hi there
It's been 4 months since i'm living a nightmare. on 21 june i had some friends invited at my place to have some fun trying this new stuff 2CEE and smoking some hash. I've never had till then any experience with psihidelics and i thought it will just give me some visuals, we'll have some fun and the effects will go. Problem was that i was really scared and paranoid before taking the drug because my mom caught me 2 weeks ago smoking weed in my room and i was really panicked that she might come by surprise at any time. So i was not in a good mood before taking the pill ( 27 mg) and probably that's why i couldn't enjoy it . During the trip i had no visual because i was too scared and i was moving from one room to another not finding the perfect spot to just clear my mind from this obsessive thought. Besides that, i was also scared by a possible phone from my gf who is against drugs. For like 3 or 4 hours i had my phone disconnected but i could not relax and forget about possible phone calls so i turn on my cell and i freaked out seeing a message from my gf that she was looking for me and saying that she is coming over to my place to see what's going on. when she came over to my place i started to act like i was having a bad trip despite i was alright and i kept telling her that somehow i can't think, like half my brain was frozen(i lied to her telling that i took a pill to study harder and it's having bad side effects). No visual effects but and after she left i felt like not finding my character anymore, like losing myself among all those states(the real me, the one who was acting and the one on drug). I didn't sleep well that night and next day when i went to college something odd happened. While my classmates were talking (i was having an exam) and joking, i was practically so blocked i didn't know what to say and start thinking how these people can find these words and how do they manage to control their thoughts. After this day i could not sleep 8 nights and then got into some kind of depression that i don't know how to socialize anymore, what to speak and when to do it even with my friends. I usually don't say anything just stay and watch what's going on and wait to become what i used to be. Does anybody know how can i get out of this state or if i am going to be again like i used to, cause i don't find the answer. Do you know any other cases and if you know how did they manage to escape. I asked for professional help also but all that medication has no god damn effect. Please help me
It's been 4 months since i'm living a nightmare. on 21 june i had some friends invited at my place to have some fun trying this new stuff 2CEE and smoking some hash. I've never had till then any experience with psihidelics and i thought it will just give me some visuals, we'll have some fun and the effects will go. Problem was that i was really scared and paranoid before taking the drug because my mom caught me 2 weeks ago smoking weed in my room and i was really panicked that she might come by surprise at any time. So i was not in a good mood before taking the pill ( 27 mg) and probably that's why i couldn't enjoy it . During the trip i had no visual because i was too scared and i was moving from one room to another not finding the perfect spot to just clear my mind from this obsessive thought. Besides that, i was also scared by a possible phone from my gf who is against drugs. For like 3 or 4 hours i had my phone disconnected but i could not relax and forget about possible phone calls so i turn on my cell and i freaked out seeing a message from my gf that she was looking for me and saying that she is coming over to my place to see what's going on. when she came over to my place i started to act like i was having a bad trip despite i was alright and i kept telling her that somehow i can't think, like half my brain was frozen(i lied to her telling that i took a pill to study harder and it's having bad side effects). No visual effects but and after she left i felt like not finding my character anymore, like losing myself among all those states(the real me, the one who was acting and the one on drug). I didn't sleep well that night and next day when i went to college something odd happened. While my classmates were talking (i was having an exam) and joking, i was practically so blocked i didn't know what to say and start thinking how these people can find these words and how do they manage to control their thoughts. After this day i could not sleep 8 nights and then got into some kind of depression that i don't know how to socialize anymore, what to speak and when to do it even with my friends. I usually don't say anything just stay and watch what's going on and wait to become what i used to be. Does anybody know how can i get out of this state or if i am going to be again like i used to, cause i don't find the answer. Do you know any other cases and if you know how did they manage to escape. I asked for professional help also but all that medication has no god damn effect. Please help me