Is this the definition of an addictive personality?

[DHCuser]

From a very early age I used to obsess over sweets. I didn't really get pocket money but when I had like 50p or whatever I'd shoot straight over to the sweet shop and get some. I even stole once just to buy sweets, when my parents caught me I just made up some lie that I wanted the money for a magazine or something because I knew how ridiculous it was to teal for sweets.

Then when I was aged about 9 I was reading some medical book about how there was a "drug" called caffeine in tea, coffee and chocolate. When my Mum used to go out (yes she would leave me alone at that age, great parenting) I'd brew 5 or 6 cups of tea and drink them all quickly just enjoying the weird effect it had on my body. I did this several times. Sometimes I'd buy like 4 red bulls before school when I ws about 10 and drink them all quickly, I'd "own" at tag when I did that.

My caffeine obsession continued up until the age of about 14, when I found out caffeine came in pill form I was even more excited, now a full stomach wouldn't hinder me in consuming excessive amounts.
By age 15 I started drinking alcohol on Friday and Saturday evenings, alone. If my Mum was home or there was no alcohol to steal I'd frantically search round for some in ridiculous locations, as if I'd find an old bottle of wine round the house in some stupid location. Mym Mum drank at least a bottle of wine a day so sometimes I'd just take small amounts of that and top it up with soda water.

On the internet at age 17 I discovered co-codamol and cold water extraction and so began an "affair" with that. Soon after I discovered co-drydramol and switched. I used about 3 times a week.
Then in university I discovered tramadol could be purchased online and now spend about £90 a month on it...

Do all of you guys have a similar story? I couldn't stand the idea of a drug free life, life needs something in it to make it more interesting.
Strangely, when I fell in love with some girl my drug use practically vanished... until she broke up with me

P.S. Maybe caffeine is the gateway drug they all say cannabis is!

 

[WorldWarMe]

Yes, I do think you have an addictive personality.

I'm the same tho. At around grade 9 or so I started smoking weed and drinking once a week, then it moved on to Ecstasy in grade 11, which I used very regularly (not knowing the dangers). I then started to read online about legal highs, to which I tried Nutmeg, Benadryl, DXM, etc. After that I found out about CWE's and tryd those a few times with no success. Around grade 12 I was an everyday smoker of weed, was addicted to cigarrettes and was doing atleast one drug a week.

 

[Fornax55]

I wouldn't even bother to ask... if you're compulsively consuming caffeine (though most everyone does this) at such high rates just to catch a buzz, and you're stealing booze to drink by yourself on weekends, I'd say that defines an addictive personality.

Please, stay away from drugs for your own sake... (sorry if this sounds harsh, but I wouldn't want to see you go down the wrong road.)

 

[DHCuser]

I wouldn't even bother to ask... if you're compulsively consuming caffeine (though most everyone does this) at such high rates just to catch a buzz, and you're stealing booze to drink by yourself on weekends, I'd say that defines an addictive personality.

Please, stay away from drugs for your own sake... (sorry if this sounds harsh, but I wouldn't want to see you go down the wrong road.)

Way to stop reading half way through a post.
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And yea I too have done the nutmeg, and diphenhydramine thing, both hellish. Plus I just found out my tramadol order is gonna be delayed! Ahhhh!

 

[Jabberwocky]

Personalities are not static things. Even the components of personality are not static. All humans tend to be drawn to things that give pleasure and have periods where they overfocus on certain activities. If addictive personality means that you have a permanent disability regarding delaying gratification than you are really screwed. If it means that you have to struggle at times with discipline and delaying gratification than you are in about the same situation as the rest of humanity.

I realize that these issues are a bigger struggle for some people than others. I question if identification with the addictive personality schema really helps people very much. I am less apt to be organized than a lot of people. I identify myself as a disorganization prone personality. Are my answers going to come from reading about other disorganized people or from studying organized people? Probably a little of both. Over time I might change my dominant traits and habits enough that I'm less disorganized. Its good to have a realistic self assessment as best as we can, but some sorts of identification tend to not be empowering and can end up holding us back.

 

[Fornax55]

Way to stop reading half way through a post.
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And yea I too have done the nutmeg, and diphenhydramine thing, both hellish. Plus I just found out my tramadol order is gonna be delayed! Ahhhh!

let me correct myself - if OP has displayed such blatantly addictive traits in the past, the odds of them remaining or resurfacing when s/he's presented with a substance is much greater. %)