girlygrrl
Bluelighter
I hope this TR doesn't get infractions as some of my other posts got nuked when I was on a crazy trip.
Suffice it to say I went appx. six weeks without sleeping for more than an hour or two doing a very long LSD bender where I was time traveling and astral projecting all across the spectrum from 1969 to 2019.
I was taking mephedrone and m1 and dxm and nitrous and 2c-e and salvia on and off for this whole period of time.
After I hit the final bit of LSD where I dropped about 300ug's and was on a major m1/meph bender at the same time then I decided to go all out.
I comboed appx. 20mg 4-aco-met with 30mg 2-c-t2 and 2 or 3 mg (eyeballed) of MDPPP.
While I'm physically doing just fine, that combo sent me to two mental hospitals in 48 hours where all sorts of weird stuff was happening, telepathy, telekinesis, mind control, I don't know, it is all very weird.
I feel like I died and came back to life dozens of times and remembered way too much information for a living person to know.
Somehow I am re-integrated and have been taking fluphenzine and sedatives to catch up on the sleep that I've missed for a long time.
I feel like I figured out all sorts of really deep things about life and death and whatever, in fact I no longer am the least bit worried about death anymore, and while I am in no rush to die I do not fear it in any way.
I went off to some world in another timeline that I dub Wetopia, I feel like all the celebrities going off the deep in lately are really just carbon-based biological computer avatars, and that Planet Earth is a biological carbon-based computer.
I feel like I know the secrets to zero-point energy and can time travel and teleport and spontaneously combust if I wanted to.
I met Gaia aka mother earth and she was telling me how upset she was about how she keeps getting painted as "satan" or "the devil" or whatever. How she is in harmony with the dolphins and whales and they are actively re-programming human soul avatars.
I learned about how souls work, how many of us have two souls and that multiple souls can pop in and out of human vessels at any time given proper consent but the problem is that amnesia is built in to the system to where each time this happens people forget.
But I don't forget anymore, I remember these things.
I feel like the ultimate lie is that we are "children of gods" and the ultimate truth is that we are "children gods".
That whatever created planet earth's computer system has left the children gods here to play, the creator of life the universe and everything is no longer participating in the cosmic joke that is "Plan ET From Outer Space"?
That the next step in human evolution is that we remember that we're children gods and follow our intuition much more closely.
That ego and greed and lust are bully-shit, that we need to just grow up and get over ourselves, we're avatars for our collective's noodley "spiritual" appendages. The trick of this evolution is that we are like fingers to deities and deities pass us around and trade up each other like a kid with a deck of pokemon cards.
That human avatars don't age as long as they are creating something interesting or entertaining or useful to entertain their creator, that human avatars can choose what deity they want to be attached to.
That time is like a mobius strip sometimes so depending on your "mood" and your "karma" then what goes around comes around very quickly and bitch-slaps you right away.
But then time sometimes is like a rubber band for awhile and your mood determines if you end up on the outside of the band (heaven) or the inside of the band (hell).
That time branches out like a tree and has memory limits and has to be "reset" or "loop" after awhile and 2020 is the year when we get "stuck" with "memory problems".
That when you sleep timelines merge together and create new collective memories.
There is just so much to this that I can't even begin to explain it all but somehow I experienced ego loss at a very high level and I want to talk about it with anyone who will listen.
I feel like people take certain things too seriously, like bloodlines, like what happens after "death", like dogma, like money.
And that people don't take serious things that they should like self-management, forcing oneself to be in a "good" mood, working together with others cooperatively and forgiving those who hurt them.
That there are all these thought viruses and energy parasites running around stealing precious memories and selling them to the highest bidder, that photos not being hung up around the house of those you consider family is a problem, that not taking pictures at events and actively remembering them is a problem.
that people are being lost and erased and whatever to the black hole / 666 virus / child of god = 2/3 a god instead of an actual god kind of thing.
Like how parody is way more serious biz than real life, and when you see parodies it seems more "real" to you, like cosmically everything is a big joke and the deities want us all to lighten up and play nice together on the sandbox of planet earth.
So please feel free to PM me, field me any questions, I feel like I have "all the answers" but not talking about it is a burden, I am happy to answer any questions, I think I have died and come back to life more than just about anyone I've ever heard of and I've experienced ego loss all the way around the loop multiple times and still remember things, it is very deep and weird and philosophical.
And somehow I'm not a vegetable but am still walking around like a normal person?
Suffice it to say I went appx. six weeks without sleeping for more than an hour or two doing a very long LSD bender where I was time traveling and astral projecting all across the spectrum from 1969 to 2019.
I was taking mephedrone and m1 and dxm and nitrous and 2c-e and salvia on and off for this whole period of time.
After I hit the final bit of LSD where I dropped about 300ug's and was on a major m1/meph bender at the same time then I decided to go all out.
I comboed appx. 20mg 4-aco-met with 30mg 2-c-t2 and 2 or 3 mg (eyeballed) of MDPPP.
While I'm physically doing just fine, that combo sent me to two mental hospitals in 48 hours where all sorts of weird stuff was happening, telepathy, telekinesis, mind control, I don't know, it is all very weird.
I feel like I died and came back to life dozens of times and remembered way too much information for a living person to know.
Somehow I am re-integrated and have been taking fluphenzine and sedatives to catch up on the sleep that I've missed for a long time.
I feel like I figured out all sorts of really deep things about life and death and whatever, in fact I no longer am the least bit worried about death anymore, and while I am in no rush to die I do not fear it in any way.
I went off to some world in another timeline that I dub Wetopia, I feel like all the celebrities going off the deep in lately are really just carbon-based biological computer avatars, and that Planet Earth is a biological carbon-based computer.
I feel like I know the secrets to zero-point energy and can time travel and teleport and spontaneously combust if I wanted to.
I met Gaia aka mother earth and she was telling me how upset she was about how she keeps getting painted as "satan" or "the devil" or whatever. How she is in harmony with the dolphins and whales and they are actively re-programming human soul avatars.
I learned about how souls work, how many of us have two souls and that multiple souls can pop in and out of human vessels at any time given proper consent but the problem is that amnesia is built in to the system to where each time this happens people forget.
But I don't forget anymore, I remember these things.
I feel like the ultimate lie is that we are "children of gods" and the ultimate truth is that we are "children gods".
That whatever created planet earth's computer system has left the children gods here to play, the creator of life the universe and everything is no longer participating in the cosmic joke that is "Plan ET From Outer Space"?
That the next step in human evolution is that we remember that we're children gods and follow our intuition much more closely.
That ego and greed and lust are bully-shit, that we need to just grow up and get over ourselves, we're avatars for our collective's noodley "spiritual" appendages. The trick of this evolution is that we are like fingers to deities and deities pass us around and trade up each other like a kid with a deck of pokemon cards.
That human avatars don't age as long as they are creating something interesting or entertaining or useful to entertain their creator, that human avatars can choose what deity they want to be attached to.
That time is like a mobius strip sometimes so depending on your "mood" and your "karma" then what goes around comes around very quickly and bitch-slaps you right away.
But then time sometimes is like a rubber band for awhile and your mood determines if you end up on the outside of the band (heaven) or the inside of the band (hell).
That time branches out like a tree and has memory limits and has to be "reset" or "loop" after awhile and 2020 is the year when we get "stuck" with "memory problems".
That when you sleep timelines merge together and create new collective memories.
There is just so much to this that I can't even begin to explain it all but somehow I experienced ego loss at a very high level and I want to talk about it with anyone who will listen.
I feel like people take certain things too seriously, like bloodlines, like what happens after "death", like dogma, like money.
And that people don't take serious things that they should like self-management, forcing oneself to be in a "good" mood, working together with others cooperatively and forgiving those who hurt them.
That there are all these thought viruses and energy parasites running around stealing precious memories and selling them to the highest bidder, that photos not being hung up around the house of those you consider family is a problem, that not taking pictures at events and actively remembering them is a problem.
that people are being lost and erased and whatever to the black hole / 666 virus / child of god = 2/3 a god instead of an actual god kind of thing.
Like how parody is way more serious biz than real life, and when you see parodies it seems more "real" to you, like cosmically everything is a big joke and the deities want us all to lighten up and play nice together on the sandbox of planet earth.
So please feel free to PM me, field me any questions, I feel like I have "all the answers" but not talking about it is a burden, I am happy to answer any questions, I think I have died and come back to life more than just about anyone I've ever heard of and I've experienced ego loss all the way around the loop multiple times and still remember things, it is very deep and weird and philosophical.
And somehow I'm not a vegetable but am still walking around like a normal person?
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