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What did you learn from your latest trip?

Bezonian said:
That I'm an embarrassment to my family and need to make some major life changes before I become a complete fuckup
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i'm learning this every day tripping or not, never changing...

thinking: what is a fuck-up? why can't i just be a nice guy and do as i please? why can't me and my wealthy parents just decide that my art and sensitivity and friendship is more valuable than the unnecessary stuff they buy? why am i thinking these thoughts instead of becoming a social prostitute in meager hopes of earning money, or succumbing to the conceptual apparatus of academia? am i not well? am i depressed? i think depression is truth and selflessness, it just doesn't work... why? how? when? WOMAN. SEX.

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anyone who's been there and gotten out of it: i'm very thankful for input :(
 
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^ the people in your life may be expecting a lot from you and even stuff for you that you don't personally associate or desire. Be yourself vs succumbing to peoples negative emotions... I've found that it can be put into something as broad as personality types. Some people just don't feel life is worthwhile unless they're mining themselves for money/material worth, something to represent their efforts. and some people don't feel like life is worth missing and pushing past they would rather create art and create with their time novel creations.

The world is always going to be pressuring on us, but it is up to us to create or accept conventions. Of course not everyone agrees! I had a relative ask me recently "How can you be happy without a high paying job at your age?", and I didn't even need to ask but the kind of "happiness" he was referring to just wasn't in his eyes as he asked me this.

Were all lost in this world in this experience, and I believe the phenomenon that you should be looking out for here is cynicism. People get cynical and angry that they feel they have to sacrifice so much for a day in day out living and it...angers them to see others in free lifestyles within their living space, they consider them lazy or worse for not"fitting the norm" or being suppressed like they felt they had to be... really they're just in finite admiration of your higher vibration, not understanding your mindset so the most they can do it criticize it from theirs .
 
those are nice words Tunnelfission but what happens when I need to crawl at their feet for sustenance?

the current employment situation requires perseverance and ambition and I just can't muster that. without creativity i would pretty much be a nobody but then again without it i don't think my indifference could have gone that far... i feel that art is what i should be doing, rather emphatically... and this makes me sound like a whiney bitch or someone with some kind of ill-defined mental handicap. :(
 
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My greatest lesson learned was humility, after a 6 hour 'bad' trip on shrooms I realised it was not bad at all and I've become a better person since then.
When you're back on the comedown and you piece together the different bits of wisdom you were shown. Still enjoying the gently dimishing waves and some good green, there's nothing to do but smile :)
 
How visually impressive LSD can be. I might have ADD. Listening while on acid, to a close friend talk about his/her life for a while can really help you appreciate them in new and deeper ways than you did not know you ever would. If you see a quality you like in someone else, you can incorporate that quality into your own persona if you want to and realize you can. Smoking cigarettes is likely to contribute to an early death if you don't quit while you're ahead. Alcohol abuse is really bad for the body. MDMA is a shitty drug to abuse. Stay true to yourself and start your own religion based on what you know to be true and worthy of yourself. All these things I realized the other day. Sometimes when you do the right thing, the universe can seem to reward you. Do no wrong in life and there is no reason to have fear. Rid yourself of guilt, and take advantage of this new moment. Do what you want, but keep in your memory what pain is like, only enough so you remember why not to let your actions cause it for others.
 
Mjäll said:
those are nice words Tunnelfission but what happens when I need to crawl at their feet for sustenance?

the current employment situation requires perseverance and ambition and I just can't muster that. without creativity i would pretty much be a nobody but then again without it i don't think my indifference could have gone that far... i feel that art is what i should be doing, rather emphatically... and this makes me sound like a whiney bitch or someone with some kind of ill-defined mental handicap. :(
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Your soul seems to be holding out for the ideal lifestyle, I admire that in people and have seen it in myself as well yet I will admit i haven;t even taken off the ground artistically, i'm practiced but don;t feel near to my vision of success in those ways.

The ideal life doesn't come to us unless we lose it all and build it anew if we are relying on other people... to restructure your life when you are feeling beaten and dependent will not launch though... I feel for you there.

You can't just find it off the hop, but having a lover that will have you unconditionally is all the human support I need, when I have that then I am much more prone to personal sacrifice and spiritual development, one needs inspiration from some source, I *kind of* admire religious fundamentalists who can abstain from activities or substances JUST through faith in their religion alone especially when they crave the experience that they are denying. It's not my style but to inspire yourself from the inside out is a powerful ability, just knowing that one has options choice and power is a resourceful state of mind in and of itself.

It is only after we have lost everything are we free to do anything.

If you can have faith and tear it all down, build a new life, if you don't have that in you (which people rarely do) then try to look at life from a different way, one cannot get from A-Z without visiting the alphabet in between, I crave success but I must develop it myself from whatever step I am currently at, accepting my limits then carefully but with drive stretching them.
 
Not to combine MDPV and LSD. And certainly not at a small, insanely crowded, underground rave/party.
 
I feel I've learned that whenever my life is going downhill, I don't do anything to better myself, but rather, am constantly receiving help from others - such as my brother. My last trip was a bad one and I kept telling myself not to call my brother because I have to do this on my own. I ended up in jail, but that's a whole other story.

I haven't touched drugs since.
 
I learned that I would rather sit back and observe the universe around me than be an active part in it on LSD a couple of days ago..

But I think I'll have to be an active part to some extent..
 
I learned to stop being so harsh and judgemental of people
The time before that undid my addiction to cigrits (well, went from ~30 smokes a day, to 1 or 2, just for the headrush :p)

LSD changed me dramatically every time. I love it :)
 
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