It's entirely safe. Loperamide is an opiate just like any other, which is why it halts bowel movements. It just doesn't provide anywhere near a high the same as regular opiates.
So I'm assuming the Loperamide helped you? Did you get a high similar to what I described? Varying waves of warmth, sometimes incredibly intense?
Well, it definitely did something. I 'only' took 20mg to start with then took another 20mg several hours later. I don't know if it was the lope or if I'm just slowly recovering but I had a massive breakthrough in that I was able to read for about half an hour (I usually churn through a couple of books a week so not being able to read has really sapped my morale). I didn't get any waves of warmth like you describe but that's probably because I didn't take enough. I'll try again later.
(Good book I'm reading, by the way - called "The Happiness Trap" - all about people's inability to deal adequately with negative emotion and their highly unrealistic expectations for life. Very cutting edge and clinically proven approach to helping people get their shit together. Got about half way though it. Guess that's for another thread).
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I took another 20mg Val and 20mg Zolpidem just then so hopefully can get some more sleep soon - I really can't take another night of sitting around until the sun comes up before getting another few hours of shit quality sleep.
Well I most certainly did not sit around watching the sun come up, even though I haven't been to bed since I posted the above about 1am (now 6.30am). I actually got off my ass and went for a run! After barely being able to walk up a flight of stairs for the past week, that's definitely a good sign. Although I haven't slept, at least I've done something good for my drug addled body and got some of those endogenous opioids flowing :D How awesome am I?
Now, please indulge a little theory I have...
As many of you will know, after a number of years of heavy weed smoking, some people inexplicably reach a point where smoking starts to bring on intense anxiety. I definitely went through that phase and stopped smoking weed altogether for a few years (incidentally when I first started taking opiates).
In the last six-eight months, I started smoking again and found that the anxiety had lessened and I could smoke comfortably. Could it be that the Suboxone was chilling me out enough that I was able to smoke weed without negative effects but now I'm no longer on Suboxone, the old weed anxiety is back? Could this actually be causing some of the insomnia? The weed has helped with nausea but I'm not sure if it's making me anxious (as I'd be blaming those effects on the Sub withdrawal). Does this make any sense at all or am I talking shit?
Also, as Suboxone said, although I've never felt worse than during the last 7 days, it's great to have something to be proud of and to know that I'm (and you guys are) making progress!
@Subdude: I've got a shitload of Clonodine but I think it's pretty nasty shit. I think it was the main thing making me feel like a zombie. I started on a pretty high dose but my blood pressure dropped a ton so the Dr made me taper off it (pretty sure it's another one of those drugs that can kill you if you abruptly stop taking it). I've felt much more clear headed since but again, sleep has been hard to come by.
Finally; man this post exercise buzz feels great. Although I really want to sleep, this is the best I've felt since D-Day!
Good luck everyone
