Like I said in another thread today, you are making a mockery of the entire NA program and its members by repeatedly doing this. It seems to not phase you, either that or you're just insinuating that you think it's funny as a defence mechanism. I can understand if every now and then someone has to succumb to their cravings and relapses on the day of a meeting, but still attends said meeting. That's understandable and it's inevitable, which is why other people at the meeting would seem to not mind if you're high. But what you're doing seems to be in complete contempt of all the other people who are attending the meetings for their correct purpose, the people who are actually trying really hard to stay clean.
If you don't want to be clean, and if you don't want to go to the meetings, could you consider moving out of your parents house? Is it really worth lying to them and lying to yourself the way that you are?
Or perhaps you do want to be sober, but you're scared. It is really hard to stay sober, but every human has the capacity and strength within them to do it. You just need to try.
Nobody notices that I am high. I go in do my thing, they do their thing, no ones recovery is at all touched by my "high persona"...
Yea, I GET TRASHED and just fuckin RAGE at the meetings! Yea right, I go , get my shit signed, dont say a word, and go home and fuckin dose up.