I've been very excited to try cocaine but at the same time very scared. Mainly because of all the stories about bad comedowns and the addiction factor. And I KNOW I have an addictive personality because both the drugs I've tried (weed and E), I totally have fallen in LOVE with! I don't do either very often but I'm always craving a toke or anticipating my next roll and I think of drugs a lot.
I jumped at the chance of trying it with this guy I met at a conference. He's done it plenty of times and by his standards, had some real good stuff. We had spent most of the week together (nothing sexual) so even though he was still a stranger, he seemed pretty trustworthy plus he didn't push it on me.
We decided to get one of the cabanas by the pool, do some lines, swim and just chill in the sun. The cabanas had large flaps on the sides for privacy and just to be extra careful, we got the one at the very end far away from the bar and entrance.
He pulled out one of those baggies and told me he still had to chop it up so we found one of those cup coasters and he chopped away with the hotel key card. He made 4 lines and told me I could do whatever I felt comfortable with. He did 2 and I did a small line. I was suprised at how smooth it was, no burning but just a peppery cooling sensation and within minutes the side of my nose and throat went numb. He showed me how to rub some of it along my gums (not sure what the purpose of that was for but it felt pretty neat). So there was 1 fat line left and I kind of made a mess and left remains from the other line. He asked if I wanted the rest and I told him I wanted to wait first to see what would happen. THEN he said, okay and took the coaster and started shaking the rest of it on the floor!!! I was pretty shocked because although I don't know how much coke costs, I heard it was pretty expensive. I couldn't help but say too loud, geez you are just going to waste that off? He laughed and told me he had more but didn't want it sitting around incase someone came.
So I started feeling more talkative, running my hands through my hair and getting pretty restless. I waited for that BANG moment when everything changes like it does when you are on E and it hits you or the sudden onset of giggling uncontrolably but after 15 mins... nothing. I felt good the same way I feel good when I have a couple of drinks. Meanwhile, this guy was high and telling me how good the stuff was. He was talking a lot and asking all sorts of questions. 30 mins passed and we decided to do some more so he cuts it up again in 4 lines and he does 2. At first the chunks didn't look like much but after he was done chopping it, there seem to be quite a lot! I told him my 2 lines were too much so I just did 1 and a half and once again, he just tossed the coaster aside with the remaining stuff all over it! Honestly, I was more fascinated with why he kept wasting it until he explained that he almost got caught once so is now very paranoid of having it exposed like that. Plus I figured out what he did and knew he made a crapload of money so whatever (but I still thought what a waste)! He wasn't the type to go out of control on it either, especially during a conference, so he said no sense in saving it!
I started feeling pretty good this time but still no "WOW, OMG, I'm on top of the world" feeling. It was more that I just wanted to lie there in the sun, talk to him and was perfectly happy not doing anything else. I also didn't really crave another line (the way I do when I'm rolling like crazy and just want to drop another pill). It was more that I wanted another line to see if I can intensify the high. I did however, really like the numbing sensation of my lips and it felt good to lick and touch them. I don't typically play with my hair but I did that a lot too. My nose appeared to be running but it wasn't bad and the dripping in back of throat was slightly bitter. I'm also touchy feely when I'm high but this time, I wasn't so much.
I ended up doing one more line (so not to waste it)! I could feel myself getting excited but there was no real peak and during the next 30 mins, I felt free, my body was warm and really enjoyed the numbing sensation. I could feel more of the come-down this time - I can't describe it but it's almost like things were "normal" again like the conversation we were having was not as fascinating however, I didn't really crave another line. And it was NO WHERE even close to a come-down on E where you actually get sad and emotional and will do almost anything to keep the high going. Of course, we could have kept going but we had business dinners scheduled so we parted ways.
I did end up going back to the hotel, got naked and basically pleasured myself (wink). Orgasms are definitely better when on drugs so that is when I kind of wanted another line (right before I was about to come)!
So the verdict: definitely can have fun on it pretty much anywhere. I really liked that I could do it and still carry myself well in the public (unlike you get when you are rolling your face off or you are all dreamy and forgetful when you smoke pot). It also doesn't last long so I didn't have to waste a whole day recovering and catching up on sleep. I would love to do it again but I'm ok with it if months pass until the next time.
I jumped at the chance of trying it with this guy I met at a conference. He's done it plenty of times and by his standards, had some real good stuff. We had spent most of the week together (nothing sexual) so even though he was still a stranger, he seemed pretty trustworthy plus he didn't push it on me.
We decided to get one of the cabanas by the pool, do some lines, swim and just chill in the sun. The cabanas had large flaps on the sides for privacy and just to be extra careful, we got the one at the very end far away from the bar and entrance.
He pulled out one of those baggies and told me he still had to chop it up so we found one of those cup coasters and he chopped away with the hotel key card. He made 4 lines and told me I could do whatever I felt comfortable with. He did 2 and I did a small line. I was suprised at how smooth it was, no burning but just a peppery cooling sensation and within minutes the side of my nose and throat went numb. He showed me how to rub some of it along my gums (not sure what the purpose of that was for but it felt pretty neat). So there was 1 fat line left and I kind of made a mess and left remains from the other line. He asked if I wanted the rest and I told him I wanted to wait first to see what would happen. THEN he said, okay and took the coaster and started shaking the rest of it on the floor!!! I was pretty shocked because although I don't know how much coke costs, I heard it was pretty expensive. I couldn't help but say too loud, geez you are just going to waste that off? He laughed and told me he had more but didn't want it sitting around incase someone came.
So I started feeling more talkative, running my hands through my hair and getting pretty restless. I waited for that BANG moment when everything changes like it does when you are on E and it hits you or the sudden onset of giggling uncontrolably but after 15 mins... nothing. I felt good the same way I feel good when I have a couple of drinks. Meanwhile, this guy was high and telling me how good the stuff was. He was talking a lot and asking all sorts of questions. 30 mins passed and we decided to do some more so he cuts it up again in 4 lines and he does 2. At first the chunks didn't look like much but after he was done chopping it, there seem to be quite a lot! I told him my 2 lines were too much so I just did 1 and a half and once again, he just tossed the coaster aside with the remaining stuff all over it! Honestly, I was more fascinated with why he kept wasting it until he explained that he almost got caught once so is now very paranoid of having it exposed like that. Plus I figured out what he did and knew he made a crapload of money so whatever (but I still thought what a waste)! He wasn't the type to go out of control on it either, especially during a conference, so he said no sense in saving it!
I started feeling pretty good this time but still no "WOW, OMG, I'm on top of the world" feeling. It was more that I just wanted to lie there in the sun, talk to him and was perfectly happy not doing anything else. I also didn't really crave another line (the way I do when I'm rolling like crazy and just want to drop another pill). It was more that I wanted another line to see if I can intensify the high. I did however, really like the numbing sensation of my lips and it felt good to lick and touch them. I don't typically play with my hair but I did that a lot too. My nose appeared to be running but it wasn't bad and the dripping in back of throat was slightly bitter. I'm also touchy feely when I'm high but this time, I wasn't so much.
I ended up doing one more line (so not to waste it)! I could feel myself getting excited but there was no real peak and during the next 30 mins, I felt free, my body was warm and really enjoyed the numbing sensation. I could feel more of the come-down this time - I can't describe it but it's almost like things were "normal" again like the conversation we were having was not as fascinating however, I didn't really crave another line. And it was NO WHERE even close to a come-down on E where you actually get sad and emotional and will do almost anything to keep the high going. Of course, we could have kept going but we had business dinners scheduled so we parted ways.
I did end up going back to the hotel, got naked and basically pleasured myself (wink). Orgasms are definitely better when on drugs so that is when I kind of wanted another line (right before I was about to come)!
So the verdict: definitely can have fun on it pretty much anywhere. I really liked that I could do it and still carry myself well in the public (unlike you get when you are rolling your face off or you are all dreamy and forgetful when you smoke pot). It also doesn't last long so I didn't have to waste a whole day recovering and catching up on sleep. I would love to do it again but I'm ok with it if months pass until the next time.
