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Alcoholism Thread v. A sober life is a good life <3

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^ Hrm, yeah thats me basically all the time Lolie. I'd rather get fucked up and not have an alcohol hangover, cept I always end up on a "bender" which lasts 1-3 weeks and it takes me 1-2 months to get over it 8)
 
Booze is destroying my life

Long story short. I start a new job on monday and I've been stressing about a reference from my last boss. I decided to have two bottles of beer and bam that was it. I been to rehab and AA but can't seem to stop. This bender was only two days so I should be fine for Monday. I've had long periods of sobriety in the past so know I can do it. My housemate has had enough. I took a bag of 20ps from his room to by cider and now he's threatening to move out. I need his rent money to pay my bills this month. Also my family are on the verge of disowning me. One of my friends doesn't think I'm an alcoholic and wants to take me out drinking so he can keep an eye on me. Is this a good idea? I miss the social aspect of going to pubs but I don't think I can handle it. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated
 
got my xanax


didnt drink the first two days


woke up (well, the 3rd time waking up and redosing on Z, 14 hours of sleep later) and I poured a drink... and another... and now another.... thinking methylone and ketamine at a haunted house or three....


not drinking tomorrow though


have a lot of xanax to do it with.. just was afraid to take the MI without drinking first.......



shaun of the deads on next. time to weigh and dose
 
being on bupe has severely affected my ability to drink heavily...guess thats a good thing

and im not using dope either.....

no meetings tho.....
 
phactor said:
Just got pack from the meetings and they are still as weird as ever. Everyone was pretty damn nice though. People were really impressed that I went Detox>meeting>treatment
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You're doing good! This isn't gonna be easy. But nothing worth while ever is.
 
Is it possible to drink yourself immobile

I've been a heavy drinker for about 5 years, so I know my limits. The other night I drank a usual amout. I was talking and walking normally as I left the bar. I walked the couple of blocks home, worked the key in the door to let myself in. As I was climbing the stairs to my 4th floor apartment, I fell and could not get up. My arms and legs would not work.

My very nice neighbor found me face down on the stairs and with the help of another neighbor carried me to my apartment, sat me in a chair, got me a glass of water, and said he'd check on me in 1/2 hour. I got up to close the drapes and fell on the floor and once again could not get up.

I think my neighbor was on the verge of calling 911. I have blacked out, passed out, had tremors from drinking before but never this. I remember the whole thing so I was not unconcious. It scared me so bad I have not had a drink since.
 
blahman8000 said:
Halloween is way more spooky when you're alone and having alcohol withdrawals.
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You are telling me... I was in real shit shape during that time.

I have 18 days sober (from everything) and am currently in a great program in Chicago. It is technically inpatient but we live in apartments and go to a hospital daily for treatment. I literally feel like I have my life back. The first week was terrible, I felt and looked like death. Now I am back on my routine of exercising, attending meetings daily and meditating. Really not thinking about using right now but those times will come. Not sure what the future holds but it is looking much brighter. I got on Suboxone as well (pretty low dose) which is helping tremendously.

The AA meetings in Chicago are so much better then my old town. I have made some critical life decisions as well and will be moving up here when I am done. I cannot continue to work in my job either (they don't know that yet).

Anyways I wish I would have done this sooner but I wasn't ready. This is my third time and I really need this for myself.
 
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I've been a heavy drinker for about 5 years, so I know my limits. The other night I drank a usual amout. I was talking and walking normally as I left the bar. I walked the couple of blocks home, worked the key in the door to let myself in. As I was climbing the stairs to my 4th floor apartment, I fell and could not get up. My arms and legs would not work.

My very nice neighbor found me face down on the stairs and with the help of another neighbor carried me to my apartment, sat me in a chair, got me a glass of water, and said he'd check on me in 1/2 hour. I got up to close the drapes and fell on the floor and once again could not get up.

I think my neighbor was on the verge of calling 911. I have blacked out, passed out, had tremors from drinking before but never this. I remember the whole thing so I was not unconcious. It scared me so bad I have not had a drink since.
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Sounds like a seizure maybe?
 
Glad to hear your doing good phactor. Sometimes rehab/continued living can be a freeing thing. Not to mention a different environment/sober people and quitting your job. Good deal.

peace.
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Hey, just wondering if any1 around this thread has been or is perscribed seroquel and if it has changed their drinking? Today I just got perscribed 100mg seroquel for the afternoon and night, kinda to get off my diazepam which i'm supposed to mainly take in the morning (not with the serquel) and for it to go with my 200mg zoloft daily.

Anyways I had a dose of 50mg seroquel at 3 thisarvo, then opened a beer at 4pm, and could only drink that 1 single beer cos of being put on my arse by the seroquel. I had the other half of my dose about an hour ago and am drinking beers again now along with some codeine, so maybe its just cos I don't have a tollerance to the sedative effects of the seroquel yet.
 
fivelinefury said:
Hey, just wondering if any1 around this thread has been or is perscribed seroquel and if it has changed their drinking? Today I just got perscribed 100mg seroquel for the afternoon and night, kinda to get off my diazepam which i'm supposed to mainly take in the morning (not with the serquel) and for it to go with my 200mg zoloft daily.

Anyways I had a dose of 50mg seroquel at 3 thisarvo, then opened a beer at 4pm, and could only drink that 1 single beer cos of being put on my arse by the seroquel. I had the other half of my dose about an hour ago and am drinking beers again now along with some codeine, so maybe its just cos I don't have a tollerance to the sedative effects of the seroquel yet.
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seroquel willl intesify / KO you out when you are first put on. 200mg is a decent dose to start - i couldn't drink on the stuff bro.
 
^Yup ya right there m8. Have only had 3 beers when it started to KO me. Had 240mg codeine also. I just stupidly had a splif a few minutes ago (i'm barely ever smoke weed), hence the reason i'm feeling more and more fucked up by the second haha. Don't think i'll drink anymore tonight now
 
Yep. I pretty much lost the urge to drink after I was put on Seroquel for bipolar disorder. My psych says that other patients have reported the same thing. It's why I say that I never actually intended to stop abusing alcohol, it just happened as a side effect of getting my bipolar disorder under control.

The few times I have drunk since taking Seroquel the experience has been a bit weird. It's not a nasty feeling in any way but it's not a feeling that I'd actively pursue either and I've often found myself opening a drink and not even finishing it (this coming from a woman who used to drink until all the booze was gone and there was no way of obtaining more).

And the sedative effects of Seroquel will taper off in time - which I found a pity because I kind of liked them. It doesn't mean it's not working anymore just that your body's become used to them.

Seroquel's available in an XR version, which might be more appropriate if it's being used for tapering you off benzos.
 
fivelinefury said:
^ Thanks Lolie. Yeah I know what you mean by that feeling along with alc.
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One thing which I did discover when I was researching the shit out of Seroquel is that although it has some useful side effects in relation to substance abuse, its risk profile is considered too high for it to be prescribed for that use alone.
 
captaincaveman said:
Long story short. I start a new job on monday and I've been stressing about a reference from my last boss. I decided to have two bottles of beer and bam that was it. I been to rehab and AA but can't seem to stop. This bender was only two days so I should be fine for Monday. I've had long periods of sobriety in the past so know I can do it. My housemate has had enough. I took a bag of 20ps from his room to by cider and now he's threatening to move out. I need his rent money to pay my bills this month. Also my family are on the verge of disowning me. One of my friends doesn't think I'm an alcoholic and wants to take me out drinking so he can keep an eye on me. Is this a good idea? I miss the social aspect of going to pubs but I don't think I can handle it. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated
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No one else replied so I guess I'll have a crack...

First off, from what you've said, it's pretty clear that you actually are an alcoholic so unless you have the self control to go to a bar and not drink, I'd avoid that like the plague. I'll bet my car that if you do go to the bar with your mate, you'll end up totally drunk off your ass. You know a whole lot more about your own condition than your mate does so do not go to the pub with him. It will no doubt be very easy to rationalise reasons why you should do it - 'hey, maybe I'm NOT an alcoholic and I just need a good drinking buddy' etc. Take a step back and take an objective look at your own past behaviour to assess if you actually are an alcoholic - don't let your friend mis-diagnose you!

Sounds like you're in a shitty situation with your housemate. I've been there. My only suggestion would be to sit down with him/her, apologise and let them know you have a plan to prevent this sort of thing from happening again. At the end of the day, if they decide to move out, it's not in your control and will be a danger of triggering a relapse for you. If they do go, understand there's nothing you can do to turn the clock back so don't 'punish' yourself by going on a bender.

As for your job; it sounds like you already have it lined up so why do you need a reference from your old boss? I've been in situations where I've had to get a reference and the 'higher ups' haven't had the best impression of me but have always found a solution. There's always been at least a good few people who I was good mates with who said they'd give me a reference. E.g. the executive director of my team in my previous job probably wouldn't give me a good reference but my old line manager (who is only a year older than me and a good mate) said he'd gladly tell any company anything I wanted them to. Is there anyone like a supervisor or line manager who could 'act' as your boss if you really need a reference?

More generally, I'd look on this new job as a good chance to wipe the slate clean and set your booze timer back to zero. You said you know you can do long stints of non-drinking so do it now, excel at your job, save your cash and start to build back your self-esteem.

Good luck!
 
I'm feeling very ambivalent about my sobriety today and also about my bipolar disorder being under control. I don't have any reckless urge to go off my meds or go get shit-faced, but the background contentment I was feeling about my moods being stable and not abusing alcohol seems to have vanished over the last week.
 
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