alcoholic junky the shot glass would come in hand.
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I don't really store / carry anything in there, it was just a convenient place to put it all as it was lying on my desk.

ATM I only use sharps at my house, so no bag / container is needed. And I prefer a shot glass as I don't use heat for anything and I prefer glass > metal, and have grown accustomed to the high walls of a shot glass over the shallow ones of a spoon. Less chance of losing any solution and it can rest upright on my desk.
 
I just realized a semi-purpose in my life, but then I forgot it.


I think it had to do with love or something.
 
ektamine said:
I don't really store / carry anything in there, it was just a convenient place to put it all as it was lying on my desk.

ATM I only use sharps at my house, so no bag / container is needed. And I prefer a shot glass as I don't use heat for anything and I prefer glass > metal, and have grown accustomed to the high walls of a shot glass over the shallow ones of a spoon. Less chance of losing any solution and it can rest upright on my desk.
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that's pretty much what i assume, that you just put it in there for the shot. my reply was directed at the
Nothing short of clinical. And classy
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remark unless that was describing how the hash was bagged up.

i dunno, i'm pretty stoned myself and have had a few drinks.

i'm a spoon guy myself. have had people prep a shot for me in a shot glass and tried it a couple times myself but find it more of a fuck around then dumping whatever i'm using into the spoon or using the tiny plastic clip lock bags drugs are packaged in so commonly here in australia.

i too only use at home now and don't so much have a kit anymore than i do a drawer full of equipment.
 
leftwing said:
i dunno, i'm pretty stoned myself and have had a few drinks.
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Eh, I envy you! I'm all dry at the moment and can't sleep a wink tonight.

;)

leftwing said:
i'm a spoon guy myself. have had people prep a shot for me in a shot glass and tried it a couple times myself but find it more of a fuck around then dumping whatever i'm using into the spoon or using the tiny plastic clip lock bags drugs are packaged in so commonly here in australia.

i too only use at home now and don't so much have a kit anymore than i do a drawer full of equipment.
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Just out of curiosity, what do you prefer about a spoon? Is it just that you've grown accustomed to it or do you find advantages to it?
 
The effects started to lessen so I added 2mg lorazepam, 1mg alprazolam, and 37.5mg hydrocodone about an hour ago. I also smoked more residue from my old pipe, and it made me get really fucked up. There was also enough 2c-p and possibly doi that I feel like I have taken enough to get light to moderate visuals.

I had this beautiful dream or opiate/psychedelic induced vision. I've had visions on opiates before, but they were never as colorful as this one. I was lying in the snow. It was twilight, and the stars were coming out. Looking around, there were no trees or houses. It was a desolate but beautiful place. Then an aurora started and the sky was breathtakingly beautiful. I laid back down in the snow and watched the sky for what seemed at least two hours. I felt loving and loved, peaceful, and very happy. I also felt an intense love for the people I know, and the world as a whole. I felt a strong connection to the universe, sometimes feeling like I was melting into the universe. I also felt a connection to God or one of the Gods, and I normally feel there are no gods and if they do exist they are evil monsters or they haven't got the power to make things better on this planet.

This vision or dream was probably caused by the combination of drugs I an on: hydrocodone, alprazolam, lorazepam, large dose of JWH-073 (a bunch of shit condensed to the sides of my pipe), moderate dose of 2c-p, and likely a very small amount of DOI.

There was also the MDPV, but it probably didn't add much to it since it is a stimulant that would probably tend to wake up a dreamer or possibly stop a drug induced vision. I could be wrong. In any case, even with the first snort MDPV, I was on the verge of blacking out or passing out when the drugs started kicking in strong. I smoked a bit of MDPV then snorted maybe 8-10mg, which brought me back to feeling intense pleasure, one of the best experiences of my life!

I was and still am in an extremely euphoric mind state, in love with the world, feeling a great physical feeling buzzing and vibrating through my body, a feeling that love is shining through my body and soul, and a strong feeling of optimism and that everything will somehow be okay.

Having a really good time. Going to quit talking so I can enjoy the experience more fully. Also going to smoke remaining residue from old pipe, and the new one if I can find some residue in it.
 
60mg Valium
6mg Xanax

2 tins of 4% Harp with more to come (both of 12). Prefer the bottles of Coors Lite but the price has went up by a bit so went for the Harp instead.
 
Over the past few hours, I snorted/ate/shot 75 mg of oxycodone. That isn't too much with my tolerance, but it actually feels great. Insufflating and eating some stretched out the high, while I still got a few small rushes from IV'ing. :) Ahh.
 
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