Benzos Taken 40mg Roche Valium - now for vodka

[Benzopioid]

Feeling a bit down in the dumps today, although i have experience in benzos in different ways that i cant go into other than to use the word "a provider", i dont have much experience in taking them myself regulary. Although i do have alot of experience with opioids, tramadol being my fave. Love um.

Ive probably taken vallies around 4 times, the first time i had ever taken, i took 6x10mg manos, crushed up them & rizla parachuted/bombed um. I was fucked for 24 hours, stumbling out my mind like an idiot. I ended up cutting up a load of my girlfriends clothes and just turned into this crazed lunatic. I rang a family member of hers saying what a cunt she was and the shitty things she had done to me, and i honestly dont remember doing it, i was total blackout, and ive lost a good relationship with this person through it.

i was feeling angry before i took them at that time, which is why i probably acted in the way i did whilst on them, its all about the frame of mind your in before you take a drug that leads to the outcome of how your going to feel whilst on them.

moving on, ive dropped 4x10mg roche an hour ago and dont really feel too much yet, heavy relaxed eyes and not caring about things that normally bother me, the manos/diaz felt alot stronger last time at 60mg. Ive got some vodka downstairs and gonna do a few shots, its only 2oclock in the afternoon, but im kinda in a "fuck it" i dont want to face the day sober today, too much on my mind. i need a blackout.

anyway, im gonna let you all know what happens later as time progresses, moving anything in my room that could cause me injury should i take a fall or something. I dont really want to do this, but its already started now and im seeing it though,

gonna get twisted, also adding a few shots of vodka.

any comments highly appreciated

 

[Acidtek]

Be carefull mate, deadly combo!

 

[acid_staind]

i was feeling angry before i took them at that time, which is why i probably acted in the way i did whilst on them, its all about the frame of mind your in before you take a drug that leads to the outcome of how your going to feel whilst on them.

you say this and "Feeling a bit down in the dumps today", "im kinda in a "fuck it" i don't want to face the day sober today". while that is different than angry it's still a negative state of mind to be in when mixing drugs. esp ones that you know will cause you bad behavior.

i don't see what good could come from a blackout on a benzo/alcohol combo? in your current state of mind that is just asking for trouble.

 

[Benzopioid]

just stood up for fitst time in an hour to get the vodka from downstairs and it hit me, vals r definetly hitting me now. i feel light on my feet like im walking zero grazity, but as the same time im walking heavy/jelly from keeping my balance. Its a strange combo.

bout to take my fitst neat shot of voday (37.5% smirnoff) gonna go for 50ml, and work my way up. Room is a mess, should clean it soon, dont want to be falling over shit and knocking my arse out.....here goes first shot...

 

[Benzopioid]

urgh, wish i had sambuca, neat vod is nasty!

 

[roadkill barbie]

firstlygreat advice from the 2 Acid posters,, respect.. So anyway - if thats your experience of valium,,, god knows why you;d want to take them again,, at least stick with 40mg huh? Because trust me valium and sprits dont mix well,,, especially if you've a low tolerance... To be honest I dont know many who'd do that kinda stuff after valium,, it's a godsend for me as I have an anxiety disorder,, so even heavy doses just chill me the fuck out enough to not start panicking around people and sweating - but for most others it just puts them to sleep,, even if on the way to sleep they start slurring their words,, but vodka in your case sounds like an anger potentiator,, so maybe prove me wrong and enjoy a few drinks and your valium and laugh at the daftness of life,c'mon things could be a shitload worse huh?,, and instead of getting angry at others or yourself remember this whole life thing is "just a ride",,, so why bother spoiling anothers ride just because your wasted... Pretty much all Benzo deaths and problems start as a result of mixing them with booze mate,, so be carefull buddy.
I canht preach too much mate as I had a few cans of cider last night with a few valium,, just really as a bit-part in chewing on 240mg of Extended release dihydrocodeine and a plug of 100mg tramado9l and 90mg Instant release dihydrocodeine... That in itself wasnt enough so I ate the grounds of 3 poppy pods which did it for me and after a bit of sleep I'm quite happily mixing sorting out an assignment, chatting to friends and then goin on a nice nod,,, life's sweet.. It was the pods that did it - but I must stress my tolerance levels are sky high and I'm trying to get rid of my supply quickly as I start Narcotics Anonymous tomorow,, but back to what you were sayin,, just try and enjoy the experience,, cuz if all your gettin off it is anger or indifference whats the point? I'm not sure I agree with your point about what you get out of it is based on where you were at before taking,,, I mean I'd agree 100% with psychadelics like acid and shrooms- but valium and maybe a few beers max can send me from highly strung out and anxious to pretty calm and collected- for me valiums more a medication than a drug like the opiate problem I got is,, but anyway remember benzo's and large amounts of alchohol are really a bad mix mate -enjoy your ride mate,, and try and do things that potentiate what your feeling,,, perhaps look at your music collection for the perfect album to put on or watch a funny movie,,peace out bro

 

[acid_staind]

be safe. you stated the diazepam is working good now. so why the need for alcohol too?

so you will likely achieve your desire to blackout. but why? that wont fix your problems. i'm not trying to be all preachy but seriously this combo could also be deadly.

i would also like to add, the last time i did this combo lorazepam and vodka i ended up in the loony bin for 3 weeks. after blacking out and tearing up my girlfriends house i then locked myself in the bathroom with a knife, cut the shit out of my arms and was threatening to kill myself. and i was in a good mood and had a great week before this episode.

i'm not a person who would normally try to persuade someones actions but i feel inclined to do so in this case because of the above experience.

i just can not fathom why someone would intentionally do this to themselves? if you need something for feeling in the dumps there are much more enjoyable and safer drug combos.

 

[sockpuppet]

A bad idea on a forum filled with bad ideas. Pointless and dangerous.

Try not to hurt yourself or others....

 

[Benzopioid]

i just conked the fuck out for hours, not happy, i wanted to remain concious and feel mangled.

time to start again, dropping 2 more vallies and starting on the vodka again, need summet to eat first, woke up with the worst hunger, and dry sandpaper tongue.

 

[phatass]

40mg diazepam isn't huge, but i strongly advise you to go easy on the vodka... you'll have the impression that you got things in control when in fact you dont

stay safe

 

[Benzopioid]

60mg in - 3 shots of vodka (150ml), not fucked yet. seems to be when i stand up it kicks in. dare not stand up just yet.

 

[dcraver877]

try going for a walk....your tolerance goes up naturally when you get fucked up in the same setting all the time. Change up your setting and you will see how fucked you truly are.

go buy some candy at your local 7-11. if you aren't stumbling everywhere i'd be surprised...

 

[boughtthetshirt]

imo totaly retarted combo......attenion screaming it seems and it sounds like u should know a lot better!just my 2.

 

[Benzopioid]

at dcraver yeh eatin choclate at the moment, dont know wh if u no wst a twix is british chocloate, but it tasted amazing. deffo kickin in now. yeh just got fresh air, hittin me hard now. mo no not an, attention seeking i just felt like needed do dis 2day, havin relationship prob n tryin to block in out.

mum know im fucked, slurred speach n what not this isn't a regular fing, been layin on floor 4 past 10 mins, dont feel like being high up on my bed. will take 1 more n few more shots than callin it a night,

i like working out, but def not got motivation at the moment, will be fine 2moz guys fanx 4 concern, keep yaz al update, but chances are in conking out within nxt couple of hours.

 

[Benzopioid]

70mg in now btw.

 

[BaybeX]

This needs to be closed.

We're not here to help you get fucked up.. and you don't need to keep bumping your own thread updating us every time you take a shot. Stay safe.

 

[lostsoul.On.E]

at dcraver yeh eatin choclate at the moment, dont know wh if u no wst a twix is british chocloate, but it tasted amazing. deffo kickin in now. yeh just got fresh air, hittin me hard now. mo no not an, attention seeking i just felt like needed do dis 2day, havin relationship prob n tryin to block in out.

mum know im fucked, slurred speach n what not this isn't a regular fing, been layin on floor 4 past 10 mins, dont feel like being high up on my bed. will take 1 more n few more shots than callin it a night,

i like working out, but def not got motivation at the moment, will be fine 2moz guys fanx 4 concern, keep yaz al update, but chances are in conking out within nxt couple of hours.

i hope your alive dude.

 

[Benzopioid]

firstlygreat advice from the 2 Acid posters,, respect.. So anyway - if thats your experience of valium,,, god knows why you;d want to take them again,, at least stick with 40mg huh? Because trust me valium and sprits dont mix well,,, especially if you've a low tolerance... To be honest I dont know many who'd do that kinda stuff after valium,, it's a godsend for me as I have an anxiety disorder,, so even heavy doses just chill me the fuck out enough to not start panicking around people and sweating - but for most others it just puts them to sleep,, even if on the way to sleep they start slurring their words,, but vodka in your case sounds like an anger potentiator,, so maybe prove me wrong and enjoy a few drinks and your valium and laugh at the daftness of life,c'mon things could be a shitload worse huh?,, and instead of getting angry at others or yourself remember this whole life thing is "just a ride",,, so why bother spoiling anothers ride just because your wasted... Pretty much all Benzo deaths and problems start as a result of mixing them with booze mate,, so be carefull buddy.
I canht preach too much mate as I had a few cans of cider last night with a few valium,, just really as a bit-part in chewing on 240mg of Extended release dihydrocodeine and a plug of 100mg tramado9l and 90mg Instant release dihydrocodeine... That in itself wasnt enough so I ate the grounds of 3 poppy pods which did it for me and after a bit of sleep I'm quite happily mixing sorting out an assignment, chatting to friends and then goin on a nice nod,,, life's sweet.. It was the pods that did it - but I must stress my tolerance levels are sky high and I'm trying to get rid of my supply quickly as I start Narcotics Anonymous tomorow,, but back to what you were sayin,, just try and enjoy the experience,, cuz if all your gettin off it is anger or indifference whats the point? I'm not sure I agree with your point about what you get out of it is based on where you were at before taking,,, I mean I'd agree 100% with psychadelics like acid and shrooms- but valium and maybe a few beers max can send me from highly strung out and anxious to pretty calm and collected- for me valiums more a medication than a drug like the opiate problem I got is,, but anyway remember benzo's and large amounts of alchohol are really a bad mix mate -enjoy your ride mate,, and try and do things that potentiate what your feeling,,, perhaps look at your music collection for the perfect album to put on or watch a funny movie,,peace out bro

Gone for eniminem "recovery" thanks mate.

 

[Cane2theLeft]

This needs to be closed. We're not here to help you get fucked up.. and you don't need to keep bumping your own thread updating us every time you take a shot. Stay safe.

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