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Rolling Away: My Agony with Ecstasy/Intro

Free.Your.Mind

Free.Your.Mind

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hello everyone
im new to this form looks pretty neat
i wish i would of found it sooner :p
iv been rolling on and off for 2 years now
great fucking psychoactive if you ask me
not as good as LSD tho hehe
well i just wanted to introduce myself
n btw anyone ever read this book?
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http://digmybook.com/preview/0743490436/Rolling-Away-My-Agony-with-Ecstasy
i was thinking about giving it a read
 
I have read your book, and have had similar experiences. Now am trying to recover myself also, any suggestions on how to "free your mind." or how you did it and if you did, did you recover completely?
 
^he didnt write the book, he is just asking if anyone has read it
i'm sure e can fuck your brain over preeetyy good if you do it too much..
its not that you'd feel agony while on it, im pretty sure you'd feel shitty almost all the time if you overdo it..
just dont roll too much and you dont have to worry about that.
 
v6mafia said:
I have read your book, and have had similar experiences. Now am trying to recover myself also, any suggestions on how to "free your mind." or how you did it and if you did, did you recover completely?
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you must learn how to operate your mind
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQq_XmhBTgg
mind over matter(im just now finally grasping that concept)
iv gone through so much shit in my life
my childhood was pretty fucked up
at age 8 i was taken out of my mothers custody and into my fathers
my mom had a huge drinking and drug problem
shit sucked ass for awhile after that
shes straight now
i was introduced to MDMA around my 16th birthday
fucking loved the stuff
used to roll all the time every weekend for one year after i tried it(got up to doing 8 pillz a night) :\
then i got in trouble with the law
probation for 6 months
in a way probation saved me from myself
i was abusing MDMA so much at that time it was pulling me away from everything i loved
been off probation for a good few months now
now im good tho well semi good
rolled a few times after just for shits and giggles
not as frequently tho
then LSD came along and gave me a new horizon
acid is so much cleaner than MDMA id go with acid every time if it was between everything else
zero hangover plus you feel reborn after a trip
but as my MDMA taking history goes i do get lots of anxiety idk if its from all the rolling i did it could be that or my OCD n bipolar disorder fucking with me all the time
hell it could even be just me not being use to being sober and not able to cope with lifes basic problems in a sober state of mind
im trying to live everyday to the fullest
my experiences with LSD has taught me that
even tho i forget to from time to time
just give my video a look and try to grasp its meaning
n if you like E i recommend trying sum LSD
its fucking awesome
greatest learning tool iv come in contact with
going to a rave on the shit is even better
you still get that lovey dovey feeling you get when your rolling just from being around people that are on E
and everyone will be coming down from there pillz while your still frying ballz after words
 
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LSDMDMA&9177735 said:
its not that you'd feel agony while on it, im pretty sure you'd feel shitty almost all the time if you overdo it..
just dont roll too much and you dont have to worry about that.
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yupp
i read a part of the story and this chick was rolling for days on end
fuck me running
iv rolled 4 dayz straight max(just one time):p
but damn this chick blows my 4 days out of the water like it was nothing
 
I also abused mdma pretty frequently and got fucked up but also spent time doing other drugs as well. I pretty much took my mind and body for granted and suffered the consequences pretty bad ..(extreme anxiety/depression/anger/etc.) I did mess around with the cid pretty often too but found that was changing my personality a bit so I stopped. Some days are easy...a lot are hard, with inspiration and a job I'm trying to get back on the right track. All I want is to piece the puzzle back together.
 
Free.Your.Mind, that was a great post.

I too went through a period of overdoing it with e and g (couple years of every weekend, and lots of pills at that). As with all drug overuse, eventually you're taking the drug to feel ok, forget about feeling great. Went through some pretty heavy depression and finally went off for a few years.

I've recently started again, but in careful moderation. It's not as intense as it once was, but it's still very pleasant.

The trick is focus on making your life good when you're straight, so that it can be briefly great with a little bit of chemical augmentation.
 
This book is just a gimmick to generate money. She has a blog and a website. I've seen the interviews with this girl... her experiences may be real but they are embellished and dramatized to the max. I'm sorry but you can't toss around the word "addict" in reference to an MDMA honeymoon phase (that tons of us go through) when there are people suffering from things like physical heroin addiction and dying from the horrific withdrawals.
 
I agree that the word 'addict' is used waaaaay too lightly nowadays. 9 times out of 10, "addiction" actually refers to a lack of willpower, discipline and self-control. True addiction is nothing to scoff at and is worlds apart from partying too much, which is something a lot of weed/MDMA/hallucinogen users do.

For the meaning of addiction, see IV heroin junkies begging for pennies in 30-degree weather, 20-year alcoholics covered in bruises and crystal meth smokers with holes in their faces.

Still would love to read the book tho. Thanks for the recommendation, Free. And welcome :)
 
You can't put addiction in one category and generalize it like that. Comparing anything tometh users is on a whole different scale. People can go to dairy queen and from a type of addiction to banana sundae's lol. Just because her use isn't as "severe" as a lot of fucked up people still doesn't mean she was addicted to a drug and ecstasy is a drug, a very bad one imo. And anyways..mother fuckers with holes in their face isn't addiction, its str8 sorrryyyyyyyyyyy. Shouldn't be messin with that nasty shit in the first place.
 
yea well nonsevere addiction isnt really addiction in my book then. Im so sick of hearing people whining about addiction to all kinds of stupid things like food and coffee and cigarettes and weed. I smoke weed everyday so I guess that makes me a marijuana addict. It doesnt really change a whole lot in my life except I take a few minutes a few times a day to get high then go back to whatever I was doing. If youre a true addict you are not functioning and not able to function in normal society. You can only focus on being high or getting high and EVERYTHING else is secondary, including your life and the lives of everyone around you. When someones life is less important to them then getting high is is when I consider someone truly addicted to something.
 
The poster of this thread is obviously also the author of this book..

Use your brain, people.
 
Doesn't matter on severity..it's called dependence. Whether or not its you're primary or secondary, being dependent on substances is considered addiction. You may think that a couple puffs a day of cronic isn't bad but do you really know what you're throwing into you're body each time you take a hit? Sure couple times a day doesn't seem bad but once you add all that up you're gonna be second guessing.
 
I'm not bashing potheads, I'm a stoner myself and I've seen hell and back but once those chemicals in your brain start changing, dependency is a bitch.
 
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