I've been looking forward to and planning for an upcoming event. I've even been taking some supplements to increase the roll and reduce damage. To my surprise, though, the enthusiasm is dampened. Very strange to me. It's not like I roll every weekend with a few hits each. I space it out among 2 months to a few months between, with only one or 1 1/2 pill at the most, each time. Nothing ever goes wrong, and I feel wonderful on it, and my tolerance is good. I'm dismayed. It's been an exhilarating, almost spiritual experience to me each time. So why do I feel like I don't see what the point of doing this is? Recently the social dynamics with the people I usually encounter at these events has changed and I'm not as thrilled to see them as I once was. I feel like I'd love to save these experiences for sharing with very special people or person. I wish I was of the mind to go by myself to these venues and events, not mind knowing anyone there, and enjoy rolling by myself/with strangers... (Why can't I be like that?) Even though once I'm sober I may decide that those strangers are not worth pursuing friendships with. I don't see the point!! Help.
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Don't see the point, but would like to?
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OnePageMemory
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I was in your position once. I went to a couple events by myself before and I still had a good time but after the last time I didn't see the point because you had no one to talk about those good times with. So now I'd rather go with friends to enjoy those special times and get closer with since we're non stop talking every time we go to events.
Existential consequence
Ummm what? I've never been to an "event" event mind yu, but I always appreciate looking forward to an event with lots of people I dont know that involves music. Relax, look forward to it, and know that you'll meet alot of new people, some of which might become part of your everyday life if you so choose to let them. Its a fact of life, shit happens, so does winning the lottery. Music brings people together, and then they disperse back to their meaningless lives. In a sense the "thump thump" of techno is much like that of the origin of music (an ooga chaka if you will) If the whole world we're to recognize PLURR (and it should now have liberty and freedom so PLLURRF)
Humanity would be united on this whole planet and the earth would come alive at night with music and glowsticks in darkness.
Think about that when you think about ur next rave ur looking forward to
I'm sober
Ummm what? I've never been to an "event" event mind yu, but I always appreciate looking forward to an event with lots of people I dont know that involves music. Relax, look forward to it, and know that you'll meet alot of new people, some of which might become part of your everyday life if you so choose to let them. Its a fact of life, shit happens, so does winning the lottery. Music brings people together, and then they disperse back to their meaningless lives. In a sense the "thump thump" of techno is much like that of the origin of music (an ooga chaka if you will) If the whole world we're to recognize PLURR (and it should now have liberty and freedom so PLLURRF)
Humanity would be united on this whole planet and the earth would come alive at night with music and glowsticks in darkness.
Think about that when you think about ur next rave ur looking forward to
I'm sober
You cant always expect to have an amazing time at the events (drugs or not) some nights the crowd isnt on the same vibe as you etc.
Forget the negative things that happened the last few events - take it as a new experience and go from there.
Forget the negative things that happened the last few events - take it as a new experience and go from there.
MasterSplinter
Bluelighter
Im gettin to old to be rollin at massives...just seems silly these days...
But then ive been raving since nocturnal 06 almost non stop
But then ive been raving since nocturnal 06 almost non stop
It's hard to say precisely why your times aren't as enthusiastic since it could be due to so many reasons, like just a personal lack of motivation, or just how all drugs just seem to lose their initial "magic" the more times you do them. I know someone, who even though he rolled and tripped infrequently, still built up such a sort of lifetime tolerance that he now has to do absurdly high amounts of each just to feel them.
You said you were taking supplements though, and if you are taking 5htp beforehand it could be your problem, since taking it around a week before a roll will aid the experience, but taking it too soon before your roll will supposedly dampen the experience. It seems to make sense too, since 5hpt normalizes seratonin levels, making a quicker recovery from the seratonin flood of rolling, but if it is still active in your system when you try to roll it would make sense that it would keep seratonin levels somewhat balanced, reducing the effects.