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In memory of Carsick

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Shambles said:
Is it really next week, DS? Am not too good with those kinda anniversaries. Go "a bit funny" on the anniversary of my lil brother's suicide every year but never realise that it's that time until I come out of it. Carsick really was one of the finest BLers I've met. Will maybe have a mini ketabinge in his honour... just a mini one though under the circumstances:(
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You know, I've given up Ketamine for the most part but I was thinking about doing some in honour of the lovely man. I was suprised to find out that Carsick hadn't met many bluelighters. I feel so lucky to have met him, he truely was one of the most inspiring people I've met.

I hate that other people feel the need to be nice about the deceased through pleasantries because it dilutes what I've said but when I seriously mean it. I didn't know him that well and we'd only met up a handful of times but he's left a lasting impression on me and the standard to which I aim to treat others.

I can't even put what I want to say into words. I wasn't a bad person at all when I met him. Ahh. Fuck it. Brilliant Man.

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I never met Carsick (but never met any BLers!), but he gave some good help several times. RIP
 
Never spoke to this person - probably long before my time here, but a loss nontheless, RIP.
 
I spent many a night having long talks with Carsick. About anything and everything and things with meaning. I was due to meet up with him when I was in Bristol and looking for flats last late December, he was going to keep me company as it's a task I hate doing, and he knew Bristol. The snow spoilt it though. He was a beautiful soul who was taken too soon.

Him and MTGG were close friends too.

Not hijacking the thread, but here's to MTGG too. Another wonderful EADD'er.

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Stella in one hand, nitrous dispenser in the other and a cheeky grin, that was Tom.

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My favourite picture of me and him :) I can't believe it'll be 3 years in June.

It's always the best one's who go too soon.
 
he's such a beautiful man. In heart and soul. i miss him a lot. and yet never knew him as well as others did. He had a way of making you feel special. despite how "special" you were.

The loss of carsick still cuts me up.
 
I've still got a few PM's of him when he was giving me advice. They won't be getting deleted, I too never met him but like others said he seemed like a great guy. RIP Carsick.
 
RIP

I remember his name on here is very strange when someone you have read about yet never met is gone

respect to Carsick and all other members of Bluelight who have passed on <3
 
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RIP again carsick, always one i thought i'd bump into :(

Those who knew him better have much better info they could share by PM etc maybe, but no he didn't die directly from ketamine use, or even ket in a combo afaik. Downers I think...?

Again, I didn't know him really and it's not my place to speak about it all, but when drugs like ketamine are part of someone's life and their escapism, then yeah I think it's fair to say they can be factors in the things that happen/things people do which ultimately lead to their deaths.

Might be a better idea to start a thread in EADD or elsewhere about ketamine addiction problems? Definitely a fair few here who've got experiences and could provide some really good insight, stories and tips. Don't beat yourself up too much though bro eh, you're still young and alive. Ketamine done to excess or daily etc is really not going to do you any physical/mental good though, and some of the damage can be irreversible.

Might be worth in your situation distancing yourself from places where you know ketamine is going to be around, available and offered for a bit of time possibly, so you can focus upon you and what sort of boredoms, thoughts, behaviour patterns are making you keep using a drug that you end up regretting after. Regretamine indeed lol.
 
yes sorry no need to talk about it on this thread, I'll start another

editing that post and respect again
 
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We've lost too many really lovely people here on EADD (and on BL generally), but I guess that's to be expected... Still...

♥ Love ♥
 
Used to talk to him quite a bit on MSN. Truly lovely guy. Such a shame. I wish I've had met him, but I think that would have made it even worse when he died. RIP, mate.

To MTGG, also. It's always the decent ones.
 
Aw, man. This thread is bringing a lump to my throat. :(

Something always got in the way of us meeting up on so many occasions. It was like it was never gonna happen. But I was lucky enough to meet him several times. Each time being a totally unique experience. He always seemed so compassionate and understanding. And he's words are often in my thoughts. I only wish I got to know him better. <3
 
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