Warped Reality
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- Nov 30, 2010
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Well, lately I've been having what I think is Ecstasy withdrawal. I HATE it. I heard from another thread of mine that the symptoms are also the symptoms of schizophrenia and that just freaked me out A LOT. But anyways here are my symptoms...
If anyone could post any tips or anything I could do to calm myself down, it would be greatly appreciated... This is a scary thing and nobody should have to feel this way.
- Depression - When I (ab)used Ecstasy, I was SO happy. I always was, until I stopped for a month (it's been a month today that I haven't done it, and before I was doing Ecstasy every week for about two months, doing 5-9 pills every time). Now that it's been a month I'm realizing that I'm so depressed. I was walking home today and I was thinking of killing myself. The thought of sleeping forever seems beautiful. I was just imagining jumping off a bridge and feeling the wind and then just sleeping forever - I really want this
- Anxiety - I'm really anxious now. I can't go outside because my heart starts racing and the only thing that calms me down is a cigarette
- Panic Attacks - I'm getting EXTREME panic attacks. When I was told that these were the symptoms of Schizophrenia, I started breathing very heavily and fast, and I started crying from it. Every now and then I realize that my life feels like a dream ("de-realization", which is exactly what I have),
- Everything seems 'dreamy' to me
- I seem like I'm more stuck into my mind... Like, I feel like I'm not all there. I've been thinking it was schizophrenia for a while, and then I realized that it's also one of the Ecstasy withdrawal symptoms (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Derealization this is exactly how I feel!)
- Bad sleeping patterns
- Paranoid delusions - I always get paranoid, which I know is a symptom of both Ecstasy withdrawal and Schizophrenia
If anyone could post any tips or anything I could do to calm myself down, it would be greatly appreciated... This is a scary thing and nobody should have to feel this way.