Well I haven't posted in a few but I'm very very confused...
I had been doing .5 - 1mg of sub a day with breaks to get high.
Saturday I took 300mg of morphine orally at around 8pm.
Ended up nodding out hard strangely enough.
It hit me harder than shooting 3 bags of what is considered great dope for my area.
Really surprised me.
But here's the thing the next day I didn't really feel sick so I popped 4 tramadol & called it good.
The next day still didn't feel that sick so didn't take anything.
The next day I had minor to moderate w/d's.
I took 200mg of tramadol & 20mg's of hydrocodone & felt fine.
Thing is normally that amount wouldn't even take the edge off.
Normally I'd take that amount of shit & feel nothing & get little to no relief.
So the next day I still wasn't feeling that bad & took 100mg tramadol & 30mg hydrocodone.
It's now the next day & I've taken nothing so far.
I have some minor w/d's symptoms but nothing major.
I really don't understand it, prior to this, regardless of what I took I'd be sick as fuck when I woke up.
I mean I could dose 1mg sub & wake up sick as hell the next day.
Why all of a sudden can I get by on what to me is literally virtually nothing?
I normally base all my shit around logic & atm I can't figure the logic.
Why would I suddenly not be getting sick as fuck?
I'm tempted to try just quitting as I'm not getting proper sick.
All I've done since saturday is like 3 or 400mg of tramadol & like 60mg of hydrocodone.
Yet i'm only mildly sick...
Prior to that I'd have to shoot a bag or 2 or sniff 2 or 3 times that to cover me for like 8-12 hours.
So yeah...
Any input? Trying to figure out what to do I'm very confused.
Like I said I'm tempted to not take anything & wait it out & see what happens but it's hard to do of course.
Mentally I'm losing it but physically I'm relatively fine...
I'm wondering if I should taper with tram/hydro doin a little less each day or just cold turkey it now.
So far it's over 24 hours since my last dose of 100mg tram & 20mg hydro & all I have is painful legs & some minor GI symptoms.
My back is killing me, but that's not a w/d symptom that's a physical problem.
So any suggestions or ideas?
I honestly am just so confused by this paradoxical turn of events I don't know what to do.
My gf says I should be happy & just quit while I can.
Course my logic says hey maybe I can get high with a smaller amount of shit...
But her logic is likely wiser.
Regardless I would love some input as to how the fuck I'd go from needing to shoot a few bags or sniff like half a bun to not be sick.
To magically being able to get by on a few vics & tram's & not even feel 1/4 as sick as I normally would.
For example I'd normally do a few bags & get sick as shit 12-24 hours later.
Now I'm doing a couple trams & vicodin & feeling barely any w/d's 24 hrs later.
I thought at first that maybe the morph just released over a long time even though I crushed em.
But now it's 5 days later so it can't be that...
Again sorry for my rambling post as I always do, but seriously WTF is going on with me?
I like lyrica on occasion so trying to avoid opiates today I've started eating neurontins to see if I can not take anything at all today.
Just at 400mg, gonna eat 400mg an hour till it takes the mental edge off or I end up doing some sort of opiate.
Hell I'm even having a few drinks even though I hate ethanol, just to try & take the mental edge off,

It just doesn't seem worth it to take such small amounts though as if that's holding me I should be able to get off easy...
I just don't get it, I'm afraid if I try to come off then I'll get sick as fuck.
As I don't know why I'm not sick as fuck.
Again sorry but I'm so fucking confused.
Any input would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks your very confused fellow BL'er.
