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Alcoholism Thread v. A sober life is a good life <3

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Just a regular drinker now, im happy i quit at the right time.
Holland and their drinking laws(you can go to bars at 16)
 
Made myself go and do a couple of things a while ago and feel a bit better now that they're done. Stupid thing is that not doing them would have disadvantaged me but it still took a lot of effort to do them. Better keep an eye on my self esteem levels in the coming days, I think.
 
but you did them :) i hope you dont mind me asking, but whats ur situation? is it alcohol ur struggling with or other substances too....im still taking benzos with alcohol...not good... :( but my cat is sleweping under the cover with me n he is adorable so its gunna be a good nite :P animals are good to talk to...
 
wooger said:
but you did them :) i hope you dont mind me asking, but whats ur situation? is it alcohol ur struggling with or other substances too....im still taking benzos with alcohol...not good... :( but my cat is sleweping under the cover with me n he is adorable so its gunna be a good nite :P animals are good to talk to...
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Alcohol's my demon. It's actually over a year now since I last abused alcohol and I don't really have any urge to drink but there are times when I feel a bit "lost" and this week has been one of them.

I've had a lot of contact in the last couple of weeks with one of my former drinking buddies and I'm not sure to what extent that's influenced my mood. There's also been other stuff going on. I'm trying not to worry too much about feeling out of sorts for a few days but I have bipolar disorder so I do have to set some kind of limit for it and take action if it doesn't pass soon.

The things I'd put off were going to the shop to buy food and getting some painkillers for a toothache. I can't quite work out why I was willing to just have toast for dinner and to put up with unnecessary pain but I know that kind of self-neglect is usually tied up with how I'm feeling about myself.
 
Alcohol is a tricky one..its so easy to get and you should ne so proud how long uve managed to stay away from it... its too easy to make it a first port of call when things dont go quite right so uve done so well by getting rid of the posion :)
how come uve been meeting old people again? i think its easy to see the bad in yourself when you reconnect with friends of the past, especially if ur stuck and trying to realise why ur growing apart and what you need to do to move forwards.

i know everyone recommends this but how do you feel about conselling/how open you would be .... im having counselling at the moment but im still hiding my true self from them... ive heard it can take months to break through the psychological defences we build around ourselves...but maybe its an option for you...how would you feel about somethjing like that?
 
wooger said:
Alcohol is a tricky one..its so easy to get and you should ne so proud how long uve managed to stay away from it... its too easy to make it a first port of call when things dont go quite right so uve done so well by getting rid of the posion :)
how come uve been meeting old people again? i think its easy to see the bad in yourself when you reconnect with friends of the past, especially if ur stuck and trying to realise why ur growing apart and what you need to do to move forwards.

i know everyone recommends this but how do you feel about conselling/how open you would be .... im having counselling at the moment but im still hiding my true self from them... ive heard it can take months to break through the psychological defences we build around ourselves...but maybe its an option for you...how would you feel about somethjing like that?
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I have both a clinical psychologist and a psychiatrist so I have strong resources in the working through shit department. I actually distanced myself from my old drinking buddies before I stopped drinking because I found I was putting all my energy into their dramas and none into my own life, but I think you're right about seeing the bad in yourself.

I also think that I tend to over analyse shit sometimes instead of just accepting that bad days or bad weeks are just a normal part of life and there's no real cause for concern unless they start becoming a regular or prolonged thing.
 
One symptom I've noticed on my 'off days' when I'm not drinking is jaw soreness. I'm currently drinking around 4 days a week, and when I don't drink, my jaw is sore. I'm not sure if it's from teeth clenching (strange symptom, no?) or what.

Just figured I'd see if anyone has experienced the same. Google hasn't been very helpful on this one.
 
wooger said:
i know everyone recommends this but how do you feel about conselling/how open you would be .... im having counselling at the moment but im still hiding my true self from them... ive heard it can take months to break through the psychological defences we build around ourselves...but maybe its an option for you...how would you feel about somethjing like that?
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Hi wooger. I've been going though drug/alc counselling, general counselling, psycs, etc for about exactly 1 year now, and yep I still now don't always tell them everything, but probably after 6 months or something I actually started breaking through with them, not that I can barely remember.
 
i drink about 6-12 beers a day on good days 14+. i havent been sober from alchy for more than three months. will i go into WD if i quit? im on suboxone for my heroin addiction also.
 
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i drink about 6-12 beers a day on good days 14+. i havent been sober from alchy for more than three months. will i go into WD if i quit? im on suboxone for my heroin addiction also.
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I think you really need your doctor's guidance on that one. The suboxone may influence the most appropriate way for you to quit.
 
cut down dose big time, and got down to every other day with the xanax. (drinking every other day or two with the help of the xananx)


drinking now. but told myself these are the final nails in the coffin. Told my friend he can kick me in the balls if I drink after this run. Monday is a new day. ( He has to warn me first, and I get a mulligan)


been doin pretty good over all.. the suicidal idealizations I could do without lol but whatev'. so far so good.

I will beat this bitch.

and stick to GOOD drugs =p =D
 
Day 23... been going to a meeting a day and my program during the day. Feeling really damn good today. Everyday has its ups and downs. Some days have more downs and up but I am really glad I made this decision. I do not have a sponsor yet, I am trying to get a temporary one until I move back home (just to save money). I am going to get a low stress job and stack that paper. Then I am moving back to Chicago or maybe to Madison or Milwaukee. I will be attending Grad school, which is something I could not do while using.

I am now prescribed:

100 mgs of Seroquel before bed (only way to take this med IMO)

8 mgs of Suboxone (4 mg doses AM and PM). I think the Nalextrone also helps. I was using opiates as well.

150 mgs of Wellbutrin 2xs daily

I envy all those that can quit on there own. God knows I tried for fucking years. It took me having a seizure to finally admit that I needed help and could not do it alone.

As for those wondering if they will WD, I still will always recommend a taper to be safe, or go to a doctor. I cold turkeyed everything for the first time and then seized. That seizure very well might have saved my life. It takes a very strong will to beat this stuff and I am nowhere near being stable on my own.

However, I feel so much better. I am a better person without alcohol and drugs in my life because I cannot control my usage at this point (I most likely never will be able too). That is plain and simple.
 
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In a perfect world, i'm not supossed to drink, so I am able to know the full potential of my meds at the moment (zoloft, seroquel, diazepam, etc.). My drug/alc counsellor told me "well realisticly to not drink any more per day than 2 drinks. I cannot ever see this happening.

My current meds perscribed daily are 200mg zoloft, 12.5mg diazepam, and 100mg seroquel. But of course today/tonight have added 6 beers and 360mg codeine to that. And that is a very good day for me 8)
 
So I have started drinking again in a big way. Ever since 2 weeks ago when hooking up with an old friend i've been at his place most days drinking away. It was quite good when I was getting through my uni work and I acknowledged that I was on top of things but it's taken a bit of a turn this week. I've been less and less motivated to do anything.......I also quit my crummy job because I felt so depressed about it.

I can really see now that what I drink and what I eat definitely affects my depression overall. I assumed so a long time ago but I was rather ignorant about it for a long time.

Now what to do.......?
 
^Same ere noonoo. Now that i'm finally on what could be a correct combination of meds, i've finally noticed how much more lower my mood tends to be the day after drinking, and basically had no idea previously for years. But I still drink a little 8)
 
So I had 4 months, I was going to meetings daily, talking with my sponsor and doing what I was supposed to be doing for the most part.

Then I got kinda complacent and wanted to see if I could still drink. So I drank and abused cocaine for 4 days straight, and didn't have much fun. It was brutal to be honest, so I jumped back into the program and am now on day 11. Coming back is hard and fairly embarrassing, but it is what I need to be doing.

I have a job now and am just focusing on that and going to meetings.

To all those struggling, I wish you all the best of luck. Alcohol is more addictive for me than coke or oxy or anything.
 
Ah well, i've basically gone thru a slab of beer in 2 nights now. After waking up with a slight hangover thismorn, which went away after a few hours. And now drunk again. ffs
 
Cyc said:
One symptom I've noticed on my 'off days' when I'm not drinking is jaw soreness. I'm currently drinking around 4 days a week, and when I don't drink, my jaw is sore. I'm not sure if it's from teeth clenching (strange symptom, no?) or what.

Just figured I'd see if anyone has experienced the same. Google hasn't been very helpful on this one.
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I get this as well. I've cut my drinking down to a few beers a day rather than a case. When the alcohol wears off, usually about 5 hours after a drink, I start to feel wd symptoms and I tend to grind my teeth.

I'm not sure what causes the teeth grinding, but perhaps magnesium supplements may help. I think its the anxiety after sobering up from alcohol causing the jaw clenching.
 
Just found this thread. I've always liked alcohol mixed with pot and benzos. But didn't use it much while on methadone which was a lotta yrs. Nearly 2 yrs ago I switched to subs and got a Klonopin script too. The only way I get any kind of buzz at all now is with 6-8oz of vodka along with the benzo. The subs makes it difficult so I tapered down to about .50-.75mg a day. Now I'm drinking most days but usually keep it to about a half pint of 80 proof. Been on this route for about 3-4 mos so I know I'm dependent.... YUK
 
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