Thanks guys. I don't even understand how some people can be drawn to each other so strongly..
yeah i feel ya sega on the not giving a fuck anymore, like yeah this hurts and all, but its just so familiar now...
when i first met her, we had arranged to meet up n hang out. (she added me on facebook through her friend who knew me)
we went on a journey to get acid and ended up tripping in her mates apartment alone and had a 100% perfect 100% connection (that was before we got trippin).
she said the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me and i almost cried at the time.
it was genuine which is why it hit me so deeply..
despite all that shes put me through i still love her to bits. its been a crazy 5 months, and i've learned a LOT.
about life, love, people. i can keep crying myself to sleep that its over (for the time being at least i think

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or i can smile and smile and SMILE that it happened.
she brought me out of my shell emotionally, got rid of a lot of my anxiety-ish issues, and gave me my "fuck it" back. :D
i am more mature and a better person thanks to her (despite the crushing depression and heartbreak that happened all too often).
Explain this "doomsday box"

I know what you guys mean about phases of opiate/benzo use. To be honest I'm in one myself.
Just don't let it consume you, I find as long as you only dose in the evening and are "sober" during the day things tend to not get too out of hand.
doomsday box. a box for the end of the world, with personal amounts of certain chemicals and compounds of your choice to have with you when the sky falls :D
Thizzer first mentioned it on here and it inspired me to make one up.
it would probably consist of:
- 25 tabs of acid.
- 3.5g of ganja.
- some DMT.
- some mushrooms or similar related chems.
- 250mg 2c-e.
- 250mg 2c-i.
- 500mg of a jwh of some sort.
- some benzos and downers.
whatever else takes my fancy really...
Pizza is very important to me
me too bro, i make my own pizzas, base, sauce. only thing i dont make is the cheese and the toppings. (grow my own herbs, tomatoes and peppers and chillis though!) :D