elbroski
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Ok so I decided to finally rid myself of that small, "phallic looking" object known as benzedrex.
I took my daily dose of methadone at roughly 12:00 noon. I had a mandatory individual counselor session as well and discussed raising my dose to 60mg (currently 50mg). Hopefully the staff will understand that 50mg simply does not hold me throughout the day and an increase would be beneficial to keeping me "clean"
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I also finally got my prescription for my GABBA GABBA HEY!! TODAY!! So I popped 6, 600mg neurontin about one hour after my meth dose. I really enjoy the anxiolytic properties of this substance and since I haven't taken them in about two weeks I experienced a very nice, and renewed, sense of contentment.
So on to the OTC baby..!
. Soaked the cotton in a small glass of orange juice for about 15 minutes (I know not very long, but surprisingly it worked!) and then choked it down in one nasty gulp. This shit tastes like a bottle of women's perfume... horrid lol.
It is now 3:30pm and I'm at the library typing up this lil report for you guys to read and enjoy. The effects of the gabba are still present, although somewhat diminished. They help a whole lot with the edginess of the propyl and since my 'done is in there too the buzz is a lot calmer than it normally would be. Honestly though I'm a bit frustrated with my meth dose. I know I shouldn't be seeking to get wasted off a maintenance medication but it's so fucking annoying to feel a buzz creepin' up on ya and then nothing again... So lame. But my time is about up for this computer so I'll be back in a bit to continue this journey until night fall when a few ambiens will be thrown into the mix...
Wow, it really is perfect irony that an over the counter decongestant can reveal the nature of reality in all its variety's and complexities. I have never experienced and learned so much from a non-psychedelic drug, especially a stimulant! I've thought a'lot about the nature of chemically induced states of consciousness and the inherent danger in consuming them, (especially in combination with other sacraments!) We are all companions on this website in search of altered states of being, it's so overwhelming at times when you are constantly running, jumping and flying through strange and beautiful landscapes. It truly allows you to see the fragility of "true" reality and being.
I am somewhat saddened however. I'm stuck in a situation where I have no physical companions to share these experiences and endeavors with. My time is up at the library computer so I may hop on the laptop at the house where I'm currently "sleeping" at. The dude who brought me in is truly a good human being with high standards of morality when it comes to interacting with other people... but still, it's so awkward when I'm broke and don't have much to share with the people I'm staying with. I'm really just rambling right now, coming down off the propyl pretty quickly (no food in my stomach) but I'm going to give you guys a proper experience report either tonight or tomorrow morning. I went so many places while high and to be honest I'm beginning to love and accept the "come down" of chemical highs. They are there to experience and learn from, but you must always return to the home base where you are safe and sure and ignorant and full and docile... to recoup your energies and organize your thoughts and emotions so you can grow spiritually. Anyway, my time's up, I'll give ya a propa' tale of me self in the morning.
It's 8:21, the plane has finally landed, and boy do I feel wiped out.. sleep is gonna be great but I'm wondering how the Ambien is going to react with whats left of my little cocktail..swirling about in my tummy
. This was a great experience but not one that I'll be repeating anytime soon. I'm gonna try to lay off the neurontin as well so that I can occasionally get some effects from it.
I took my daily dose of methadone at roughly 12:00 noon. I had a mandatory individual counselor session as well and discussed raising my dose to 60mg (currently 50mg). Hopefully the staff will understand that 50mg simply does not hold me throughout the day and an increase would be beneficial to keeping me "clean"
.I also finally got my prescription for my GABBA GABBA HEY!! TODAY!! So I popped 6, 600mg neurontin about one hour after my meth dose. I really enjoy the anxiolytic properties of this substance and since I haven't taken them in about two weeks I experienced a very nice, and renewed, sense of contentment.
So on to the OTC baby..!
. Soaked the cotton in a small glass of orange juice for about 15 minutes (I know not very long, but surprisingly it worked!) and then choked it down in one nasty gulp. This shit tastes like a bottle of women's perfume... horrid lol. It is now 3:30pm and I'm at the library typing up this lil report for you guys to read and enjoy. The effects of the gabba are still present, although somewhat diminished. They help a whole lot with the edginess of the propyl and since my 'done is in there too the buzz is a lot calmer than it normally would be. Honestly though I'm a bit frustrated with my meth dose. I know I shouldn't be seeking to get wasted off a maintenance medication but it's so fucking annoying to feel a buzz creepin' up on ya and then nothing again... So lame. But my time is about up for this computer so I'll be back in a bit to continue this journey until night fall when a few ambiens will be thrown into the mix...
Wow, it really is perfect irony that an over the counter decongestant can reveal the nature of reality in all its variety's and complexities. I have never experienced and learned so much from a non-psychedelic drug, especially a stimulant! I've thought a'lot about the nature of chemically induced states of consciousness and the inherent danger in consuming them, (especially in combination with other sacraments!) We are all companions on this website in search of altered states of being, it's so overwhelming at times when you are constantly running, jumping and flying through strange and beautiful landscapes. It truly allows you to see the fragility of "true" reality and being.
I am somewhat saddened however. I'm stuck in a situation where I have no physical companions to share these experiences and endeavors with. My time is up at the library computer so I may hop on the laptop at the house where I'm currently "sleeping" at. The dude who brought me in is truly a good human being with high standards of morality when it comes to interacting with other people... but still, it's so awkward when I'm broke and don't have much to share with the people I'm staying with. I'm really just rambling right now, coming down off the propyl pretty quickly (no food in my stomach) but I'm going to give you guys a proper experience report either tonight or tomorrow morning. I went so many places while high and to be honest I'm beginning to love and accept the "come down" of chemical highs. They are there to experience and learn from, but you must always return to the home base where you are safe and sure and ignorant and full and docile... to recoup your energies and organize your thoughts and emotions so you can grow spiritually. Anyway, my time's up, I'll give ya a propa' tale of me self in the morning.
It's 8:21, the plane has finally landed, and boy do I feel wiped out.. sleep is gonna be great but I'm wondering how the Ambien is going to react with whats left of my little cocktail..swirling about in my tummy
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!! I got a shitload of it plus a shit load of baclofen.