McToothless
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Whats up people, long time reader first time poster.
Well I come here to ask for your help. I have had my fair share of drug taking but nothing like this.
My GF took 45mg of klonopin in 2 days and started going nuts, she was a recovered addict but went to the doc's and couldnt say no, I also kicked her out cuz i cant have that stuff around me cuz I used to have a drug problem myself.
Anyways, she returns a week later. So this girl walks in and looks like hell, and is still acting funny but seems sorta back to reality. Long story short, I start figuring some shit out, like how she tried H too (I dont know how she didnt die). One day I got a hunch, maybe she did something stupid cuz she was on all of those. So I question her and manipulate her into a confession about how she cheated, but doesnt remember, ew. She only remembers falling off the bed, a car ride, and eating chicken, supposedly. She cried and and cried and I kicked her out.
[EDIT]
Sorry guys, I typed this late at night and it came out confusing, so i'll clarify. I also meant to put "cheated on me, oh boy" at the end of my forum title but it came out wrong. I was that stressed, tired, pissed and confused.
You apologized hyrdo, so I forgive. Weeds the only "drug" I still use, wish i had some dro, sadly I only got headies.
Its fine, you guys dont have to apologize for other peoples post. People just like to fuck around and joke, thats fine, just human nature I guess and I actually found humor in some.
I never used benzos because my main thing was H, and I heard of people dying off benzos when mixed with H, which seemed stupid to me, H alone was good enough for me. I guess I always sort of dismissed them and didnt care for them, so although I have seen people take em and heard stories, I never gave a fuck to learn about them or try them. I guess what I'm getting at is that in my mind I tell myself, I never cheated on people when I was on H, even though I was really fucked up. So thats why I think, is 45mg really an excuse? I know they make people fucked up, but I never cared enough to try them. So when my girl got on them i was like WTF? She would act rediculous, I told her to cut the shit, Im clean now, and nows the time you decide to try drugs? It would have been OK if she could have handled them, but she couldnt, it got crazy. I gave her more than enough chances, and she went and got em again, that was the last straw. I told her get the fuck out, come back when your clean, and this is your last strike. So shes gone for a week, calls me but I ignore most of her calls, the ones I picked up she was just nuts sounding. Long story short, when she came home I just kept getting odd feelings and manipulated her into admitting she cheated when on the kpins, but only did it cuz she was "fucked up" and couldnt remember much, so I kicked her out more so for the cheating. She was actually home sober for 2 weeks after her "binge" before ideas sparked in my head. Im cutting this as short as possible cuz I can go on and on, but in the end i got her to admit certain things, I dont know how she survived doing dope on all of that, it must of been all cut or fake, i dunno. The fact is when she told me she cheated her only excuse to me was "i was fucked up" but then remembered a few details like how the guy was trying to make her eat a bucket of chicken wings, the car ride, falling off the dudes bed. It seemed she was more concious about the situation than she was making it seem, but I dunno. I am positive she took 45mg in two days, her friend witnessed it, and also witnessed her not knowing wtf she was doing. Its just I'm stuck, I dont know whether to think she was taken advantage of, or if she meant to do it, even being fucked up. Thats why I ask you guys about these pills, cuz I dont know them well enough. Her friend tells me she cries for me all the time, and she cried when she admitted, I know she regretted it, but I didnt give a fuck. Just to put the story into clearer terms for anyone who cares. Do I take her back? Shes loyal when she's sober, she stays clean for periods and then relapses> So thats why I ask, do I forgive her for the cheating, and take her back if she proves to me she can stay clean? Or is not being that fucked up an excuse to cheat. I also dont want her dying one day cuz she takes all these and then tries to find H, its scary. I call her doc but the doc still gives em to her, I dont know why. If she cleans up do I forgive her, and can I trust her again since she only cheated when she was that fucked up? how long would 45mg kept her fucked for anyways?
Its that serious of a question guys, cuz shes homeless cuz of all this, a 5 year relationship is on the verge of collapsing forever, and I dont know what to do.
Well I come here to ask for your help. I have had my fair share of drug taking but nothing like this.
My GF took 45mg of klonopin in 2 days and started going nuts, she was a recovered addict but went to the doc's and couldnt say no, I also kicked her out cuz i cant have that stuff around me cuz I used to have a drug problem myself.
Anyways, she returns a week later. So this girl walks in and looks like hell, and is still acting funny but seems sorta back to reality. Long story short, I start figuring some shit out, like how she tried H too (I dont know how she didnt die). One day I got a hunch, maybe she did something stupid cuz she was on all of those. So I question her and manipulate her into a confession about how she cheated, but doesnt remember, ew. She only remembers falling off the bed, a car ride, and eating chicken, supposedly. She cried and and cried and I kicked her out.
[EDIT]
Sorry guys, I typed this late at night and it came out confusing, so i'll clarify. I also meant to put "cheated on me, oh boy" at the end of my forum title but it came out wrong. I was that stressed, tired, pissed and confused.
You apologized hyrdo, so I forgive. Weeds the only "drug" I still use, wish i had some dro, sadly I only got headies.
Its fine, you guys dont have to apologize for other peoples post. People just like to fuck around and joke, thats fine, just human nature I guess and I actually found humor in some.
I never used benzos because my main thing was H, and I heard of people dying off benzos when mixed with H, which seemed stupid to me, H alone was good enough for me. I guess I always sort of dismissed them and didnt care for them, so although I have seen people take em and heard stories, I never gave a fuck to learn about them or try them. I guess what I'm getting at is that in my mind I tell myself, I never cheated on people when I was on H, even though I was really fucked up. So thats why I think, is 45mg really an excuse? I know they make people fucked up, but I never cared enough to try them. So when my girl got on them i was like WTF? She would act rediculous, I told her to cut the shit, Im clean now, and nows the time you decide to try drugs? It would have been OK if she could have handled them, but she couldnt, it got crazy. I gave her more than enough chances, and she went and got em again, that was the last straw. I told her get the fuck out, come back when your clean, and this is your last strike. So shes gone for a week, calls me but I ignore most of her calls, the ones I picked up she was just nuts sounding. Long story short, when she came home I just kept getting odd feelings and manipulated her into admitting she cheated when on the kpins, but only did it cuz she was "fucked up" and couldnt remember much, so I kicked her out more so for the cheating. She was actually home sober for 2 weeks after her "binge" before ideas sparked in my head. Im cutting this as short as possible cuz I can go on and on, but in the end i got her to admit certain things, I dont know how she survived doing dope on all of that, it must of been all cut or fake, i dunno. The fact is when she told me she cheated her only excuse to me was "i was fucked up" but then remembered a few details like how the guy was trying to make her eat a bucket of chicken wings, the car ride, falling off the dudes bed. It seemed she was more concious about the situation than she was making it seem, but I dunno. I am positive she took 45mg in two days, her friend witnessed it, and also witnessed her not knowing wtf she was doing. Its just I'm stuck, I dont know whether to think she was taken advantage of, or if she meant to do it, even being fucked up. Thats why I ask you guys about these pills, cuz I dont know them well enough. Her friend tells me she cries for me all the time, and she cried when she admitted, I know she regretted it, but I didnt give a fuck. Just to put the story into clearer terms for anyone who cares. Do I take her back? Shes loyal when she's sober, she stays clean for periods and then relapses> So thats why I ask, do I forgive her for the cheating, and take her back if she proves to me she can stay clean? Or is not being that fucked up an excuse to cheat. I also dont want her dying one day cuz she takes all these and then tries to find H, its scary. I call her doc but the doc still gives em to her, I dont know why. If she cleans up do I forgive her, and can I trust her again since she only cheated when she was that fucked up? how long would 45mg kept her fucked for anyways?
Its that serious of a question guys, cuz shes homeless cuz of all this, a 5 year relationship is on the verge of collapsing forever, and I dont know what to do.
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