Soap MacTavish
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jul 12, 2010
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- 293
Hello,
This is pretty much my 3rd day awake on amps. Bad move I know. I'm an addict so I have no power against things like this. Today I'm actually trying to turn it all around after a bad episode of rage over the weekend. Anyway, I have been hearing quite clearly, new songs I have never heard before that are emanating and being actively altered and created in my head. I hear them everywhere all the time and I can actually quite nicely control the songs orchestration, arrange and sequence it, and it gets quite amazingly detailed at times even with lyrics. This is actually enjoyable to me though, I do like it.
Anyway, I hallucinate auditory experiences regularly at times like this, I can sometimes hear the inverse waveform of normal sounds too. But this only comes during extreme circumstances nearing psychosis.
It also once happened when I was awake for 16 days straight through my benzo withdrawal.
It might sound like a scary thing to hear these voices and richly orchestrated sequences of sounds and vibrations but I always know they are not real and quite in my mind.
Am I right on the edge of psychosis or does this happen to anybody else? Is it mainly a sleep deprivation thing?
This is pretty much my 3rd day awake on amps. Bad move I know. I'm an addict so I have no power against things like this. Today I'm actually trying to turn it all around after a bad episode of rage over the weekend. Anyway, I have been hearing quite clearly, new songs I have never heard before that are emanating and being actively altered and created in my head. I hear them everywhere all the time and I can actually quite nicely control the songs orchestration, arrange and sequence it, and it gets quite amazingly detailed at times even with lyrics. This is actually enjoyable to me though, I do like it.
Anyway, I hallucinate auditory experiences regularly at times like this, I can sometimes hear the inverse waveform of normal sounds too. But this only comes during extreme circumstances nearing psychosis.
It also once happened when I was awake for 16 days straight through my benzo withdrawal.
It might sound like a scary thing to hear these voices and richly orchestrated sequences of sounds and vibrations but I always know they are not real and quite in my mind.
Am I right on the edge of psychosis or does this happen to anybody else? Is it mainly a sleep deprivation thing?
