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Haven't been on for awhile update on my life!

ShAYZoN

ShAYZoN

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So I've been sober for 2 1/2 months drank like once in that period of time. I thought by quiting drugs I would be cured of my depersonlization and dissociation and my anxiety issues... But to my fucking amazement it's still here! It won't go away and it is beg. To scare me.. I just wanna feel like I'm in my body.. I feel like I can't connect with things, take for instance we got a new kitten and when I play with it or pet it I feel like I'm not connecting with it... I know that might not make sense.

I just wanna figure out what the problem is with my mind. Also my anxiety has gotten better but t used to be pretty bad.. I just don't know anymore.

Anyone with some responses would be helpful please!!
 
Yeh we need more info in general how long did you use and what? If you have interconnected addictions over time please list them. Sounds like extreme apathy and paws.
 
Well it's possible you've done permanent neurological damage, but there's no way of knowing for sure, 2 and a half months feels like an eternity after getting clean, but I would say you'd need to give at least 6 months to feel confident in knowing that your brain has gone back to normal as much as it will.

I mean the obviously answer is to go see a doctor, things like that are pretty common symptoms of certain mental illnesses and maybe there is some kind of medication which can help fix it.

At the end of the day, once a person has gotten past like year one of their habit, things have swung so that the lows far outweigh the highs and its just a fools game to continue with.

It's a way better life ultimately I think to face problems without the fog of drugs than to keep abusing yourself on and on even though you're getting less and less out of it.
 
"Sounds like early stages of schizophrenia to me. "

possible but doubtful imo, you can have thses "non connecting," unreality feelings without developing schizophrenia. I think the OP mentions depersonlsation etc.. this can be triggered by stress, drug abuse especially weed,e's and the like.It might be temp or possibly permanent, i hope not, wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy
 
Depersonalization can be a result of hypervigilance due to Panic Disorder and constant anxiety...both of which have been key triggers each time I've relapsed on anything. After months of sobriety I always seem to cave because I figure," I don't feel much better so why keep trying." The problem is, each time I give in my condition becomes worse ten-fold.

I might not be one to talk, but maybe instead of becoming frustrated by the fact you don't feel much better, if you focus on the fact that you have avoided doing worse, you'll eventually find that you have gotten closer to the old you without even realizing it.
 
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