Captaindammit
Bluelighter
My brain is still a little scrambled from last night, so i may add more stuff as I remember it.
I took 2 hits of some kool aid man blotter that i got from a friend that had two sheets straight from a cook. This was taken in my room by myself, but most of the trip itself was spent outside staring at the stars. I took it alone because I have never had a problem with "going with the flow" with psychedelics and didn't want to be bothered by anyone else.
I have been searching for acid for a good year or so now until I ran into an old buddy of mine. He hooked me up with a lot of free blotter. Anyway... Around 11pm I took two hits. I kept them under my tongue for about 15-20 mins and kind of rotated and swirled them around in there and then swallowed them. It took about half an hour to feel effects. I had not eaten all day.
I was in a pretty good mood. I was so excited to finally try acid. When it started kicking in my limbs felt so warm inside. It was like they were radiating warmth from the bones. It was so nice. And the middle of my chest was tingling with an exciting yet anxious feeling. The body load was a lot more intense than I thought it'd be. My leg ached and I had a headache. I keep giggling. Everything is oddly amusing and I'm so happy!
Now, I was expecting to see swirling colors and walls dripping. It was nothing like that. The first really trippy thing that I saw was there was an almost neon green light shining on my door but nothing in the house could've possibly made that happen. I found this really amusing and stared it for awhile. The walls start to wabble. All my walls and doors look like water! They are slightly swaying like how water does at a lake. Now everything starts to breath. The walls expand and compress some. My dog won't leave my side and is following me which is odd.
I went and sat on the couch and looked at the portraits of my brothers. Its like I could see under their skin and I was looking at their skulls and their flesh kind of evaporated away. Leaving only a thin layer of skin. Weird, I thought.
It feels like my feelings are really amplified. Things that upset me bring a real sense of terror and things that make me happy made me REALLY happy. I could see how one would have a bad trip if they let it take them over. You just gotta go with the flow %) let the drugs show you what you need to see is how I looked at it.
I decide to go outside to stare at the stars for awhile. My god they are so beautiful. I look at the stars every night, but on acid there are so many more and they are so much brighter. Its like I'm wearing those cheap red and blue 3d glasses, every star has a red/blue/greenish halo around it. This is really where I start to think about my life. My brain is thinking so much. Not as much as on morning glory, but its all over the place.. Here is what stood out:
I am lonely as fuck. In school I was the guy everyone knew and I could walk up to any group of people and know someone from the group and talk with them. I was really out going and talkative and got along with everyone. But since high school ended I really don't have any desire to be around anyone. I crave human interaction but when I get it, I can't fucking stand it and want to leave and go home right away. People just annoy the piss out of me now.
I have no real friends anymore because of this. It has gotten a lot worse lately, I deleted my myspace&facebook because they are stupid and I feel like a retard for having one. There are people I talk to, but I only keep it over texts. Mostly tweakers from my old meth days. I haven't made any new friends since high school ended 4 years ago.. The desire is there... I just can't connect with people anymore - I don't know what to say to them.
My brain is dissecting my thoughts at this point. From losing both of my brothers and my first love, and having parents that I hate. To how I am busting my ass at work for minimum wage. When the same job at other stores pays 3 dollars more per hour. I am just not happy with anything in my life. I have no desire for drugs even anymore and haven't for a long time because of how easily I get carried away with them.
Everything we do on this world seems so pointless. I am however feeling connected to everything. But I'm not sure what it is that connects everything. Everything is so distracting. I would pick up my phone and start texting or get on the computer and it seemed like the trip was put on hold and reality came back.
I put on my favorite song. I can hear every sound differently. Every stroke on an instrument sounds much more clear and lyrics and tone have a new purpose. I decide to go back inside and watch Natural Born Killers. (amazing on acid btw) I turned it off midway because I can't help but stare at the wall. It looks like there are streaks of water all over it. Like how rain looks on your car when its raining. I notice the floor... my carpet has crop circles all over it! I get on my hands and knees and just marvel at its beauty.
I have a crazy idea of smoking 10x salvia at this point. I load a fatass bowl and cash it in one hit. I'm completely gone into another world. Everything is upside down and sideways. I'm hearing a voice. It's my mom talking to my dog. Or is it? How could she be... never mind. I hear my dog running across the room but he is sleeping on his bed. My trip is back in full effect. The peak had just ended before I smoked the salvia.
I wake him up and take him on a walk. I'm getting really paranoid because my footsteps are echoing really loud. It sounds like I have huge shoes on and I'm stomping down a big empty hallway. I ended up only walking down my street and back home because I thought someone was going to call the police from my loud footsteps (this was at like 2 or 3am).
I saw a ton of stuff flashing out of the corners of my eyes. I'd see a bright orangish light and look over and there would be nothing there. There were other visuals such as shapes that appeared to be stacked on top of each other overlapping. They weren't part of the paint on the walls but it looked like something being projected onto them. I would wave my hand and a trail would be left behind trying to catch up.
Overall it was a very humbling and enlightening experience. Since I first started trying drugs it has been a life goal to fry on acid. I have real problems with addiction.. Meth, painkillers, and DXM, struggled with them all over the years. I worry now that I can buy as much as I want that LSD will be no different. Nothing in my life has ever made me feel as good as the happiness and acceptance drugs have brought in my life. They have always been there when I needed them and will always be.
I took 2 hits of some kool aid man blotter that i got from a friend that had two sheets straight from a cook. This was taken in my room by myself, but most of the trip itself was spent outside staring at the stars. I took it alone because I have never had a problem with "going with the flow" with psychedelics and didn't want to be bothered by anyone else.
I have been searching for acid for a good year or so now until I ran into an old buddy of mine. He hooked me up with a lot of free blotter. Anyway... Around 11pm I took two hits. I kept them under my tongue for about 15-20 mins and kind of rotated and swirled them around in there and then swallowed them. It took about half an hour to feel effects. I had not eaten all day.
I was in a pretty good mood. I was so excited to finally try acid. When it started kicking in my limbs felt so warm inside. It was like they were radiating warmth from the bones. It was so nice. And the middle of my chest was tingling with an exciting yet anxious feeling. The body load was a lot more intense than I thought it'd be. My leg ached and I had a headache. I keep giggling. Everything is oddly amusing and I'm so happy!
Now, I was expecting to see swirling colors and walls dripping. It was nothing like that. The first really trippy thing that I saw was there was an almost neon green light shining on my door but nothing in the house could've possibly made that happen. I found this really amusing and stared it for awhile. The walls start to wabble. All my walls and doors look like water! They are slightly swaying like how water does at a lake. Now everything starts to breath. The walls expand and compress some. My dog won't leave my side and is following me which is odd.
I went and sat on the couch and looked at the portraits of my brothers. Its like I could see under their skin and I was looking at their skulls and their flesh kind of evaporated away. Leaving only a thin layer of skin. Weird, I thought.
It feels like my feelings are really amplified. Things that upset me bring a real sense of terror and things that make me happy made me REALLY happy. I could see how one would have a bad trip if they let it take them over. You just gotta go with the flow %) let the drugs show you what you need to see is how I looked at it.
I decide to go outside to stare at the stars for awhile. My god they are so beautiful. I look at the stars every night, but on acid there are so many more and they are so much brighter. Its like I'm wearing those cheap red and blue 3d glasses, every star has a red/blue/greenish halo around it. This is really where I start to think about my life. My brain is thinking so much. Not as much as on morning glory, but its all over the place.. Here is what stood out:
I am lonely as fuck. In school I was the guy everyone knew and I could walk up to any group of people and know someone from the group and talk with them. I was really out going and talkative and got along with everyone. But since high school ended I really don't have any desire to be around anyone. I crave human interaction but when I get it, I can't fucking stand it and want to leave and go home right away. People just annoy the piss out of me now.
I have no real friends anymore because of this. It has gotten a lot worse lately, I deleted my myspace&facebook because they are stupid and I feel like a retard for having one. There are people I talk to, but I only keep it over texts. Mostly tweakers from my old meth days. I haven't made any new friends since high school ended 4 years ago.. The desire is there... I just can't connect with people anymore - I don't know what to say to them.
My brain is dissecting my thoughts at this point. From losing both of my brothers and my first love, and having parents that I hate. To how I am busting my ass at work for minimum wage. When the same job at other stores pays 3 dollars more per hour. I am just not happy with anything in my life. I have no desire for drugs even anymore and haven't for a long time because of how easily I get carried away with them.
Everything we do on this world seems so pointless. I am however feeling connected to everything. But I'm not sure what it is that connects everything. Everything is so distracting. I would pick up my phone and start texting or get on the computer and it seemed like the trip was put on hold and reality came back.
I put on my favorite song. I can hear every sound differently. Every stroke on an instrument sounds much more clear and lyrics and tone have a new purpose. I decide to go back inside and watch Natural Born Killers. (amazing on acid btw) I turned it off midway because I can't help but stare at the wall. It looks like there are streaks of water all over it. Like how rain looks on your car when its raining. I notice the floor... my carpet has crop circles all over it! I get on my hands and knees and just marvel at its beauty.
I have a crazy idea of smoking 10x salvia at this point. I load a fatass bowl and cash it in one hit. I'm completely gone into another world. Everything is upside down and sideways. I'm hearing a voice. It's my mom talking to my dog. Or is it? How could she be... never mind. I hear my dog running across the room but he is sleeping on his bed. My trip is back in full effect. The peak had just ended before I smoked the salvia.
I wake him up and take him on a walk. I'm getting really paranoid because my footsteps are echoing really loud. It sounds like I have huge shoes on and I'm stomping down a big empty hallway. I ended up only walking down my street and back home because I thought someone was going to call the police from my loud footsteps (this was at like 2 or 3am).
I saw a ton of stuff flashing out of the corners of my eyes. I'd see a bright orangish light and look over and there would be nothing there. There were other visuals such as shapes that appeared to be stacked on top of each other overlapping. They weren't part of the paint on the walls but it looked like something being projected onto them. I would wave my hand and a trail would be left behind trying to catch up.
Overall it was a very humbling and enlightening experience. Since I first started trying drugs it has been a life goal to fry on acid. I have real problems with addiction.. Meth, painkillers, and DXM, struggled with them all over the years. I worry now that I can buy as much as I want that LSD will be no different. Nothing in my life has ever made me feel as good as the happiness and acceptance drugs have brought in my life. They have always been there when I needed them and will always be.
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